Voices . . . shouting . . .
Misery.
Abruptly, his throat started to ache.
“Why are you here?” he asked, his voice rough. “You were working some stupid-ass case in Toledo, last I heard. Wouldn’t be able to visit for a while.”
“Trey . . .”
The compassion in his twin’s voice almost shattered him.
“No.” He shook his head and spun around. The movement almost sent his aching head crashing off his shoulders and he welcomed it. He banged into the bed, almost fell down—would have—if Travis hadn’t steadied him.
He threw his twin’s hands off. “Get out of here!” he shouted. “You got a fucking job to do! Ain’t no reason for you to . . .”
He almost hit the floor when he tried to take a swing at Travis, his aim off. Just that movement had nausea pitching through him.
“Easy,” Travis said, steadying him once more, ignoring the anger as if it had never existed. “Come on, Trey. Just sit down. Just sit down . . . and breathe. This . . . some of this, it’s just the drugs. Once that shit is out of your system, you’ll feel better.”
“Drugs.” He latched onto that, desperate to think of anything but the knowledge that had started to work free in the back of his head. “Why would somebody spike my drink?”
“Yeah.” Travis eased him back onto the bed. “The bartender saw you talking to a woman, but he can’t really describe her.”
Trey’s lids drooped down. There was an echo of a laugh, but even as he tried to grab that memory, something else snuck up, grabbed him.
Aliesha’s memory. Warm and soft and wonderful. Out of the gaping void of his mind, something ugly crept up. He saw himself, gripping a phone.
“Mr. Barnes, I’m afraid there’s been an accident . . .”
“Travis?” he whispered.
“Yeah?”
He swallowed, the words trembling on the tip of his tongue. He didn’t want to say it—didn’t want to think it.
No, what he wanted to do was go back to those few moments when he’d only had the hangover from hell to deal with.
Those few moments when he’d forgotten that his wife was dead.
Chapter One
Week One
The first time Trey Barnes saw her it caught him by surprise.
Not because he knew her.
Not because of anything she did.
But because it had been almost six years since a woman had caused this kind of reaction in him.
Six years.
So it was a punch in the gut when he walked into the main branch of the Norfolk library for the kid’s reading program and saw her. His tongue all but glued itself to the roof of his mouth and his brain threatened to do a slow meltdown.
The woman was kneeling down in the middle of a circle of kids, a smile on her face. Her mouth was slicked wine red, and he suddenly found himself dying of thirst.
It had also been almost six years since he’d touched a drop of alcohol, but in that moment, he found himself imagining a glass of wine. Wine . . . wine red lips, wine red sheets and the two of them stretched out on a bed as he ran his hands over that warm, lovely brown skin.
“Come on, Daddy!” Clayton jerked on his hand. “Let’s go! I want to go play.”
His son’s voice dragged him out of the fantasy, rich and lush as it was, and he shook his head a little to clear it. A heavy fullness lingered in his loins and he was glad he’d gotten used to looking like a bum. The untucked shirt had fit him well enough when he bought it years ago, but the weight he’d lost after Aliesha’s death had stayed off, so the shirt hung loose on his rangy frame. Loose enough that he figured it would hide the hard-on that had yet to subside.
A few minutes surrounded by chattering preschoolers ought to do it.
Clayton let go of his hand as he got closer and Trey reached up, nudging his sunglasses firmly into place. As he’d retreated further and further into hermit mode, fewer people recognized him, but he rarely went anywhere without something to hide his face. Between the hair he rarely remembered to cut and the sunglasses, people often looked right past him these days.
A shrill shriek split the air as two kids started to fight over a book.
That’s going to do it, he mused. Blood that had burned so hot a minute before dropped back into the normal zone.
Only to jump right back up into the danger zone.
Miz Sexy Librarian had crossed to the kids and now stood in front of them, her back to him.
And fuck . . . her voice was a wet dream.
“Now I know you two weren’t raised to treat books that way. Do you do that at home?”
Two pint-sized little blond heads tipped back to stare up at her. Trey barely noticed them, because his gaze was riveted on the plump, round curve of her ass. How could he not notice that ass? She wore a long, skinny skirt that went down a few inches below her knees and her stockings were the kind with a seam that ran up the back of her legs.
He passed a hand over his mouth.
Hell of a way to realize he could still get aroused—in the middle of the children’s section of the very public, very busy, Norfolk library. Gritting his teeth, he focused on the ceiling. Would counting sheep help?
“Hello.”
That whiskey-smooth drawl was like a silken hand stroking down his back . . . or other things. He cleared his throat. Speak, dumb-ass.
“Hi!”
Saved by the Clayton-meister.
Mentally blowing out a breath, he watched as his son rocked back and forth on his heels, smiling up at the woman.
“Are you here for the program?” she asked.
“I am!” Clayton stuck out his hand. “I’m Clay. I love books. My dad tells me stories. All the time. Sometimes he even makes them up. He gets paid to do that, too.”
Despite the total insanity of the moment, Trey found himself biting back a laugh.
That boy, in so many ways, had been a bright and strong light in what would have been nothing but a pit of misery for far too long.
* * *
Oh, honey . . . come to Mama.
Ressa Bliss would have been licking her chops if she had been anywhere remotely private.
Long, almost too lean, with a heavy growth of stubble and a mouth made for kissing, biting . . . other things . . .
He wore a dark pair of glasses that hid too much of his face and she wanted to reach up, pull them off.
Because she wanted so much to do that, she focused on the boy instead.
She shook his hand, much of what he’d just said running together in her head. She’d caught his name, though. “Well, hello, Clay. It’s lovely to meet you.”
He grinned at her, displaying a tooth that looked like it might fall out at any second—literally—she thought it might be hanging in there by luck alone.
Clay caught the man’s hand in his and leaned against him. “This is my daddy.”
She slid Mr. Beautiful a look. “Hello, Clay’s daddy.”
He gave her a one-sided smile. “Hi.” Then he crouched in front of his son. “So. Program lasts for fifty minutes. I’ll be over in the grown-ups area if you need me.”
“That area is boring.” Clay wrinkled up his nose.
“Well, if I stay here, I’ll just play.” A real grin covered his face now and Ressa felt her heart melt. Since he was distracted, she shot a look at his hands—ring? Did he have one?
Crap. Some sort of gloves covered his hands from knuckle to well up over his wrists. No way to tell.
Clay leaned in and wrapped his arms around his father’s neck. “Love you.”
And her heart melted even more as he turned his face into his son’s neck. “Love you, too, buddy. Have fun.”
A man like that was most certainly not unattached.
But she still stole one last, quick glance as he walked away.