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“So you’ve split?”

He nodded.

“Maybe you’ll work it out.” I was trying to see how resolved he was. Would being away from her allow him to see what he was missing?

“She’s not what I want. It’s over. So I need to find somewhere to live.”

“I’m sorry.”

“Don’t be. It’s the right thing, and now that it’s done I’m relieved and a little guilty. But there’s no sadness or longing.”

I understood. It was how I felt about my breakup with Richard.

“I’m so pleased you were in and not out with your boyfriend.” He sighed as his head sagged back onto the sofa. He closed his eyes. “What would I do without you?”

His words rang in my ears as I took his plate from his hand, just before he fell into an alcoholic sleep.

Didn’t he realize he hadn’t just been torturing Emma all these years, but me too?

Luke

I scanned the dimly lit hotel bar, but I couldn’t see her. Fucking hell, I knew she’d be late. Irritation prickled at my collar. I’d started to type out a text when I glanced up to see her walking toward me. She smiled at me with that wide, infectious smile she had, and I could do nothing but grin back.

My eyes wandered down her body. “Ash,” I said because I couldn’t think of anything else. She looked . . . well, beautiful. Like, model beautiful. Words stuck in my throat. Jesus, had she always been this pretty? The lights flickered off her cheekbones and lit up her face as her hair tumbled across her exposed shoulders.

“You’re looking very handsome,” she said as she fingered my bow tie. I took in her familiar scent as she came closer. I filled my lungs, wanting to inhale the way she smelled. It always calmed me. She’d been wearing the same perfume since college—it mixed with her warmth to make a scent that was bespoke to her. I’d dated a girl who had worn the same perfume, but it was different on her. It didn’t feel as if it suited her. On Ash it smelled like home. “I saw you come in. Did you think I was late?”

“You look incredible,” I managed to say, unable to concentrate on her question. I was stuttering, ruffled by the sight of her, and she was as calm and serene as ever.

She wore a black dress with an indecently low neckline, and although it went down to the floor, every now and then I got a flash of thigh. The fabric skirted across every curve, showing off her small waist and hinting at what lay beneath. “How is that dress legal?”

“Don’t start the big brother routine,” she said and rolled her eyes at me.

Fraternal was the last thing I was feeling. It felt odd to notice Ash like that—wrong in so many ways, but I wanted to kiss her exposed shoulder. Her skin looked so soft and, well, kissable.

I was going to have to get myself together. I was clearly having a worse reaction to splitting with Emma than I’d expected. I placed my hand on the small of her back and led her out of the bar toward to ballroom.

“What is this thing anyway?” she asked, glancing up at me. “And why am I here?”

“A boring awards dinner. Our firm is up for law firm of the year. We’re not going to win, but think of it as free wine and it might not seem so dull.”

“Okay. And why am I here?”

“Do you not want to be?” The thought of her being with me as some kind of chore made me wince. I wanted her to look forward to the evening as much as I was. Any evening was improved by Ash being a part of it. She was funny and clever, and she knew me better than I knew myself. How could we not have a great time together? Maybe I’d have to convince her.

“I’ll tell you at the end of the evening. I’ll give you a score if you like. And then I can tell you if it scored higher than the alternatives for the evening.” She grinned up at me.

“What alternatives?” I asked her. What would she be doing this Friday if she weren’t with me? Be with Richard, I guessed. “Were you being whisked off to Paris?”

“All right, no need to be sarcastic. I like a night in with Chinese takeout and a Ryan movie.”

“A Ryan movie?” I wasn’t sure I should ask.

“Reynolds or Gosling. Either of them would do.”

I grinned as it took me a second to tune into what she was talking about. “But not Seacrest?”

“Are you kidding? So not my type,” she replied as if I’d lost my mind.

What was her type? Movie stars with eight packs? Richard the doctor?

“But as you’ve brought it up, is Mr. Seacrest your type?” she asked. “Is that the real reason you and Emma split?”

I rolled my eyes. She may look like some kind of fantasy goddess but she was still the same old Ash, which was just fine with me—perfect even.

We stopped at the entrance to the ballroom in front of the seating plan. “Come on, we’re at table twenty-four.”

We entered the vast, soulless room, which was full of chatter. To the side, a stage ran across almost the entire length of the room, and the rest of it was full of round tables of twelve seats each. I’d been to a million of these events, and they didn’t get more interesting. At least Ash was here tonight, so I’d have more fun than usual. Somewhere along the road, lawyer Luke had become very serious. I guess the more people relied on you and looked up to you, the less fun you could have.

I made various introductions to Ash at our table. She sat to my right, and on the other side of her was a junior partner from our banking department, Isaac. I didn’t know him very well. I hoped he didn’t bore her. She thought my job was dull enough; I didn’t need to give her more evidence.

We all got seated and I leaned toward her. “Are you okay?” I asked. She seemed jumpy, nervous almost.

“Sure,” she said. She wasn’t being very convincing.

“I appreciate you coming.”

“It’s fine. I’m sure I’ll enjoy myself.”

“I’ll make sure you do,” Isaac interrupted. “What’s a beautiful girl out with this old bore for anyway?” he asked, pointing to me.

Ash laughed. “He’s not so bad. He got me out of prison a couple of years back. I owe him.”

“Somehow I find that very hard to believe,” he said, smiling at her as though he was imagining her naked. “What do you do?”

“I’m a nurse.”

“A girl in uniform? My night keeps getting better and better.” He winked at her and my irritation rose.

While Isaac was distracted by the waiter, I placed my arm on the back of her chair and leaned in close to her ear. “Do you want to swap seats?” I asked. “You can sit here if you can’t see the stage properly.”

Ash put her hand on my thigh and goose bumps radiated across my skin. Her dress was having a very bad effect on me. “He’s fine,” she said, knowing the motive behind my offer only too well. “Fun. And anyway, I can handle myself. What do you think I do when you’re not around?”

How could she think he was fine? The guy was a dick, and he wasn’t even drunk yet. “If he tries anything, you let me know.”

“Okay, dad.” She grinned and turned away to answer a question Isaac was asking of her. He wasn’t going to monopolize her all evening. I would make sure of that.

The guest to my left, a woman from finance, asked me something about the wine. I tried to be polite, but I was distracted. I wanted to talk to Ash, and I didn’t want Isaac anywhere near her.

“You think we’ll win?” the woman on my left asked.

“Not a chance. But, what is it they say? ‘It’s nice to be nominated.’”

“That’s bullshit,” she said.

I nodded.

I glanced across at Ash and Isaac. He held her hand, her palm facing up, as if he were Madam Zorba about to do a reading. She was laughing. What was he saying to her? Why was he touching her?