“I’m fine,” Kalen said.
She wasn’t sure how much time she was going to get before her family realized she was gone. She knew that once her dad came home he’d come looking for them at the shooting stand, and when he saw they weren’t there, he’d be worried.
That was the only thing weighing on her. She knew not coming back alive would hurt her family. She understood what it would do to her father, how it would change him, but this was her choice, and it was a choice she had the right to make.
The rifle still felt awkward for Mary. She wasn’t used to the weight or the feel of it. Kalen had explained as much to her about shooting as she could. She did her best to pay attention, to try and focus on the task at hand, but her mind wandered.
Thoughts of her mother, her father, and her sisters flashed like lightning strikes in her mind. Her imagination ran wild with the horrors the biker gang was committing on her mother.
At night she lay awake, still feeling the rocking of the bed she was on as her mom lay next to her with that biker on top of her. She could still hear his grunts, heavy breaths, the violent commands he barked at her, each syllable sending a tremor through her body.
The longer they walked, the more she questioned what she was doing. She knew it was fear that was fogging her mind. She tried focusing on the thought of protecting her sisters, but it didn’t seem strong enough to keep the fear at bay.
Mary kept a few steps behind Kalen the entire journey through the woods. She watched Kalen, observed how she moved, how she carried herself. The girl she saw the first day she arrived at the cabin was gone.
Mary remembered seeing her and how out of touch Kalen was. When she took Kalen back to her room where she passed out on the bed, she figured she was on some type of drug. Then when Mary found the bottle of pills in the nightstand, which were almost empty, it confirmed her suspicions.
When Mary told Kalen what happened to her family, she saw something change in her. Mary saw the switch flip in Kalen’s mind. Her resolve hardened. That’s what made Mary follow her. Mary was leaning on Kalen’s strength to help find her own.
“How do you do it?” Mary asked.
“Do what?”
“Act like you’re not afraid.”
“I don’t.”
“Well, you’re doing a good job of hiding it.”
“That’s just it. You can’t hide it. You can’t shove something that big into a corner without it being seen. So you expose it to the light for everyone to see, then instead of you being afraid of the fear, the fear becomes afraid of what you’ve done to unmask it. The fear yields to you.”
“What if you can’t control it?”
“Then it kills you. Either way, your struggle’s over.”
Was that her fate if she accepted her fear? She’d never been in any position like that her entire life. She’d never experienced the type of fear and pain that she’d felt over the past two weeks.
There was a time when the only things she was scared of were the final exams at school and seeing what she got on her report card.
But the lump in her throat wouldn’t give way, and the pit in her stomach wouldn’t fill up. What she was feeling was endless, and she couldn’t see a way out.
Frankie dumped the rest of the red fuel cans on the concrete next to the bikes. He managed to pull a total of twelve five-gallon cans from the mechanic’s shop.
“We can try and siphon some gas out of the cars, but aside from that, this is it, Jake,” Frankie said.
Jake counted the bikes in the row. Most of them still had some fuel left in the tank, but the majority of them were low. The ride from Cleveland drained a lot of the gas they had. The old bikes they rode here managed to survive the EMP blast because they didn’t have any microprocessors in them, but they also had terrible gas mileage.
“Any bike that’s below a quarter of a tank, fill it up. I want everyone able to ride,” Jake said.
Frankie grabbed two other members, and the three of them started checking the bikes’ fuel gauges.
Jake pulled out the map with the radius of how far the girls could have traveled. He figured they stayed close. There were a handful of cabins Frankie was able to find in the county office. He wanted to start hitting those first. If they traveled through the woods, it would be a good place to start.
Tank, Jake’s vice president of the club, came up behind him. Tank’s eyes were hidden from his shades. His long gray beard was greased with grime and clumped together from weeks without a shower. His belly poked through the space between his cut, the buttons barely holding back the weight behind them.
“Jake, we need to talk,” Tank said.
The two men walked out of earshot of the rest of the club.
“I don’t know if this is the best time for us to be doing this,” Tank said.
“One of our brothers is dead. You don’t want to make sure whoever did this pays for that?”
“You really think those girls killed Garrett? C’mon, Jake. They’re long gone and starving somewhere in the woods.”
“Well, if they’re close by just sitting under the trees in the shade, they’ll be easy to find.”
Jake slammed his shoulder into Tank when he moved past him. Tank put his hand on Jake’s shoulder to spin him around, but Jake twisted the old man’s hand. Tank winced.
“We are going to find whoever did this. I don’t care what it costs us, you understand me? Diablos don’t let one of their own die without the bastards who killed them answering for their crime,” Jake said.
Jake let Tank’s hand go. Tank backed away slowly, both hands in the air, surrendering.
“Okay, brother. Okay,” Tank said.
“And you make sure the rest of the club knows that too,” Jake finished.
Keep the club together. That’s what Jake needed to do. He couldn’t let his club waver now, not with what they had in front of them. He knew his men would need a distraction. If the group wasn’t heading somewhere, anywhere, with a goal in mind, they would fall apart.
Jake passed the pile of burnt bodies on the way to his room. For better or worse, he was their leader, and no matter what hell he brought on them, they’d follow him to the end. That was their brotherhood, a family of death.
The perimeter of the town was deserted. Kalen couldn’t see anyone on patrol. From what Mary had told her, the biker gang had men on watch around the clock.
When she double-checked the east end of the town, she figured they were either gone or focused on something important. Either way, they had a clear entrance.
When Kalen came back from scouting, Mary looked like she hadn’t breathed since she left.
“You ready?” Kalen asked.
Mary nodded her head quickly, avoiding Kalen’s eyes. Kalen grabbed Mary’s chin and pulled her face toward hers.
“We can’t have any doubts once we cross this line. I need to know now if you’re ready for this,” Kalen said.
“I’m ready.”
“All right then. Stay close behind me. I’ll find you a good spot with cover, and then I’ll position myself. I think they must be gathered together since there aren’t any patrols. Let’s go.”
The two girls left the cover of the tall grass and headed for the first building on the right side. They inched their way up the street, ducking behind cars, doors, anything large enough to hide behind.
Kalen kept glancing back at Mary, still behind her. Every time she checked to see if Mary was there, she expected her to be gone or frozen in the last spot she saw her. Kalen was having second thoughts about bringing her along. She needed someone who was willing to do what it took. She needed to have confidence in her partner.