Like I’d done during the last couple of hours, I pictured my pink and glittery walls again and reinforced them with all my strength.
“How are you feeling?” Aiden asked quietly.
I peeled my head off the window and looked at him. Everything about him was stiff and tense, from the way he held the steering wheel to the line of his jaw. “How can you even think about how I’m feeling right now?”
“I saw how you reacted when… he pulled power from you.” He glanced at me, eyes silvery. “Did they… did he hurt you when you were with him?”
I was exhausted. My head ached and I was pretty sure my toes were numb, but I was alive. “No. He didn’t hurt me. And I’m fine. You shouldn’t worry about how I’m doing. All of those people…” I shook my head, swallowing against the sudden tightening in my throat. “What Lucian did by telling them you used a compulsion… I’m so sorry.”
“Alex, you have no reason to apologize. It wasn’t your fault.”
“But how can you go back? Being a Sentinel—”
“I’m still a Sentinel. And with everything that’s happened, I’m sure what I did is the last thing they’ll be thinking about.” He glanced at me. “I knew the risks when I did it. I don’t regret it. You understand?”
Aiden didn’t regret it now, but what about later—if there was a later—and he was tried for treason? Even if he wasn’t, he’d be stripped of his Sentinel duties and ostracized.
“Alex?”
“Yes. I understand.” I nodded for extra benefit. “Where are we going?”
His knuckles were bleached white. “We’re going to Athens, Ohio. Solos’ father has a place on the edge of Wayne National Forest. It should be far enough from… him as long as Apollo has given us enough time.”
“I don’t feel him.” We’d stopped referring to Seth by name out loud, like doing so would somehow make him reappear or something.
“Do you think you can shield him, keep him out?”
I glanced at the side mirror; the other Hummer followed close behind. How were they holding up? Lea? “The distance… he shouldn’t be able to connect through the bond, if that’s what you’re worried about. I mean, he couldn’t feel anything when he was in New York, so…”
“That’s not all I’m worried about,” Aiden responded quietly. “It’s about an eight-hour drive.” He brushed his hair out of his eyes as he squinted into the fading sunlight. “We’ll stop along the way, most likely in Charleston, to get gas and something to eat. You think you can hold out that long?”
“Yeah. Aiden… all of those people.” My voice broke as my throat tightened. “They didn’t stand a chance.”
Aiden grasped my hand. “It’s not your fault, Alex.”
“It’s not?” Tears burned my eyes. “If I’d listened to you and Apollo when you suggested that I leave before he came back, this wouldn’t have happened.”
“You don’t know that.”
“Yes, I do.” I tried to pull my hand free, but Aiden held on. I hoped he was a good one-handed driver. “I just didn’t want to believe that he… would do something so terrible.”
He squeezed my hand. “You had hope, Alex. No one can ever be faulted for hope.”
“You once told me that I needed to know when to let hope go. I was way past the expiration date on hope then.” I tried to smile and failed. “I won’t make that same mistake twice. I swear.”
Bringing my hand to his lips, he placed a sweet kiss against it. “ Agapi mou, don’t hold this kind of guilt too close. A different path could’ve been chosen, but in the end you did what you felt was right. You gave him a chance.”
“I know.” I focused on the road ahead, willing the tears away. “It’s gone, isn’t it? The entire Covenant—even Deity Island?”
He took a shuddering breath. “It could’ve been worse. That’s what I keep telling myself. If classes had been in…just a few more days…”
The loss of life would have been astronomical. “What are we going to do? I can’t stay hidden forever.”
What was unspoken lay between us. In other words, unless Seth came to his senses, which seemed highly unlikely, he would eventually find me.
“I don’t know,” Aiden said, merging into the other lane. “But we’re in this together, Alex, to the end.”
Warmth returned to my heart. His hand felt right in mine, and even though everything around us was so incredibly screwed up, we -werein this together. To the end.
It was the middle of the night when we reached Charleston, West “by gods” Virginia and it was snowing lightly. The vehicles rolled to a stop by the pumps in front of one of those travel centers that are the size of a small Wal-Mart. We needed gas and food, and maybe one of those 5-Hour Energy things, too.
“Hold on.” Aiden reached in the seat behind us and pulled out one of the sickle blades. “Just in case.”
Collapsed, it fit in my pocket with only half of it sticking out. “Thanks.”
His eyes met mine as he slipped me a couple of tens. “Don’t take too long, okay? Looks like Solos is going in with you.”
I glanced back. He was already waiting by the passenger side. Marcus was fiddling with the gas pump like he’d never used one before. “What do you want?”
“Surprise me.” He smiled. “Just be careful.”
Promising that I would, I climbed out of the Hummer and nearly ate the pavement as my foot slipped on a patch of ice. “Gods!”
“Alex?” Aiden called out.
“I’m fine.” I tipped my head back and closed my eyes, letting the tiny flakes of snow fall upon my face. It had been so, so long since I’d seen snow.
“What are you doing?” Solos asked, killing the moment.
I opened my eyes and forced them to his chest. “I like snow.”
“Well, you’re going to see a lot of snow where we’re going.” We started across the parking lot, mindful of the patches of ice that were bound and determined to take me out. “Probably have a foot or more in Athens.”
For a moment, I fantasized about snowball fights and sled rides. Stupid of me to do so, but it helped keep me from freaking out.
“You’re not what I expected,” Solos said as we reached the snow-covered sidewalk.
I shoved my hands into my pockets. “What were you expecting?”
“I don’t know.” He smiled, softening the scar. “Someone taller.”
A small smile pulled at my lips. “Don’t let my size fool you.”
“I know. I’ve heard tales about your many escapades, especially how you fought during the attack on the New York Covenant. Some say it’s because of what you are that makes you fight so well.”
I shrugged.
“But I say it has more to do with your training than anything.” Solos glanced behind him and then his shrewd gaze settled on me. “You and St. Delphi seem to be very close.”
I schooled my expression blank as I shrugged again. “He’s pretty cool for a pure-blood.”
“Is that so?”
“Hey! Wait up!” Deacon hit a patch of thick ice and slid to our sides like a pro skater, eyes wide. “Lea wants to eat something. Luke’s going to stay with her.”
Saved by Deacon. “How’s she doing?”
Solos grabbed the door, holding it open for us. “She slept most of the way here,” Deacon answered. “Since she woke up, she hasn’t really been talking. Luke convinced her that she should eat something, so we’re going to share some Cheetos.”
I felt for Lea and understood her pain. So did Deacon. My presence probably wouldn’t be the best, but Deacon… he’d be good for her.
I shook off the snow once inside the warm, brightly-lit travel center. With the exception of the greasy-haired and scrawny cashier who was reading what looked like a smut magazine, the place was empty. Stomach growling, I headed toward the coolers. Aiden would want water, of course, but I was in need of some caffeine.