Instead Em. Come in haste, there she’d been at the back in time for Husky’s loud words with me and CEO and captain appearing front and back to grab an arm to remove him, when I was the one (and another person’s gesture I took in but recalled only later). For what Husky did to speak up they were right enough to try to get him out of there, as my own admonitory interdiction to CEO and captain proved a signal hit for the majority of the assembled accredited. And our military presence hadn’t gone unremarked even among such a loyal citizenry and, now on hand at the back, my own latecomer sister trying to think things through still had a car to drive me to Chula Vista a week later gathering my resources.
“See, it’s heating up,” Livy said, she’d been wondering about my California campfire just beyond the canyon ridge, in fair flame though mysteriously deserted, but she meant the car now. We approached the bridge in low gear. “That’s what you told your…” A smile between us—boss, I meant. “In case,” she says. “You must have known,” I said. “What I know is…” “Well, you’re never wrong.” “That campfire above the canyon? when you were looking for water late at night?”
“Bliss.”
“Bliss?”
“‘ …the plaything of the child,’ Livy —‘The secret of the man’—yeah that’s it—‘ The sacred stealth of Boy and Girl / Rebuke it if we can,’ it comes right back.”
“I wouldn’t know,” said Livy; “that campfire, though, was your father.”
“We found two gallons of water but left them,” I said, stunned, not exactly agreeing.
But now exposed by the bridge, oncoming.
Improvised by our own Corps of Engineers, a floating bridge, if we speak of the foundations laid across the river for a modest span to handle fifty thousand of us a day. You would hardly know what lay below arriving on foot. No vast perspective of six miles of Seattle concrete pontoons, and, once on, not the vibration of a suspension bridge, the constant flood beneath. Yet like why you enlisted, a swirling voice transmitted from the river and the structure to our feet having left the car to walk for the sake of it.
I was exposed. It was ahead always. It was base and banal news whatever the major had phoned in.
Through the burden of vehicle sound Livy heard the cries ahead and looked at me. She said, “That photographer? They gave up on him. I believe he was a Chaplain.”
News, I thought. “Lost in action maybe,” Livy said, eyeing me.
No link to our trip, of course. Her assignment, her men. “Where is the camera?” A shout, a shriek coming up from below. “And that Nosworthy?”—her voice behind me now—“with the face?”
From the barrier I could see a sturdy child in the water swung overwhelmingly by the surging tracks of river that came together there. He hung on to some projection he could just reach with one hand below the roll of currents, it might be trying to pull him lower. The cries not his. I ran ahead and found a way down. Not a high bridge but a serious crossing. Below me two women on the ledge of a pontoon a dozen feet above the water seemed unable to move turning back and forth calling for help, calling to the children — there were two children in the water. It seemed like one. The women, their heads covered, found themselves trapped by need, not their own risk.
On the ladder I heard Livy call. She couldn’t leave the car.
I looked up at her. I had stopped for a second. “Stay,” she said. She meant don’t come back up. What would I do, climb back up the ladder to see if my father was the one who’d caught up with Storm? Never in the world, and I do not forgive him even for not being the one who trained the flashlight on two naked kids racing for a beach towel that comes into view, huge and yellow draped over a rock, but figure he was behind the government’s almost unprecedentedly turning Umo down, finding his decision unacceptable when, just before I left, he had reportedly declined our offer of citizenship. Umo’s value as an Olympic prospect? China’s part in this.
A paint job on a door may be a job with some exchange value to split your heart between here and there — what did Umo owe The Inventor?
I have the time of others to work with, more than they know, and another father though this old mole died but not to me, and a faint ringtone is neither here nor there but like family to be gathered in and understood in its time: look at a half twist on tape, rerun it, the arch all but inertial, at the top the head-tilt leading the way for the shoulder and its extended arm to bank into what becomes a back dive, an axis that was always there, timeless, and you’re unbeatable you know then, but what (I ask the Hearings) is this half or full twist like? — it’s that you have no competitors, they’re another zone. This was my Chinese diver’s secret the day of the palace, his dive a jump — feetfirst, as they describe how the Reservist gets mustered out of this war — (laughter somewhere) — his twist and the three different positions his somersaults assumed capturing time itself and with it, better still, an understanding better than any dive. Which must be like my real job. To see the ground coming up, and from a long angle winter wheat growing out of it. Be the Bedouin born without eyes or a bald child’s shaved-head hairline, or a tongueless.
And what gives me, through having worked my way down to semiretired Reserve photographer reportedly of the Scrolls’ landfall, eighteen-inch capsule turning and aiming, turning some more, along the currents of the great system of wells restless as undulating rooms I hear my sister reading when we think of water, the right to hold forth on competitive full twist or answer if the President should be on the short list for the Peace Prize? At least I do not dream of training on the job as CEO of the nation having owned a chain of prisons or laundry slash dry cleaning establishments or a baseball team or for a thousand days read the Tao in a public place to learn how to do nothing, or studied how to be a photo op against strong backlight.
“Yes?” I said, the crowded Hearings room still before me, the hand raised now Husky’s: “That’s it,” he says, “that’s it. ‘Yes,’ you said, Yes,” getting to his feet managing to tip his chair into someone’s lap—“I said it this morning, or I didn’t say it, or I did,” Husky calls — while, edging down the aisle as if he would do something or, now in the row behind, hand Husky a mike, CEO broad-shouldered — while at the back who but my sister comes into view, Husky’s her friend—“the kid with his tongue cut out, Zach,” Husky unaware of CEO, the stillness embarrassed, souls having to cope with intelligence, Christian doubtless or fascinated, and still adrift in their own seamless interruption, mortal, knowing, shy, American, Husky though trying: “Feel like I know you, Zach. Photos I wasn’t meant to see — headless kids, that blindfolded wheelie going off the ramp at the Base—you know what you did — down by al Kut, was it? And the one-legged Specialist coming in for her layup, and someone tied up under a table biting somebody, blood on her leg, on the floor, the Wildcat of Kut, was it sex you cropped outa that shot, take a mouthful to tell what’s going on there.” CEO with captain behind him reaches through the row. “And you’re smart here and we all get the point but do we? Like ‘profit-stricken’ country, and it’s funny, it’s called for, but listen—”