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She shared a flat for a time with Mark Liebowitz’s sister Rhoda, just divorced. Then her flat-mate, the organizing secretary of a mixed trade union of coloureds and whites, began a love affair with a coloured trade unionist and went to Cape Town to be where the man lived even though she couldn’t live with him. Rosa disliked the smells of other people’s frying that never left the corridors and the noise of other people’s radios that gabbled in under the flat door; now she was able to move. She lived with Flora Donaldson and her husband — he was away in Europe on business half the year. It was a house — open house — like their own — her father’s — had been; big rooms, with flowers from the garden, friendly talkative servants about, books, pictures, guests, a swimming-pool. She tried a flat again; a small flat, on her own. What she really wanted was a garden cottage. Once she thought she had just what was in mind and then the owners realized who she was and sidled out of the agreement. As they were not open about their reasons she could not tell them the police seemed to be leaving her alone since her father had been serving his sentence. She had not been raided once, in the various places she had lived.

She still had her job at the hospital; she worked mostly in geriatric wards, and with children. Her half-brother wrote from northern Tanzania that if only he had her in his hospital…there was no money, no time, no personnel to provide physiotherapy for anyone. She could have gone to work with a doctor friend among rural Africans in the Transkei who needed her kind of skills just as badly — it would have been possible to fly up twice a month for the prison visits — but the Administrator of the territory knew who she was and would not give her permission to live in a black ‘homeland’. As it happened, her father’s tendency to throat infections appeared to become chronic and she had to be there — at the prison to insist on medical reports from the Commandant; negotiating through Theo for a private specialist to see her father; importuning various officials — available to her father even if she could not see him. She played squash twice a week for the exercise. She went to the theatre when there was anything worthwhile. At parties her bared flesh was as sunburned as anyone’s who had long summer holidays at the sea; she did go away from town for a week once or twice, and apparently with a Swedish journalist with whom (it was understood not even her close friends would ever expect information from Rosa herself) she was having a love affair. She took from her father’s ex-receptionist one of the kittens produced by the old black cat and set it up with a sand-box in the bathroom of the flat. It was noted that the Swede wore a gold ring, in the custom of married men from Europe. Family friends and associates of her father’s generation wished she would get married, to some South African, locally; but no one would have presumed to express this kindly concern to her — of course it was understood she could never leave, leave the country as so many did, now that her father was in prison and she was the only one left to him.

In November, in the second month of the third year of his life sentence, Lionel Burger developed nephritis as a result of yet another throat infection and died in prison.

The prison authorities did not consent to a private funeral arranged by relatives. His life sentence was served but the State claimed his body. A thousand black and white people had come to the funeral of Cathy Burger, his wife and Rosa’s mother, some years before. At a memorial gathering in honour of Lionel Burger held one lunch-hour in a small trades hall few of the faces recognized then were to be seen again — the black and Indian and coloured and white leaders gone to prison or exile, or restricted by bans from attending meetings of any nature. Two or three men and women who had been hidden away by house arrest for many years appeared on the platform like actors making a come-back with the style and rhetoric of their time. Some young people present asked who they were? There were babies in arms, and restless children. A tiny Indian boy was given an apple to quiet him. If there were Special Branch men present, they were unobtrusive despite the small number of people, and difficult to spot under the cultivated shabbiness of young white intellectuals and impassively distanced air of black clerks and delivery-men they might have assumed. When the valedictions had been delivered and people were rising from their broken wooden seats, the same tiny boy, seen to have been placed standing on his by his mother, lifted a clenched toy fist and yelled in the triumph with which a child performs a nursery rhyme with exactly the intonation in which he has been rehearsed, Amandhla! Amandhla! Amandhla! Faltering response gathered from the sparse crowd trooping out: Awethu! Seeing he had done well, he scrambled down among people’s feet to retrieve his half-eaten apple. A man who hung around the magistrates’ courts to take cut-price wedding pictures and worked part-time for the Special Branch was waiting in the street to photograph everyone leaving the hall.

But people closed around Rosa Burger at the exit; some, with delicacy or embarrassment, pressed her hand and said they would come and see her — nearly three years is a long time and many had lost touch. She looked different, not only in the way in which those to whom terrible events come have faces that are hard to look upon. Her hair was cut very short, curly as the head of a Mediterranean or Cape Town urchin, making the tendons of her neck appear longer and more strained than a young woman’s should. There was her father’s smile for everybody. But a number of people found they did not know where to reach her, now; she was no longer in her flat: another name was up on the door. Others explained — yes, they’d heard she had found a cottage in somebody’s garden, she had moved away, there was no telephone yet. It takes a little time to establish a new point of reference, even cartographically, among a circle of friends. One could always try to reach her at the hospital. Some did, and she came to Sunday lunch. She said the cottage was somewhere in the old part of town near the zoo — a very temporary arrangement; she had not made up her mind what she would do, now. The Terblanches asked if she wouldn’t apply again for permission to go to the Transkei. — Why not Tanzania — to brother David! Why not? Maybe they’re in the mood to relent and give you a passport, now. — Flora Donaldson’s husband, who was usually silent in the company of her friends because he was not a political associate, suddenly turned on his wife, reversing the position in which he was expected to make the blunders. — Don’t be absurd, Flora. — His whole body and face seemed dislocated by insult to Rosa Burger as he moved unnecessarily about the room. — Oh William, what do you know about the issues involved. — In my ignorance, it seems, a lot more than you do.—