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They walked out into the clear night. The hens clucked on their roosts in the small house. The path was clear, winding round by the edges of the fields. The pair of dogs that had clung jealously to their chairs all through the evening now started to hunt birds in the whitethorn hedges, their impatient barking answered by the alarmed racket of blackbirds they had disturbed. The two women lagged behind the men. Jamesie was silent as they walked.

“Do you think is there an afterlife?” His question startled Ruttledge because it was so uncharacteristic.

“No. I don’t believe there is but I have no way of knowing.”

“You mean we’re just like dog or cat or a cow or a leaf — that when we are dead we are just dead?”

“More or less,” Ruttledge answered carefully. “I don’t know from what source life comes, other than out of nature, or for what purpose. I suppose it’s not unreasonable to think that we go back into whatever meaning we came from. Why do you ask?”

“I’ve been thinking about it a lot since Johnny went.”

“What do you think?”

“I think if there’s a hell and heaven that one or other or both of the places are going to be vastly overcrowded,” he said with surprising heaviness. Even his walk and tone had changed.

“I suspect hell and heaven and purgatory — even eternity — all come from our experience of life and may have nothing to do with anything else once we cross to the other side,” Ruttledge said briskly, anxious to hide his affectionate amusement at Jamesie’s display of weight and gravity — he who was so important because of his wondrous lightness.

“At the same time you wouldn’t want to leave yourself too caught out in case you found there was something there when you did cross over,” Jamesie said doubtfully. “They complain that poor Father Conroy is very hard on money but he did everything, everything a person could ever do for Johnny. He was in the house less than an hour after we found him slumped in the chair, gave him the last sacraments, received him in the Church, said the funeral Mass and preached a most beautiful — most beautiful sermon. In the sermon he said that Johnny belonged to a whole generation of Irish people who had been forced into England to earn their bread. In Johnny’s case he was wrong but he was right in the case of nearly every other person that left from around. While there were some who prospered and did well there were others who experienced great hardship and there were many that fell by the wayside. These people forced into England through no fault of their own were often looked down on — most unjustly looked down upon — by some whose only good was that they managed to remain at home with little cause to look down on anybody. It’s always the meanest and poorest sorts who have the need to look down. Everybody said it was a mighty sermon and longer than he gave for the TD’s mother. At the grave he blessed the coffin and said the prayers. And do you know how much he charged for all that?”

“I haven’t an idea. A hundred pounds?”

“Twenty pounds. ‘Give me twenty pounds, Jamesie.’ They say he’s hard on money and I had to nearly beat him to get him to take forty pounds.”

“Less than John Quinn got back for his second-hand wedding ring.”

“John Quinn’s a living sight but Father Conroy is as good a priest as could be got anywhere. You can go to him any hour of the day or night and never be run and he’d leave no man poor. Those that complain have their shite and have no reason.”

“I like him too,” Ruttledge said.

“Then you should go to Mass,” Jamesie whispered mockingly.

There was a new moon above the lake, a pale crescent. The night was so still that the lake reflected the sky and looked as deep. A huddle of wildfowl was gathered at the centre. The two swans were feeding close to the shore. High overhead, the lights of a passing aeroplane pulsed like hearts in the sky.

“You can’t see sight or light of your house with the way the trees along the shore have grown,” Jamesie said and turned towards Patrick Ryan’s hill, which looked ragged even in this soft light, with such deep satisfaction that the pleasure could be heard in his voice. “Isn’t Patrick Ryan the most hopeless man? The poor cattle alone and fending for themselves on that big hill and Patrick astray all over the country. I may not have travelled far but I know the whole world,” he said with a wide sweep of his arm.

“You do know the whole world,” Ruttledge said. “And you have been my sweet guide.”

Jamesie paused, and then turned quickly away: “I wasn’t the worst anyhow,” he said.

As Kate and Mary drew close they embraced, and the Ruttledges went quickly down towards the lake. When they were close to the gate, they heard a call or a cry from the hill and turned around. Jamesie and Mary stood framed in the light.

“Kate,” Jamesie was calling.

“Jamesie,” she called back and waited.

“Hel-lo. Hel-lo. Hel-lo. Hel-lo,” he called over the lake in the high cry of a bird mocking them out over the depths of the bog. They heard coughing and scolding and laughter as Mary, and then Jamesie, disappeared from the sky.

No heron rose out of the reeds where the new telephone pole stood in the middle of the wild cherries to lead them in round the shore. The night and the lake had not the bright metallic beauty of the night Johnny had died: the shapes of the great trees were softer and brooded even deeper in their mysteries. The water was silent, except for the chattering of the wildfowl, the night air sweet with the scents of the ripening meadows, thyme and clover and meadowsweet, wild woodbine high in the whitethorns mixed with the scent of the wild mint crawling along the gravel on the edge of the water.

When they turned the corner to climb towards the house, Kate cried out in fear. Patrick Ryan stood between the narrow high banks of the lane exactly as he had appeared in the doorway on the night of the wake, the white shirt and face and silver hair glowing. Everything else was black and merged with the night.

“You gave her a terrible fright. Why didn’t you show yourself?” Ruttledge demanded.

“I was on my way,” he said coldly. “Ye weren’t talking. I was above at the house. Nothing was locked, neither car nor shed nor house. I thought ye might be out in the fields and waited.”

“We were across in Jamesie’s.”

“I know. I heard him yodelling a few minutes back above the lake. He’ll never get sense. Already you’d think Johnny had never died.”

“Do you want to come back with us?” Kate asked. The invitation surprised Ruttledge. Her voice was calm.

“No. I was up there long enough. It’s time I was heading for the Tomb,” he dismissed the offer impatiently. “I’m going to be there all summer. We’re going to finish that building. One good thing about the house and place being open to the world is that I was able to go around and check up on what we’ll need. I left the list on the table. It’s propped against a jug, but all that is matterless now. Bring the list with you anyhow in case we forget something in the morning. Meet me with the car and the trailer at the corner of the lake at nine. We’ll head for the town and get everything we need. It takes a hard jolt now and then to learn us that we’ll not be in it for ever. Tomorrow we’ll make a start, in the name of the Lord, and we’ll not quit until that whole cathedral of a shed is finished,” he said in the same ringing, confident tone that had ordered Johnny’s head to lie to the west in Shruhaun so that when he rose with all the faithful he would face the rising sun.

“There’s no great need or rush with the shed, Patrick,” Kate said uncertainly, surprised by her own forwardness. “Maybe it could be left there for another summer in deference to Johnny?”

He stood amazed but did not speak. The chatter of the wildfowl out on the lake was loud in the strain of the silence. With slow economy of movement he turned his back on Kate and spoke to Ruttledge, slowly and carefully. “You must do what you have to do, lad. Meet me at nine at the corner of the lake with the car and trailer if you want. It’s completely matterless whether you turn up or not. If you don’t turn up I have plenty of places to go to. I’ll go and entertain them all in their own houses.”