Bogen awaited us, and bowed. “Did all go well, my lord?”
“Perfectly. Hard as it is for me to believe, it seems as if our friends here really delivered. Take good care of them, Bogen. Give them anything they want—except communication with the outside world. Understand?”
“As you wish, my lord,” he responded respectfully.
We all began walking down the corridor and I started singing, softly and lightly, a ditty I neither understood nor had known before, but one I knew the function of quite well.
“ ’Twos brillig, and the slithy toves Did gyre and gimble in the wabe; All mirnsy were the borogoves, And mome roths outgrabe…”
Laroo stopped and turned, curious. “What’s that?”
“Just a little light song from my childhood,” I told him. “I’ve been under a hell of a lot of tension the past few weeks, remember, and it’s gone now.”
He shook his head in wonder. “Umph. Crazy business.”
“We’ll see you again, won’t we?” Dylan asked him innocently.
“Oh, yes, certainly. I have no intention of leaving just yet”
“Maybe a month from now,” I suggested helpfully. “At least then we could talk about our lives here.”
“Why, yes, certainly. In a motith.” And with that we went up to the quarters level while he and Bogen went elsewhere.
Freed at last of the constant guard, we walked out onto the lawn and sat in the middle of it, basking in the sunlight and warmth, stripping down and lying next to each other. For a while we said nothing. Finally Dylan spoke. “Did we actually just take control of the Lord of Cerberus?” she asked, wonderingly.
“I’m not sure. Well know in a month, certainly,” I replied. “If he lives to get off this island, he’s the real one. If not, we’ll just do it again and again until we get it right But I think he was the right one.”
She giggled. “In a month. We have a whole month. Just us, here, with every wish catered to. It’ll be a relief. And then…”
“It’s all ours, honey. All Cerberus is ours. Good old Dr. Dumonia.”
She looked startled. “Who?”
“Dr. Du—now why did I bring him up?”
She shrugged. “I don’t know. We sure won’t be needing a psych any more. Except maybe to get that implant to report out of your head.”
“Yeah, but I suppose that Dr. Merton could do that as well. I hope so.”
She turned to me. “You know why I love you? You did it all yourself! Without any outside help! You’re incredible!”
“Well, the Confederacy had to go along with the plan, you know.”
“Pooh. You knew it all along. Every single one of your crazy, mad, nonsensical schemes worked. In a little more than a year you went from exile to true Lord of the Diamond.”
“And you’re the Lady of the Diamond, remember.”
She lay idly for a moment, then said, “I wonder if we’d shock anybody if we made love out here?”
“Only robots, probably,” I responded, “and we know what they’re worth.”
She laughed. “Shocking. You know, though—remember when they suggested we put ourselves in each other’s minds? Who was that, anyway?”
I shook my’head. “Too long ago. I can’t remember. Not important, anyway. But why do you bring that up?”
She laughed. “It wasn’t necessary. I’m a part of you anyway now. And you, me, I believe. At least I can’t get you out of my head.”
END REPORT. REFER TO EVALUATION. STOP TRANSMISSION STOP STOP.
Epilogue
The observer leaned back, removed the helmet, and sighed. He looked weary, worn, and even a little old beyond his years, and he knew it.
“You are still disturbed,” the computer noted. “I fail to see why you should be upset. It was a splendid victory, perhaps a key one for us. We will henceforth have our own spy in the ranks of the Four Lords.”
He didn’t reply immediately. The computer irritated him, and he couldn’t quite explain that either. Computers and agents were well matched to each other, and before he had always somewhat identified with the machine. Two of a kind. Cold, emotionless, logical, a perfect analytical working team. Was he in fact irritated at the computer, he wondered, or was it that the machine was such a reflection of. his own previous ego and self-image that he couldn’t bear the mirror it presented? He wasn’t sure, but his mind did seize for a moment on the word previous. A curious word. Why had he used it? Had he changed that much?
I haven’t changed! he told himself, banging a clenched fist down on the armrest. They changed. Not me!
But they are you, his mind accused.
What was so different about their missions, anyway? The planets, to be sure, Were far more exotic than the majority of plastic and steel worlds he was used to, but not as different as a few on the frontier. Never before had that changed him. What had—down there?
Perhaps it was the fact that they—his other selves—knew that they were down there for life. No check back in, debrief, and lay off until the next mission. No return to the good life and the best the Confederacy could offer. A last mission. No more responsibilities to the Confederacy, no more working for anyone except yourself.
All his life he’d been trained to think in the collective sense. The greatest good for the greatest number. The preservation of the civilized worlds from internal forces that threatened it. As long as humanity in the mass was bettered, they’d taught him, it hardly mattered that a few had to die, innocent or not, or even an entire planet Bettered. Protected. Saved.
Did he really believe that any more? he asked himself.
Plastic worlds. Did they, then, breed plastic people? Was Dumonia right? Was the alien threat more of a threat because of the way we’d remade ourselves?
And yet the civilized worlds were happy places. There was no poverty, few diseases, no hunger or other forms of human misery that had plagued man through the ages. Not even the frontier, with its vast technological support, was as miserable or threatening as past frontiers had been. He was raised in that culture and, seeing the historical record, believed in it. It was better than anything man had ever had before. That was the trouble. The basic puzzle that haunted him. It was neither bad nor evil. It was a good society full of happy, healthy, well-adjusted people, on the whole.
That thought cheered him slightly. Dumonia was wrong, too, in believing that the sparks of human greatness were extinguished in such a system. They hadn’t been extinguished—they merely lay dormant until needed. The Warden Diamond proved that.
Humanity’s strength and hope lay in that dormancy. In the fact that under trial the reserve was there to adapt, to change, to meet new challenges. Dormant but not extinct.
That thought brightened his mood somewhat, although not completely. That was fine for the collective, but not for the individual. Not for one particular individual in five bodies.
Twice now he’d followed himself on dangerous ground. Twice he had seen himself change, in some ways radically, putting aside his self-image, his devotion to duty and ideals—even the ideals themselves. In all cases he’d violated, once and for all, his personal standards, his own sense of himself as a bedrock, the ultimate loner who uses but does not need. These, too, were dormant inside him and came out when—well, when the leash was cut. The leash that bound him to the Confederacy, its authority, principles, and ideals. He had willingly been leashed, and the cut had not been of his own making, but still it was there.