" Remember what we were just talking about? About colony bids?"Douglas nodded. "Remember what I said? I want us to go to a place where everybody can be happy. Not just you and me and Bobby. But Mom and Dad too. And even Mom's friend, if she wants to come. And Mickey too. Whoever wants to come with us."
Douglas was frowning–like I'd blindsided him with a decision without talking to him about it. But if I'd talked to him about it, he'd have fought me. This way, I avoided the fight. I said, "Douglas, we can't stop anyone from emigrating to the same colony we choose. Mom and Dad are going to follow us. You know that. So let's leave our arguments here on Luna, and let's choose a world where everyone can fit. A place where Dad can make his music and Mom can have her own garden and you can have whatever you want too. A place where we don't have to fight all the time."
"That would be nice, but it's unrealistic," Douglas said. "You know what kind of a family we are, Charles. We don't leave our fights behind. We take them everywhere we go."
" NO, we don't!"I had to wait until the coughing eased. I took another drink of water. "We didn't fight in the cargo pod, and we didn't fight hiking across the moon, and we didn't fight climbing the crater wall, and we didn't fight on the train when we were all disguised, and we didn't fight in the ice mine– oh, wait a minute, yes we did– but we didn't fight in the ammonia tube. We took care of each other. Because it mattered. Because we didn't have a choice. Maybe, we should stop choosing to fight–" And then I had to stop to cough again. But I'd made my point, and Douglas had gotten it. Everybody had. Even Bobby.
Mom and Dad and Douglas talked about it for a while, very calmly. They discussed it back and forth across my bed, and I listened back and forth between them. There wasn't much else I needed to say. All that was left was for everyone to agree to this idea–or not.
Mom started to argue that because she and Dad had more experience with this kind of thing, perhaps they should pick the colony planet–I shot that idea down real fast. "No,"I said. "That's not on the table."They started to protest. I wanted to say, "We've already seen how good you two are at making decisions," but that would have just put us back in the war zone, and I didn't want to do that. Instead I said, "Every time we've let someone else make the decisions, they've just used us for their own purposes. The whole point of independence is that we make our own choices. Douglas and I already had this argument– about everybody being a part of the decision. We're not giving that up. If we have to live with it, we get to choose it."
Mom started to say, "I just want the same thing you do, what's best for everyone–"
"No," interrupted Douglas. "What you want is to reassert control. And what we're offering is something else." He flustered for a moment. "I don't have the words for it. Um, but it's like what Chigger and I have had for the last two weeks."
"Partnership," said Dad quietly. And we all looked at him, surprised.
"Yeah," agreed Douglas. "If we're going to do this at all, it has to be that way."
Mom looked like she wanted to protest. Dad looked a little more hopeful. He turned to her, and said, "Maggie, we've been cooperating with each other for a week, trying to get our children back. We've worried together, cried together, chased them across Luna together. I think that proves that we can set our own battles aside when the well‑being of our family is more important. Maybe all we need to do here is just keep doing the same thing we've been doing the last week … ?"
Mom was wearing her Gila monster face. Any second, the long tongue would lash out, or she'd arc her neck forward and bite his head off, or maybe the two of them would roll around on the floor for a while, locked in mortal combat, hissing and thrashing, tails lashing every which way.
But instead, she surprised us all. She said, "I'm tired, Max. I'm worn out. I'm used up. There's nothing left. I don't have the strength for any more fighting. All that fighting–all it did was drive everyone apart. It made me angry and alone. But since this started, I've been even moreangry and alone–" She looked to Douglas, and then to me. She picked up Bobby and held him close. "I don't want to fight anymore. I don't want to be angry anymore. I don't want to be alone. Douglas, Charles, I don't want to lose my children."
So for a while, we talked about colonies and bids and contracts and living arrangements. Things like that.
It didn't get all lovey‑dovey. There was still a lot of unresolved stuff floating around that we'd have to talk about later–but we'd have a lot of time for that once we were in transit; the important thing was that we were finally talking about trying.
It was the first time this family had ever talked about anything as a family–usually we just shouted at each other; whoever was shouting didn't care if anyone was listening or not; and usually no one was. But this time, we were talking and listening–and none of us were really used to that; so we had to take it one step at a time. We just didn't know how to take yes for an answer.
Douglas still didn't like it–not because he didn't like it, but because he didn't believe that Mom and Dad could go ten minutes without trying to rip pieces out of each other. Mom and Dad didn't really like it either, because it meant they'd have to give up their custody battles. And without the war, what else would they have between them?
But the alternative was worse. The alternative was that we'd never see each other again. And that was intolerable. The outward journey to the colonies was one‑way. So either we all went together–or we made our good‑byes here.
And when it came down to that–the hard reality of giving up Mom and Dad forever,Douglas wasn't any more willing to do that than Bobby or me.
"What'll we do if it doesn't work?" Douglas asked.
"We'll make space for each other," said Mom, glancing across at Dad. "We'll pick a big planet."
But Dad understood exactly what Douglas was asking. He said, "You won't have to give up your … your independence, Douglas." He was talking about Mickey–or whoever. The way it came out, I knew it had been difficult for him to say.
Mom nodded her agreement. Then she smiled sadly. "Sometimes it's hard for parents to see that their children are growing up, and sometimes we think we know what's best for everyone even when we don't–but that doesn't work anymore, does it? It's time to try something else. We'll honor Judge Griffith's ruling."
Finally, Bobby wriggled around in Mom's lap to look up at her. "Does this mean we're all going to be together again?"
Douglas looked at Mom, and Mom looked at Dad, and Dad looked at me, and I looked at Douglas. No one wanted to say no. It was easier to say, "Well, yes–sort of." And that seemed to settle it, and even though no one except Bobby was excited by the idea, no one was too upset with it either, so that was an improvement. Kind of.
MONKEY BUSINESS
We didn't tell them about the monkey. There were too many other things we had to talk about and the next thing we knew it was getting late and I was losing my voice, so we just postponed the rest of the discussion until the next day, and it wasn't until after they'd left that we remembered HARLIE.