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Which I’d espied just yesterday upon leaving The Inventor’s: the truck, clean of graffiti, parked up by the bungalow. Most of all, for it was she in her hat and skimpy sunsuit, the old woman picking weed-like greens by the porch whom my sister would have known from the pool.

I hoped for success for my father. What exactly was it about life that was hell for him? He was serious as a person. What a coach he was, hoping to be tapped for Olympic trials. With his unique method yet willing to use whatever came to hand. He knew. And at a glance he could tell watching you in the water. “Wait, wait,” he shouted, your elbow too high, arm extended up, shoulder over too far, too high, stroke, reach, turn, and fingers (that’s right) more like a close grid than a diver’s sealed hand. Explain, if you could be bothered, what you thought you had been doing, and he’s with you—“That’s correct,” or, “No, that’s incorrect.” Another remark heard more than once after I gave up diving was, You don’t know how to compete. Did he think it was true? It wasn’t as if I was against the man, I told my sister. Just be prepared, she said—Semper paratus. He was flying far and near. Why? I read where the President himself had intercepted a letter authenticated as written by the insurgent Manadel Marouf-al-Saddam Booshawa prophesying that America would be made to run, as in Vietnam, when it was the big picture this terrorist feared. Well, I wasn’t the President yet.

It was true enough of our seriously award-winning city that we had everything here, Liz thought. Why leave? Liz wasn’t interested in travel; an hour’s trip up to Oceanside on the Coaster to fish off the public pier with her aunt who was married to a veteran who worked at a big kind of men’s or bachelor’s club just behind the beach, and back by seven the same day, was it. Why go to war? Liz had taken Umo for Hawaiian. My sister said he wasn’t old enough, which contained some truth: they had been there so long before they became a state. Liz thought Umo’s accent Hawaiian the once they met. She was way off. Liz with a much older Navy pen pal in Ewa who conducted tours of a Pearl Harbor battleship. It was not she who brought Umo up, or when I did she had little to say but liked something about him. It was his body. He was a traveler, she said of his trips back and forth across the border.

“Travel!” I exploded — Umo’d been halfway around the world, and it was pretty much on his own. It probably was, Liz said, he’s independent. “A wanderer,” I said, and felt it was a word, a better one, and, as I sometimes would backstroking, I had a thought that the one I really loved was my sister, and lap after lap, my dad was, what? — pretty distant, and Umo, fat, but not mainly fat, but huge, but a kid, which expanded my narrow world of family and all that, though then I thought, Was he really a wanderer?

No surprises for Liz, even if Umo was twenty, which he wasn’t. China doesn’t let you travel just like that, I said. She said she wasn’t surprised even considering they had lots of people there. She seemed to take for granted what I told her of Umo, that is the circumstances noted or unmentioned that called forth his family (if any were left), his reports of them, even the gathering of these upon me tightened by my motive for (though I hadn’t announced it) enlisting: Umo’s mother taking him to see a leopard in a forest, her fear of water, her winters keeping sheep along the desert borderlands of the steppes before his part-Manchu father one spring delivering a porcelain pot made with his own hands, met her in a village and ran off with her and brought her home to his family’s astonishment if not horror. The woman followed the man for some reason of love.

Liz didn’t think that happened in China. She was hardly someone you’d say you couldn’t keep up with, yet I would listen always.

Was it indifference in her to something? It didn’t seem so, moist, her eyes weighty as bees on the hunt or mysteriously bright, everything instinctively regulated, tender, infinitely slow her touch, the cocoa-mat-imprinted troughs of scar upon my chest less angry than a while ago. What did she think of me beyond love? She didn’t like my father. She had even told him so one night, and everyone laughed. Liz had dropped in for a piece of my mother’s Thursday chocolate mud. She had an evil look in her eye, my mother said — though that was next morning. She liked Liz. Which said it all, my sister said, with that slant of hers. Which you can’t explain to people who don’t understand it, any more than I could achieve anything by sharing with Liz all the sometimes mysterious encounters with The Inventor and his store of work. (I loved her, but.) A drawing sketch he had brought back long ago for a dam porous enough that it wouldn’t destroy downstream silt. His new type of oven made of local earth and porous stone encouraging interconnecting ovens, easing the division of labor and multiplying the product a hundredfold (like a thought of mine dreamed up for a Global paper); his ice-skating rink shrine of Five Triangles for the Descendant (Which “descendant”? “Thomas.” “Which rink?” “Oh far away in China, somewhere like that.” “‘Thomas’?” “Forget I ever said it,” The Inventor guided me to another object. A Thomas in China? I murmured, persisting. “Very ancient,” said The Inventor. “You know Chinese?” I asked. Inventor acted modest; he had once had to translate a page of English into Chinese.)

It must have been when I was still diving, because one of our every other Saturdays or Sundays the Inventor’s door was locked and nobody home. Milt pounded on the door a little too long and rapped with the knocker so it sounded up and down the deserted street. We went away, it was like the future — was that it? Milt and I had an argument, I forget what about. In fact, a rich customer who worked for the City had paid to send The Inventor on a trip to bring back the Bengali plane but then did not buy it. Other goods he brought back — from Bangalore — included an antique pinhole camera found on an island in one of those garden lakes; the camera had been used to draw a huge bull as well as a great droog, that subtle topographical eminence, a fortified hill, and the camera was said to even contain the subject matter it had been used to help the artist to draw. It was less than two weeks The Inventor was gone, it was when I was still diving because he changed the subject to that, when I asked where he had gone; because I had only been to Mexico, and only Baja with my dad and when I told my sister, who was up in her room and had never been to The Inventor’s, she said, “He went to find his wife.” “What would he need with a wife?” I said, and she, “Don’t ask me.” “What would you say if I did?” “He brought her back because—” “He did?” “—because a temple would have been too big to bring, and we build them here,” my sister said, her head now on my shoulder, for I knew we were on the same plane whether I understood her perfectly or not.

He did bring her back?

First I’d heard. Maybe I didn’t know him in that way, or rather, he me. Not his house either, apart from the main floor…

Quite a while ago, it seems, some Indian gadgets and models you could find in The Inventor’s stock if you looked to outdate fission or poison weaponry — these would have seemed the material side of concepts contained often in his familial backroom envelopes like facts a spy might pass on to outwit war itself if one could only tell the idea to invent the invention. (Were there spies who didn’t know it?) So that when I felt Umo hear me say something that would help him prosper, I felt myself unknowingly a part of a real job or even war effort, yet kept from a danger that would help me. I asked what goods my friend Umo had trucked north for The Inventor from Mexico, who, not the least surprised that I knew Umo, pointed to minute Christmas mangers made by convicts out of nuts, and an ancient Chinese (though Mexican-made) tool for cutting rhizomes from the Goldthread plant, imitation antique knives — had there been three blind women traveling in the back of that truck as we heard? If so why were they not apprehended? As if what you didn’t see would not trouble you.