He cleared his throat. “I apologize for the small deception.”
“Richard…”
I think he knew then what I had to ask but he waited politely.
“Why did you bring me into it?” I said. “Why involve me in something that could only turn out badly for both of us?”
He smiled dolefully. “Charlie, don’t you know that?”
I blinked at him and gestured impatiently. “Know what?”
“I came to America hoping for self-renewal. You gave it to me. You restored my spirit, almost completely, on the first day we met.”
I couldn’t imagine. I felt numb with surprise, and a flush of—oh God, was that love growing in my heart? I recoiled at once from such a thought.
“I was a wounded man when I left England. My spirits have never been lower, and by the end of that first day with you I felt like my old self again. You were a stranger, a strong and intelligent man far from my own land, who had collected and read my books, and even took time out from his day to come say hello.”
“But that seems…” I groped for the words. “God, that seems so…small.”
“Big gifts often seem small to those who dispense them.”
A minute passed. Then he said, “I shall never forget that week we spent together in your home. You have a rare ability to make a man feel like a hero without pandering to him.”
“How could I possibly have done all that?”
“Just being your own man. You had intelligent opinions and you stood up to me. That’s how I came to value your opinion. And your company.”
“Well, Richard,” I said, still numbly. “I’ve never been much for glaring hero worship. To me, of course, you were a hero, and still are. But there had to be something more than that to create a friendship. I had to bring something of my own to it.”
“Isn’t that what I’m saying? I meet enough kowtowing idiots to know the difference.”
He turned his palms up, the universal gesture for “That’s all there is,” and said, “So why did I bring you? You can be sure I never would have suggested it if I had been sent here on some spying mission. I brought you because I wanted you with me. And I thought I could slip away for a day without offending you.”
He got up and squeezed my shoulder. “Give it some thought, Charlie.”
* * *
That night we went out together as if nothing had happened. We visited bars along the market, from Meeting Street to the waterfront, and I drank more ale than I had consumed in any week of my life or have ever done since. Richard, far more practiced at imbibing, held his liquor well, but I became rather silly with the night still young. As midnight approached, Richard also began feeling the influence, and we sang bawdy seaman’s songs with other merrymakers we met along the way. We laughed at everything: every drunken slur and slip of the tongue brought a riot of laughter from the crowd around us, which, in some of the taverns, numbered almost as many women as men. Richard charmed them all and they seemed willing to give my obviously Northern voice the benefit of doubt. We staggered out of the last open bar at some ungodly morning hour and made a tortuous walk back to the hotel. As we parted that night, Richard said, “Tomorrow we can see some more sights, if you want. And sometime before we leave I’d like to go over to Fort Moultrie and visit the garrison there.”
I wondered through my alcoholic haze whether I’d be welcome on such a trip, but Richard said, “Wouldn’t you like to see that, Charlie—see how it looks from the perspective of those poor devils who will have to die defending it?”
I said I would, and we left it at that.
The commanding officer at Fort Moultrie was Colonel John Gardner. I knew little about him before that day: Richard, in fact, knew much more. “He’s an old man,” he said as our steamer curled in toward the landing at the western tip of Mount Pleasant. “He served in the War of 1812 and in Mexico.”
The former would make him at least sixty, not too ancient for command, but Richard said nothing when I voiced this. We docked and began the cumbersome voyage to Sullivan’s Island. In the sum-mer it would be easier: there’d be a direct ferry crossing from the city, used by wealthy families with island homes to escape Charleston’s worst yellow fever months. But now in late spring it was a more tedious journey, across the marsh on a plank road and from there by small hired boats to the tip of the island.
The beach was lovely in the warm spring air. I remembered reading of this island in Poe, who had been stationed here some thirty years before and had set the tale of his gold bug partly in these dunes. It had changed little in that time. The fort was at least as dilapidated and run-down today, and as we approached it I could see what an untenable mission the garrison had been given. Huge sand dunes had accumulated against the walls, making its defense impossible: I could have walked up and over the walls with no effort at all.
There were no guards out as we approached, and we went on past, turning inland to trek around to the front gate. There, Richard presented our cards and asked if we might pay our respects to Colonel Gardner. We were taken into the fort, where we met Captain Abner Doubleday, who spoke with us briefly.
“Colonel Gardner is quartered not far from here, outside the fort,” Doubleday said. “If you’ll kindly wait here, I’ll send someone to see if he can receive you.”
When we were alone again, Richard rolled his eyes in the universal gesture of disdain. “He lives outside his fort. What does that tell you?”
“Nothing good,” I said. “I wonder if he’s a rebel Yankee like our Mr. Floyd.”
“He’s from Massachusetts,” Richard said, surprising me again with his knowledge.
Doubleday returned fifteen minutes later and said Gardner would receive us after his lunch hour, which unfortunately was already under way. “You’re certainly welcome to share mess here,” he said, and we thanked him and accepted his offer.
Burton had made no attempt to conceal his identity, but if his name meant anything to Doubleday, that wasn’t immediately apparent. Doubleday had just returned to the army after a long leave of absence and was in the earliest days at his new post. I wondered what he thought of this place in these times. He held his own curiosity with perfect military propriety, but when Burton asked who was running the day-to-day affairs of the fort, he said, with a touch of malicious irony, “The officer of the day. Today that seems to be myself.”
We ate the simple fare and talked about small things—the weather, the potential danger of Burton’s proposed trip across the continent, the Indians in the West, and the prospect of yellow fever in Charleston again this summer.
“Come, I’ll show you the fort,” Doubleday said when we were finished.
We walked around the walls, all of us carefully avoiding what was so painfully obvious even to me. The fort could not be defended. Burton finally ventured a gentle opinion. “Those dunes do make it difficult, don’t they?”
“Yes, sir, they do do that.”
“Why can’t they be removed?” I asked.
“There’s a worry that the locals might be provoked by it,” Doubleday said. “They don’t need much to provoke them.”
“Even if the dunes were removed, defense would not be easy,” Burton said.
“No. We are like a leaky raft, surrounded by sharks.”
He was a bit easier now, with the two of us obviously kindred, at least in spirit.
We had come full circle. Doubleday looked out to sea and then at Richard. “So what would you do in this place, Captain Burton?”
Burton smiled, pleased to be recognized and acknowledged by his most recent rank. He looked off to sea and said, “I suppose that would depend on my authority and how I interpreted it.”
A soldier came along then and said that the colonel would see us.