"This guy ain't into empty threats," Marino said quietly as I sipped.
"He's probably just jerking me around because I'm involved in the case. Taunting. It's not unusual for psychopaths to taunt investigators or even send them souvenirs."
I didn't really believe it. Certainly Marino didn't.
"I'm going to keep a unit or two staked out. We'll watch your house," he said. "And I got a couple rules for you. Follow them to the letter. No fooling around."
He met my eyes. "For starters, whatever your normal routines are, I want you to scramble them up as much as possible. If you usually go to the grocery store on Friday afternoon, go on Wednesday next time and pick a different store. Don't ever set foot outside your house or car without looking around. You see anything that catches your eye, like a strange car parked on the street or evidence anybody's been on your property, you haul ass out of there or keep yourself locked up tight in here and call the police. When you walk inside your house, if you sense anything - I mean if you so much as get a creepy feeling-get out of here, find a phone and call the police, ask an officer to accompany you inside to make sure everything's okay."
"I've got a burglar alarm," I said.
"So did Beryl."
"She let the bastard in."
"You don't let nobody in you're not sure about."
"What's he going to do, bypass my alarm system?" I persisted.
"Anything's possible."
I remembered Wesley saying that.
"No leaving your office after dark or when nobody else is around. The same applies to your coming in. If you usually come in when it's still pretty dark, the parking lot empty, start coming in a little later. Keep your answering machine on. Tape everything. You get another call, get hold of me immediately. A couple more and we'll put a trap on your line-"
"Like you did with Beryl?" I was beginning to get angry.
He didn't respond.
"What, Marino? Will my rights be honored in the breach, too? When it's too damn late to do me any damn good?"
"You want me to sleep on your couch tonight?" he asked calmly.
Facing the morning was hard enough. I envisioned Marino in boxer shorts, a T-shirt stretched taut over his big belly as he padded barefooted in the general direction of the bathroom. He probably still left the seat up.
"I'll be fine," I said.
"You've got a license for carrying a gun, don't you?"
"Carrying a concealed weapon?" I asked.
"No."
He pushed back his chair, deciding. "I'll have a little chat with Judge Reinhard in the morning. We'll get you one."
That was all. It was almost midnight.
Moments later I was alone and unable to sleep. I downed another shot of brandy, then one more, and lay in bed staring up at the dark ceiling. If you have enough bad things happen to you in life, others begin to privately question if you invite them, are a magnet that attracts misfortune or danger or dysfunction. I was beginning to wonder. Maybe Ethridge was right, I got too involved in my cases and placed myself at risk. I'd had close calls before that could have sent me spinning off into eternity.
When I finally faded into sleep, I dreamed nonsensical things. Ethridge burned a hole in his vest with a cigar ash. Fielding was working on a body that was beginning to look like a pin cushion because he couldn't find an artery that had any blood. Marino was riding a pogo stick up a steep hill and I knew he was going to fall.
12
In the early morning I stood inside my dark living room, staring out at the shadows and shapes of my property.
My Plymouth wasn't back from the state garage. As I looked out at the oversize station wagon I was stuck with, I found myself wondering how difficult it would be for a grown man to hide under it and grab my foot as I unlocked the driver's door. He wouldn't need to kill me. I would die of a heart attack fust. The street beyond was empty, street lights burning dimly. Peering through the barely parted draperies, I saw nothing. I heard nothing. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary. Probably nothing had seemed out of the ordinary when Gary Harper had driven home from the tavern, either.
My breakfast appointment with the attorney general was in less than an hour. I was going to be late if I didn't muster up the courage to step outside my own front door and negotiate the thirty feet of sidewalk that would lead me to my car. I studied the shrubbery and small dogwoods bordering my front lawn, scrutinizing their quiet silhouettes as the sky lightened by degrees. The moon was roundly iridescent like a white morning glory, grass silver with frost.
How had he gotten to their houses, to my house? He had to have some means of transportation. There had been little speculation about the killer's ability to move around. Type of vehicle is as much a part of criminal profiling as age and race are, and yet no one was commenting, not even Wesley. I wondered why as I stared at the vacant street. And Wesley's grim demeanor in Quantico still bothered me.
I voiced my concern as Ethridge and I were eating breakfast.
"It may be, simply, that there are things Wesley chooses not to tell you," he suggested.
"He's always been very open with me in the past."
"The Bureau tends to be very closemouthed, Kay."
"Wesley is a profiler," I replied. "He's always been generous with his theories and opinions. But in this instance he's not talking. He's barely profiling these cases at all. His personality has changed. He's humorless, and he scarcely looks me in the eyes. It's weird and incredibly unnerving."
I took a deep breath.
Then Ethridge said, "You're still feeling isolated, aren't you, Kay?"
"Yes, Tom."
"And just a little paranoid."
"That, too," I said.
"Do you trust me, Kay? Do you believe I'm on your side and have your best interests in mind?" he asked.
I nodded and took another deep breath. We were talking in quiet voices inside the dining room of the Capitol Hotel, a favorite watering hole for politicians and plutocrats. Three tables away sat Senator Par-tin, his well-known face more wrinkled than I remembered as he talked seriously to a young man I had seen somewhere before.
"Most of us feel isolated and paranoid during stressful times. We feel alone in the wilderness."
Ethridge's eyes were kind on me, his face troubled.
"I am alone in the wilderness," I replied. "I feel that way because it's true."
"I can see why Wesley is worried."
"Of course."
"What worries me about you, Kay, is you're basing your theories on intuition, going on instinct. Sometimes that can be very dangerous."
"Sometimes it can be. But it can also be very dangerous when people begin to make things too complicated. Murder is usually depressingly simple."
"Not always, though."
"Almost always, Tom."
"You don't think Sparacino's machinations are related to these deaths?"
the attorney general queried.
"I think it would be all too easy to be distracted by his machinations. What he's doing and what the killer is doing could be trains running on parallel tracks. Both of them dangerous, even deadly. But not the same. Not connected. Not driven by the same forces."
"You don't think the missing manuscript is connected?"
"I don't know."
"You're no closer to knowing?"
The interrogation made me feel as if I hadn't done my homework. I wished he hadn't asked.
"No, Tom," I admitted. "I have no idea where it is."
"Is it possible it could be what Sterling Harper burned in her fireplace right before she died?"
"I don't think so. The documents examiner looked at charred bits of paper, identified them as twenty-pound, high-quality rag. They're consistent with fine stationery or the paper lawyers use for legal documents. It's very unlikely someone would write a book draft on paper like that. It's more likely Miss Harper burned letters, personal papers."