We put our loads on our heads and walked back to the south village, the village we’d originally gone to in search of food. With the disappearance of my friend, the son of my surrogate grandmother’s friend, the circumstances had changed and our stay would be cut short. We’d go back to the big village where a decision would be made about what to do, whether to send out a search party to look for the boy, and if so, what sort of search party, whether the ministrants would be involved. And this was because on our Atlantic Ocean island, searches often failed when they were not led by the ministrants but by ordinary people. Or it might be decided simply to go back to the place where he’d been seen for the last time and place a † under the tree, on the understanding that his body had fallen to the ground and his innocent soul had ripped out of his body on impact. And that cross would have remained there forever, as a reminder to everyone that it was a dangerous place, so dangerous that somebody had lost their life there.
My friend and I had gone looking for that bird that fished in the sea and lived in the mountains, a bird with a long tail made of a single feather. I’ve already talked about the colour of the bird and spoken of the difficulty it had taking off from the ground. I’ve also said something about our motivations for going up to that misty and cloudy place, although we didn’t know it would be misty and cloudy when we set out. Our motivations: we had a great hunger for fish and, in the houses where we slept, there were no adult males who knew how to fish, and we didn’t know how, so we felt compelled to go to the mountains to catch a bird that wouldn’t take flight when man approached it. The bird did tend to peck if anyone tried to touch it, but its peck wasn’t so vicious that you couldn’t grab hold of its neck. But we principally went to the mountain because of our lack of fish, that shouldn’t be forgotten. If we’d had the means to throw a bit of nylon and an improvised hook into the sea, we would not have felt compelled to go to the mountain and put our lives at risk. Our duties in the south village should have been to accompany our respective mothers to their plantations so that they were not lonely, come back with them around midday, dump our loads in front of the house, follow the path to the nearest shore and return three hours later with a bundle of fish. I knew the shores of that part of the island well and I knew they were full of hungry fish. Indeed, I didn’t know of a shore on the island that wasn’t full of hungry fish. And I think that fact hurt us all the more, made our longing for fish that bit stronger. We could see fish right in front of our eyes and at the same time we had nothing to fill our mouths with. Or rather we had something to fill our mouths with, but it wasn’t what we wanted to fill them with. What grew in most abundance in the south village was cassava, which could be made into a round, white bread. And that bread was much nicer to eat if accompanied by a piece of fish and the sauce the fish had been cooked in. So that the sauce could soften the cassava bread and … I think I’ve talked about it already. When there was no fish, there was nothing. At a certain hour of the evening, your mother, or your grandmother’s friend, would shut the door, pulling it to from the inside with a stick, and you’d go to sleep on a noisy mattress of dried banana leaves. You’d go on hungering for fish, you’d have the cassava bread in your hand and you’d be in total darkness. Back then nobody in the south village had kerosene to light their lamps with. If there was any kerosene on the island at all, it would have been used to light lamps in the big village. So you’d be in total darkness in the south village, holding your hunk of cassava bread, waiting for sleep to take hold of you. Back then, all children slept right through. They slept right through whether they wet the bed or had grown out of the habit. Before going to bed you peed outside, two steps away from the door. In the south village, nothing gave off any light, and I think most people thought like me and preferred there not to be a moon, one of those bright full moons. Because they leave you exposed. I couldn’t go anywhere on my own on moonlight nights, for I knew evil things could see me from far away. And in that south village there was no noise of any kind at night, other than the cricri of the crickets and a noise the bats made with their throats. It was unusual for there to be any cocks in the south village as the season wasn’t right. So in that silence you heard the sea, the waves breaking against the rocks. The shores down there were rocky, in fact the whole southern coastline was rocky, and you heard the distant murmur of something pounding against the rocks. It was a frightening sound. In truth, everything was frightening at night. And before night had set in, you’d been hungry for fish, and you’d gone to bed in total darkness, so you’d been unsettled in the first place. And then you heard something pounding against the rocks in the distance, shaking the whole island.