“What about you?” he asked. “Your biography said you’ve been on your own since you were eighteen. Sounds tough.”
“It built character.”
“You’ve come a long way.”
“Not far enough. I’m currently broke.” She reached for her sunglasses, hoping to deflect the conversation.
“Worse things can happen than being broke,” he said.
“I’m guessing you’re not speaking from personal experience.”
“Hey, when I was eighteen, the interest check from my trust fund was lost in the mail. It got pretty ugly.”
She’d always been a sucker for self-deprecating humor, and she smiled, even though she didn’t want to.
Half an hour later they reached the outskirts of Volterra, where a castle of forbidding gray stone appeared on the hill above them. Finally a safe topic of conversation. “That must be the fortezza,” she said. “The Florentines built it in the late 1400s over the original Etruscan settlement, which dated to around the eighth century B.C.”
“Been reading our guidebook, have we?”
“Several of them.” They passed an Esso station and a tidy little house with a satellite dish perched above its red roof tiles. “Somehow I’d pictured the Etruscans as cavemen with clubs, but this was a fairly advanced civilization. They had a lot in common with the Greeks. They were merchants, seafarers, farmers, craftsmen. They mined copper and smelted iron ore. And their women were surprisingly liberated for the time.”
“Thank God for that.”
There was nothing like a history lesson to keep things impersonal. She should have thought of this earlier. “As the Romans moved in, the Etruscan culture was gradually assimilated, although some people think the modern Tuscan lifestyle is more a reflection of its Etruscan roots than its Roman ones.”
“Any excuse for a party.”
“Something like that.” She followed the parking signs past a pretty walkway lined with benches and found a spot at the end of the lot. “They don’t let cars in the city, so we have to park out here.”
He spoke around a yawn. “There’s a great museum in town filled with some world-class Etruscan artifacts that should strike your fancy.”
“You’ve been here?”
“Years ago, but I still remember it. The Etruscans were one of the reasons I majored in history before I flunked out of college.”
She eyed him suspiciously. “You already knew those things I was talking about, didn’t you?”
“Pretty much, but it gave me a chance for a quick nap. By the way, the original Etruscan city was built around the ninth century B.C., not the eighth. But, hey, what’s a hundred years here and there?”
So much for showing off her knowledge. They got out of the Panda, and she saw that one corner of his sunglasses was wrapped with tape. “Didn’t you wear a disguise like this in that movie where you tried to rape Cameron Diaz?”
“I believe I was trying to murder her, not rape her.”
“I don’t mean to sound critical, but doesn’t all that sadism get to you after a while?”
“Thank you for not being critical. And sadism has made me famous.”
She followed him through the parking lot toward the sidewalk. He moved with the rolling gait of a much heavier man, another illusion from his actor’s tool box. It seemed to be working, because no one was paying any attention to him. She told herself to be quiet and leave it alone, but old habits were hard to break. “That’s still important to you, isn’t it?” she said. “Despite all the inconvenience. Being famous.”
“If there’s a spotlight around, I generally enjoy having it pointed in my direction. And don’t pretend not to know what I’m talking about.”
“You think attention is what motivates me?”
“Isn’t it?”
“Only as a means of getting my message across.”
“I believe you.”
He clearly didn’t. She looked up at him, knowing she should let it go. “Is that all you want your life to be about? Staying in the spotlight?”
“Spare me your self-improvement lectures. I’m not interested.”
“I wasn’t going to lecture.”
“Fifi, you live to lecture. Lecturing is your oxygen.”
“And that threatens you?” She followed him down the cobblestones.
“Everything about you threatens me.”
“Thank you.”
“It wasn’t a compliment.”
“You think I’m smug, don’t you?”
“I’ve observed a tendency.”
“Only around you, and that’s deliberate.” She tried not to enjoy herself.
They turned into a narrower street that looked even older and more quaint than the ones they’d been on. “So did you get your Four Cornerstones in a thunderbolt from God,” he asked, “or did you read them on a greeting card somewhere?”
“From God, thanks for asking.” She gave up on her attempt to stay aloof. “Not in a thunderbolt, though. We moved around a lot when I was a child. It kept me fairly isolated, but it gave me time to observe people. As I got older, I started working different jobs to put myself through school. I read and kept my eyes open. I saw people succeed and fail-in jobs, in personal relationships. The Four Cornerstones grew out of all that observation.”
“I don’t imagine fame came instantly.”
“I started writing about what I was observing around the time I entered graduate school.”
“Academic papers?”
“At first. But that began to feel too limiting, so I condensed my ideas for some of the women’s magazines, and that’s how the Four Cornerstones were born.” She was rattling on, but it felt good to talk about her work. “I’d begun putting the lessons to use in my own life, and I liked what was happening, the way I felt more centered. I organized some discussion groups on campus. They seemed to help people, and they kept getting bigger. A book editor started attending one of them, and everything took off from there.”
“You enjoy what you do, don’t you?”
“I love it.”
“Then we have something in common after all.”
“You truly enjoy those parts you play?”
“See, there you go with that snotty thing again.”
“It’s just hard to imagine loving a job that glorifies violence.”
“You forget that I usually die in the end, which makes my films morality tales. That should be right up your alley.”
The crowd jostled them apart as they entered the piazza. She gazed around at the open stalls displaying everything from baskets overflowing with fruits and vegetables to brightly colored toys. Pots of herbs scented the air, along with braids of garlic and strands of peppers. Clothing vendors sold silk scarves and leather purses. Colorful bags of pasta rested next to jewel-like bottles of olive oil. She passed a pushcart holding an array of earth-toned soaps that were studded with lavender, poppy seeds, and lemon peel. As she stopped to smell the lavender ones, she spotted Ren near a wire birdcage. She thought of other actors she’d known. She’d heard them talk about how they had to look internally to find the seeds for the character they were playing, and she wondered what Ren saw inside himself that let him portray evil so convincingly. Leftover feelings from his deviant childhood?
As she approached, he gestured toward the canaries. “I’m not planning their demise, in case you were worried.”
“I suppose two small birds aren’t enough of a challenge for you.” She touched the latch on the cage door. “Don’t get a big head about this, but objectively speaking, you seem to be a terrific actor. I’ll bet you could play a great hero if you set your mind to it.”
“Are we back to that again?”
“Wouldn’t it be nice to save the girl for a change instead of brutalizing her?”
“Hey, it’s not just women. I’m an equal-opportunity brutalizer. And I tried saving the girl once, but it didn’t work. Did you ever see a movie called November Time?”