‘You know, Adele,’ I said as I twisted the cap and shook out a round white tablet. ‘It’s OK to ask for help. Remember, no woman is an island.’
I watched Adele rise to her feet and carry the tablet into the kitchen. By this time we’d pretty much settled on our strategy and my thoughts had taken a more playful turn. Adele’s body, when in motion, had always contradicted her customary air of self-control. Far from willowy, her shoulders were relatively broad, her confident stride an unconscious echo of the fearlessness so obvious in her gaze. I followed that body into the kitchen where I almost got up the nerve to make the move I’d been dreaming about for many months. That I settled for a glimpse of the nape of her neck as she bent over the sink had nothing to do with Mel, or with a justifiable fear of the shape her rejection might take. No, the reason I didn’t press my lips to Adele’s neck sprang from a fear of acceptance. This wasn’t about a weekend rendezvous, two days of give and take before everybody goes home, the party’s over. In many ways, Adele had remained a mystery to me throughout our partnership, but there was no mistaking this piece of the puzzle. Adele Bentibi was commitment prone.
A half-hour later, Adele retreated to her room, already a little woozy, and I was off to the Y for a swim. Though I’d hoped to relax into an easy rhythm, I never did find my stroke and spent forty-five minutes thrashing around. I didn’t think about Dante Russo as I thrashed, or any of the other actors, or even about Adele. Instead, my thoughts drifted to the day Roderigo Carrabal slashed my chest on the basketball court behind the Jacob Riis Houses. At the time, we were disputing an out-of-bounds call.
Carrabal was trying for my face, which I managed to jerk out of the way. As it was, the gash ran from one shoulder to the other, passing just beneath my collar bone, and required stitches on the inside as well as the outside.
The stitches were sewn into my flesh at Cabrini Hospital on 19th Street by a sour-tempered resident who greeted every flinch with a disapproving scowl. Still, the resident was a deal kinder than the two detectives who interviewed me later on. They smelled an easy collar and when I insisted that I couldn’t identify my assailant, they finally smacked me in the head, one after the other, before they took off.
I began to stalk Roderigo Carrabal long before my wound healed. He was never out of my mind, not for a waking moment. I felt that I’d been put to a test. If I didn’t pass, I’d be engulfed by the fear still crouched somewhere in my subconscious, held at bay only by the promise of revenge.
Roderigo wasn’t much of a fighter as it turned out. When I finally caught him alone, he looked at the length of pipe in my right hand and began to beg in a mix of Spanish and English that left no doubt as to his sincerity. It didn’t help him, though.
TWENTY-SIX
I got on the phone at seven-thirty the following morning, to the NYPD’s sick desk in Lefrak City where I explained that I was fighting a bad cold and would be out, probably for the next few days. The desk officer took my information without comment, then hung up. Ten minutes later, my phone rang. It was Bill Sarney.
‘What’s up, Harry?’ he asked. ‘I just got a call from the sick desk.’
I let my voice drop to a near whisper. ‘I gotta keep it down,’ I said. ‘Adele’s in the shower.’ In fact, she’d come into my office and was standing ten feet away.
‘She’s staying with you?’
‘Yup, I talked her into it. I didn’t see any other way to keep track of what she was doing.’
‘And that’s why you called in sick?’
‘Now you’re gettin’ it.’
After a brief pause, Sarney declared, ‘I like it, Harry, but I do have one question.’
‘And what’s that?’
‘You nailin’ the bitch?’
‘Nailing Adele? Shit, I’d rather get in bed with a crocodile. This is a woman who bites.’
When I glanced at Adele and found her smiling, my mood lightened for the first time in weeks. The sense was as much physical as psychological, a slight rising on the balls of my feet, a sharpening of my attention. No more conflict. Now I could focus.
‘Yeah, well speaking of biting, you have any idea what she’s up to?’
‘Healing, Bill, is about all she can manage right now.’
‘Yeah, I heard she got mugged.’ Sarney delivered the party line smoothly, just to make certain that we were all in agreement. When I didn’t argue the point, he continued. ‘But I didn’t think it was that bad. The lieutenant at the One-Eleven told me she only had a slight-’
‘Wait a second.’ I put my hand over the mouthpiece and counted slowly to five. ‘Adele just turned off the water in the shower. We better make this quick. Look, all I know for sure is that she got her hands on the David Lodge file and she’s been feeding bits of it to Gruber at the Times.’
‘This is not news, Harry.’
‘OK, the other thing is that she wants to go public with her injuries. You know, claiming that she was set up by other cops.’ I paused again, this time only for a second, then said, ‘I gotta go, Bill. She’s comin’ out.’
Adele was still smiling when I followed her into the office where she took a seat before my computer. I remember that her pajamas, blue and silky, were airing on the carefully made single bed, and that a vaguely floral scent hung in the air. I breathed that scent eagerly as I squatted behind her chair and peered at the monitor on the desk. Generally, my apartment smelled faintly of the chlorine I brought home from the pool.
Prior to Sarney’s call, Adele had been checking out the source of the email I’d received on the prior morning, the one that included Russo’s photograph. In my ignorance, I’d hoped the return address would be of value in identifying the sender. No such luck.
‘A public library,’ Adele told me, ‘in Brooklyn.’ After a moment, she added, ‘Library computers are designed to serve people who can’t afford their own computers, to give them open access to the internet.’
‘Which means?’
‘That anybody with a library card might have sent that email.’
I took the mouse from Adele and quickly accessed my new messages, hoping to hear from B. Arnold@midwood/BPL. lib. But I struck out there as well and shut down the computer.
‘Time to get moving.’
Adele stood and followed me into the living room. She was wearing a pair of neatly creased white slacks over a loose turtleneck sweater. I imagined her slowly drawing her right arm through the sweater’s sleeve, inch by inch, noting that her bra had defeated her altogether. Helping Adele dress was her husband’s job, of course, one of those in-sickness-and-in-health obligations you take on when you pronounce your wedding vows. Another humiliation for Adele, for whom going bra-less had never been a possibility.
I walked to the closet nearest the front door and lifted a Kevlar vest from a hanger. Like most detectives, I rarely wore body armor on the street, my job not being all that dangerous. But things were different now, and I needed to acknowledge the changed circumstances. Removing my shirt and sliding into the vest did just that. There’s nothing like the weight of Grade II body armor to concentrate the mind.
I made one stop before heading off to Greenpoint, at a tiny store on 14th Street where I contracted for a pair of pre-paid cell phones, putting 300 minutes on each one. Then I returned to my apartment where I gave one to Adele. She took the phone from my hand, then rose on tiptoes to kiss me on the cheek. Though the kiss was very gentle, she winced before settling on her heels.