“We’re all on the death watch out there. It’s quite exciting when you hear that the fellow in the next room didn’t wake up this morning. What do you mean they set Tremont up?”
“It’s political. I don’t think anybody wanted to shoot the Mayor. What they want is to bring down some local black radicals. Tremont’s not really a radical but he can pass for one, and he mixes with the Brothers, who truly are radical for this town. You know the Brothers?”
“I read about them. I don’t know their particulars.”
“It’s a good story. You’d be writing it if you were still working.”
“Maybe so. This actually was my old territory. The Times Union was a few blocks up at Beaver and Green. All the papers were there — the Knickerbocker Press, the Albany Evening News, the Argus, and the Journal was down on the Plaza. I knew every inch of these streets, including this one we’re on. This is Trixie’s street. Are you in front of Trixie’s for any priestly reason?”
“It’s a long story, but yes, I’ll tell you later. I like Trixie.”
“She’s the Queen Bee and has been for years.”
They drove down the block and picked up George and Vivian but no Tremont.
“Hello, George,” Martin said. “It’s Martin Daugherty. How the hell are you?”
“Martin Daugherty,” George said. “Wibble stu hobbleski, mox neex aus, I run with all mine shwiftness.”
“You haven’t forgotten your German,” Martin said. “Voulez vous promenade avec moi ce soir, mademoiselle? Isn’t that Vivian Sexton?”
“It is, hello, Martin. I haven’t seen you in years.”
“So George, I was just saying that we met Sergeant York in France. You remember?”
“We bought him a drink. Great fella. He captured five hundred Germans and seventy-five machine guns, all alone. A hell of a thing.”
“You remember what he drank?”
“Coneyack.”
“Right.”
“He wanted a beer but they didn’t have any. The French don’t go for beer. All they get over there is grapes and watermelons.”
“Where’s Tremont?” Matt asked.
“I turned around and he was gone,” Vivian said. “That was ten minutes ago. He never said a word to us.”
“He’s playing hide and go seek,” Matt said. “Go around the block, Nick.”
They circled the block and Matt went into Hapsy’s, a small crowd out in front, a mecca tonight since so many legal downtown bars were closed by the tension. Hapsy had no bar in his place, more like a small grocery. He was a puffy black man wearing a skullcap cut from a fedora, said he hadn’t seen Tremont. Among the crowd Matt saw Cole Travis sipping on a bottle in a paper bag. Claudia had taken Matt to see Travis and his wife, trying to get them help. They lived in a cellar across from Tremont, and over the winter Travis had chopped out his ceiling beams to feed the stove that took up half the cellar and was too hot to sit near even when it was below zero. Plumbing didn’t work, no fridge, and Travis and his wife were deep into the wine; no job, no prospects, no friends, no money; how do they pay the rent, how do they get the wine? Two of the sorrowful mysteries. Matt talked to the city housing chief, brought students from Siena to clean, fix the beams, fix the toilet. But Travis kicked everybody out saying I’m movin’ outa here.
Matt told the chancellor of the diocese about Travis (during the same visit when he presented his list of twenty-two whorehouses) and said we gotta help this man. The chancellor said the only thing that will save those people is religion, which Matt used without attribution in his next sermon — a discourse on Bonhoeffer’s cheap grace and how it relates to the abstract, nebulous, gaseous blather that passes for morality in contemporary churches. Grace is a high-end item. You’ve got to work at it. Is it a healing church? Is the church the light on the mountain? Oh, yeah. Is the church the salt? Oh, yeah. What Bonhoeffer knew was the imperative to be extraordinary and Matt also threw in Augustine’s take on God: higher than my highest. I’d work day and night down here if they’d let me — that was Matt’s dream. Find a way to help the Travises. I beg for a floor to dance, a room to sing, a floor without walls, a room without ceiling, and when my prayer is outworn, there is no sap, no juice, no suckle. When each day is a dead mother, I remember when, and at that point the memory has sap, juice and suckle. Oh, yes it does.
For two years prayers had been coming to Matt and he wrote them down, direct from soul to page. He believed they were God’s truths, also his own, and the prayers were fervent but querulous, for the God he was writing to was a muddle, no way around it. “Father, I walked down a street cobbled for pushcarts and hooves. Is this you?”. . “Father, I seek soil, not dust. . Soil is a full hand.”
Quinn said he sounded like a dealer who liked the long odds, but Matt didn’t expect his questions to make it to the big prayer book. “God shorted me,” he told Quinn. “He knows I’m no poet. But the prayers keep coming. I stick them in the sock drawer until I’ve got enough to send to an editor, and they do publish this stuff, not under my name, I’m not that egotistical, or that brave. I like to quote Paul on this—‘What I do I do not understand, for I do not do what I want.’ No way to do what I want.” What’s more, all prayer henceforth will be private. The political church and the pious polity have delivered their favored dictum on communion: Let there be silence.
Within the soul-hollow an abyss,
A dead child’s bed, a widow’s cell,
A Cain flushed of rage,
A voided snail shell.
My plea: I starve for the Great Fill.
You alone fill my God cave.
Father, bait and hook these predators.
Bags weigh heavy as I walk down an alley
Seeing my shadow thin on wet cobblestones.
To ease the burden I stop walking.
I cannot move.
This is a God tomb.
Do I hold onto this lie?
My joy, a morsel. My peace, a hovel.
A split-tongue never shields a traitor long.
The answer is surrender,
The price a shriveled soul.
But I am the dream of God.
If I drop the worry cloak,
If I cool the boil within,
If I cease dogging my will,
If I leave the carcass in your hands,
If I quit the God match, the God dare,
Then let them have their silence.
But I will not. No, I will not.
Quinn made his case to Doc Fahey about Tremont — the faux assassin as a provocateur’s dupe — standing in the lobby of the Palace Theater as police were closing it down after the death of the white youth. Doc was reasonably sympathetic; he’d known Tremont for years, one of the rocks on the street, not a mean bone in him, but you can’t trust a wino, and with that AR-15 and the Mayor as his possible target, real or unreal, Tremont wasn’t going to get the kid-glove treatment.