"Slaves out," said the guard, turning the key in the heavy lock and swinging back the barred gate of the cage.
In a few minutes I, pleased, knelt, naked, on the wooden platform in the large room in the public pens of Ko-ro-ba. This time I needed not be bound hand and foot, nor held by guards.
I put my head back and the leather worker again reached for my face. His instrument was rather like a pair of closed, long-handled pliers. He inserted the tip of this instrument, consisting of a pair of small, hinged rods, like opposing crescents, into the steel nose ring and then, with his two hands, pulling outwards on the handles, slowly, carefully, opened the instrument, spreading the ring. Then, with his fingers, he slipped it free, and dropped it on the platform.
I ran joyfully from the platform to the wall. I felt my face and laughed. I no longer wore the hated nose ring! Elinor Brinton was free of the hated nose ring! "El-in-or," said Targo.
I knelt immediately.
"You are very beautiful when you are happy," he said.
I blushed, looking down. "Thank you, Master," I said.
Ute then came to the wall. She, too, now, was free of her ring.
I wanted Ute to hold me and kiss me. I was so happy.
"Ute," I said. "I am happy." "Good," she said, and turned away.
I was hurt. When Inge came to the wall, I looked at her. She was my friend. "Inge," I cried, "I am happy!"
But Inge, too, turned away, and went to kneel beside Ute.
I felt alone, terribly alone.
When Lana came to the wall I approached her, timidly. I put out my hand to touch her.:I want to be your friend," I said.
"Find out when we are leaving for Ar," said Lana.
"I might be beaten," I whispered.
"No," said Lana. "Targo likes you. He will not beat you."
"Please, Lana," I begged.
Lana looked away.
"I will try," I whispered.
I went to Targo, trembling, and knelt at his feet, my head to the boards of the floor.
"May a slave speak?" I asked.
"Yes," he said.
But I could not from the words, so frightened I was.
"Speak," he said.
"When," I asked, in a whisper, terrified, "a€”when do we leave for Ar, Master?" There was a silence.
"Curiosity," he said, "is not becoming in a Kajira." His voice was not pleasant. I moaned.
I crossed my wrists beneath me and touched my head to the floor, exposing the bow of my back. it is the submissive posture of a slave girl who is to be punished. It is called Kneeling to the Whip. I shook, visibly, at his feet. I whimpered. I waited for him to call a guard, to bring the lash.
"El-in-or," said Targo.
I looked up.
"In the morning," said Targo, "slaves will be fed before dawn. Then, at dawn, we will leave Ko-ro-ba for Ar."
"Thank you, Master," I breathed.
He smiled, releasing me. I leaped to my feet and fled back to Lana's side. "We will leave at dawn tomorrow," I told her, excitedly.
"I had thought so," said Lana.
I reached out to touch Lana's arm, and she permitted me to do so. "I want to be your friend," I said.
"All right," said Lana.
"I am your friend," I said.
"Yes," said Lana.
"And you." I begged, "you, too, are my friend?"
"Yes," said Lana, "I am your friend."
"You are the only friend I have," I told her. I felt very alone.
"That is true," said Lana.
How lonely it was, to have only one friend. But I had at least one friend, someone who liked me, someone to whom I might talk, someone whom I might trust and in whom I might confide.
"Tonight," said Lana, "if you are given a pastry, you must give it to me." "Why is that?" I asked.
"Because we are friends," said Lana.
"I do not want to do that," I said.
"If you wish to be my friend," said Lana, "you will have to please me." I said nothing.
"Very well," said Lana, looking away.
"Please, Lana," I whispered.
She did not look at me.
"I will give you the pastry," I said.
That night, before our departure, I had great difficulty in getting to sleep. Ute, Inge and Lana, all, slept soundly. I lay awake in the straw, looking up at the steel plating above me, dim, metallic, in the flicker of a lantern hung outside the cage, on a peg fixed into the wall on the opposite side of the corridor.
Tomorrow we would leave for Ar.
I was not much pleased with the evening feeding. Lana had taken the pastry, which I had agreed to give her. And when I had attempted to steal that of the Lady Rena of Lydius, unseen by Rena, Ute's hand had closed on my wrist. Her eyes were very hard. I released the pastry. And Ute and I returned to our food pans. I had had no pastry this night! I was angry.
I hated Ute, the smug, ugly, stupid little thing.
And I hated Inge, too, for she was skinny and ugly, and stupid.
And I hated Lana, though she was my friend. I did not think her much of a friend.
I hoped that I would sell for a higher price than any of them that would show them!
I got to my knees in the cell and watched my shadow on the back wall, from the lantern outside. I stretched, and threw my hair up and back, arranging it on my back. I was beautiful. I wondered what a man would pay to own me. I wondered what I would bring on the great block of Ar, when I stood there naked for the buyers, Elinor Brinton, a nude female slave to be auctioned to the highest bidder.
The thought of Verna, the outlaw girl, passed through my mind. She had captured me, and sold me for a hundred arrow points!
How humiliating, and insulting!
I was worth gold! Gold!
Perhaps Marlenus, her captor, would choose to put her on the block! Perhaps she would sell for a hundred arrow points!
But I would bring gold, much gold!
I looked about at the slave flesh in the straw, that of Ute, and Inge, and Lana. They were slaves. I hated them all. I wanted to be free of them! I wanted to be free of them! I did not need friends. I was better than all of them! I wanted only to be rid of them!
I lay there in the straw and recollected the forest north of Laura. I recalled Verna, and the panther girls, dancing in the circle. I recalled them, when they could no longer restrain themselves, throwing themselves to the grass, writhing in their helpless need, even the proud, arrogant Verna! They were all weak.