Becker leaned into his face, snarling. "You think I can't? You think I can't!"
"Without the law to hide behind?… No, I don't think you can," Kom said. He smiled broadly. His teeth were smeared with blood. "I don't think you can kill someone just because you decide to do it. That takes someone special… And you're not that special, are you, John? You've got the reputation, but it really always was self-defense, wasn't it?"
Kom's eyes were merry, taunting Becker.
"Don't bet on it."
Kom laughed, jeering at him, daring him to prove himself. "Then go ahead, John. Kill me. You'll like it, I promise.
"Stay away from my wife," Becker hissed.
Kom continued to chuckle.
"You having trouble satisfying her, John?"
Becker hit him twice in rapid succession, each a short, powerful stroke delivered to the mouth. Kom's head bounced against the wall and as his body started to sag Becker removed his forearm and let him crumple to the floor.
Kom felt his lips and teeth with his fingers, probing gingerly. He looked up at Becker, his hands now smeared with blood.
"Well, it hurts, but it's hardly lethal, is it, John? Hardly the same as killing me."
Becker stood over him, feeling at once both murderous and impotent. He wanted to kick Kom until he was silent, wanted to smash the derisive smile off his face, but he now realized that short of rendering the man unconscious, neither force nor intimidation would do it.
"And this kind of biases your case, doesn't it, John? FBI brutality? An agent making charges against a man he thinks is shtupping his wife? How seriously is a judge going to take that case?"
Becker stabbed at a button and the alarm stopped, and the elevator continued on its way upward. At the first stop Becker got out, leaving Kom still on the floor. Kom made no effort to stand, but Becker heard his mocking laughter as he walked away.
"You can have your small triumphs. It takes someone special to really win, John," Kom called gaily after him, just before the doors closed and shut him off.
Thirty-five minutes later, at 9: 1 0 P.m., Dr. Stanley Kom, his face a mess with badly swollen lips and nose, rose to make a toast at the dinner whose guests included the Clamden Chief of Police and four agents of the FBI as well as the Bureau's Associate Deputy Director in charge of Serial Killings. He seemed to all those present to be in exceptionally good spirits for a man who looked as if he had just dived face first onto the sidewalk. He tapped his glass for silence, then made a heartfelt speech in honor of his great friend John Becker.
Karen squeezed Becker's arm and he tried to smile at her, to appear as surprised and touched as he was supposed to. His surprise was genuine, but as guest after guest rose to say something affectionate and funny and playfully insulting about him, Becker's real attention was on the scene in the elevator. He had missed something, his jealous fury had overwhelmed not only his good sense but his instinct as well. Now, in retrospect, as the heat of his rage seeped away, the intuition bred by a lifetime of experience returned to him. Kom had told him he could have his small triumphs, but he could never really win. He was not special.
Presumably that meant that Kom was special. In what way?
What did he think he had that Becker lacked? It was not Karen, Becker was certain of that much. It was when he mentioned Karen that Becker had seen the change in Kom's eyes. It was then that Kom changed character. If Karen had been the issue, Kom would have remained as frightened, but he had not, he had obviously thought initially that Becker was after something else.
Tee rose and launched into a deadpan series of insults that had the crowd in stitches. Karen glanced at Becker continually, squeezing his arm, checking on his enjoyment as if she would appreciate the jokes only if he did. The anger of their fight was long since behind her and she assumed that now Becker would understand the reason for the time she had spent with Stanley. Becker obliged both Tee and Karen, smiling happily, laughing when the others laughed, but his gaze kept shifting to Stanley Kom.
The eyes, Becker remembered. The eyes. A deep, primal malevolence within Kom's eyes, the taunting twinkle of a demon, knowing he had his enemy within his grasp. There was no stare like that in the animal world. Predators were cool and efficient, but they took no joy from their kill, they did not hate their prey, they slew to eat and ate to live. Kom's eyes had shone with malicious exhilaration as he spoke of killing.
"Go ahead. Kill me," Kom had said. "You'll like it, I promise."
And he had meant it, Becker realized. His eyes, his voice, his face, all had told Becker that he meant it, and Becker had been too far gone in his rage to understand.
He and Kom had been talking about two different things. It was not adultery that Kom feared Becker meant when Becker first assaulted him.
It was not adultery that took someone special. It was not a case of adultery that would be biased by Becker's brutal behavior, not a case of adultery that a judge would throw out of court.
From across the room Becker stared at Kom, barely aware of the laughter that Tee was eliciting at his expense. The doctor watched Tee with appreciation, guffawed heartily until his cracked and puffy lips hurt him when he smiled too broadly. He touched them gingerly, then glanced in Becker's direction and saw the agent staring at him. He grinned and even from a distance Becker could see the cold, taunting defiance in his eyes.
Becker felt a cold chill as he realized what he had missed in the elevator, and how difficult it would be to do anything about it now. He had stumbled across Johnny Appleseed and simultaneously ruined any chance of prosecuting him.
At noon the following day, one hour after checkout time at the Marriott, a chambermaid discovered a large leafdisposal bag in the bathtub of one of the rooms. It was too heavy for her to lift easily so she opened the bag and looked inside. She did not scream immediately but took three unsteady steps toward the bathroom door before fainting. Only when she recovered consciousness did she begin to howl.
29
Becker found Tee in his office, the map of Clamden spread on his desk with a plastic grid atop it. The grid was marked with concentric circles widening out from the center point and overlaid with Tee's markings in red, blue, and black. Tee looked up cautiously as Becker entered "I brought you something," Becker said, offering a white paper bag.
"Does it bite?" Tee asked coolly.
"No, you bite it."
Tee took the bag and set it gingerly on his desk, as if it might explode. He did not look inside. The two men had not spoken since the incident in the Marriott lobby when Becker jammed his fingers in the big man's throat.
"This official business?" Tee asked brusquely. "Yes and no."
"Which?"
"First, I came to apologize. I shouldn't have done that, you did nothing to deserve it."
"You got that part right."
"I'm sorry. I lost control."
"I guess I'm lucky I wasn't in the elevator," Tee said.
Becker sighed. "You're not going to make this any easier for me, are you?' "What do you want me to do? You apologized, I accept. Case closed."
Becker shook his head. "You were saying some things I asked you to stop-you didn't…" 'My fault for not following orders."
"Tee, I said I'm sorry."
"Oh, all right then, that takes care of everything. My fault for not shutting up when you told me to."
"Look, I'm not excusing myself. I'm trying to explain, which isn't easy. I've been… I'm having some trouble with Kom."
"Some of us gathered that. I think Kom realizes it too."