The heretofore sour and sullen shepherd introduced to me as Xamid cackled in approval of this assessment, and clapped me on the back. The tall, lanky guy named Shirvani smiled for the first time. The man I thought was the commander’s brother passed me a cigarette, while the doe-eyed kid I had started calling “the kid” kept his eyes down-turned and his thoughts to himself, if he had any at age fifteen. Or, perhaps his thoughts mirrored mine, and mine were focused on one thing alone: that we did not run back over our own handiwork in the darkened fields on the way back to the Ramadan evening breakfast of pickles, potatoes, and bouillon broth that we knew awaited us after our successful mining endeavor.
Was I slipping over some unspoken line? Or just becoming “cuddled ”?
Cocks crowed. Turkeys gobbled. Dogs barked. Brothers snored. And then a heavy diesel truck engine roared, a horn sounded a sustained blast and a now-familiar voice shouted from beyond the courtyard’s metal door.
“Mishawu Tomas? Ha! Tzigawu!”
It was Hussein, my new friend and, I guess, partner or guide taking advantage of some lull in the action (or nonaction), come to collect me for a little tour of outlying districts he thought I should see. I held off long enough to get a cup of coffee down my non-Muslim hatch, grab my camera kit, and pull myself up in the cab of Hussein’s rig, a four-ton Kamaz truck painted military green.
“Tomas!” shouted Hussein over the motor roar. “Remember that power station and mill I told you about yesterday?”
I didn’t but said I did.
“We are going there, now,” shouted my host while releasing the clutch.
We soon were bouncing down a deeply pitted road beyond the bridge and checkpoint, on the way to Achkoi Martan. The truck had such bad suspension that the frequent blows to my head could kill me if a Russian attack helicopter didn’t blast us first. There was no guarantee that the latter would not happen. The Russian forces made a bit of a game out of arbitrarily blasting cars and trucks on all Chechen roads, and Hussein’s four-ton machine certainly looked like a target to me. Actually, we were no longer even on a road, but a twin path of tread marks leading through sparse trees. Were we in the wild garlic forest that was bombed daily, or some other grove? Had a decision been taken to dispatch this overcurious observer, me, who now knew too much, or what? What was I doing there? How long can one live with casual paranoia before it kills you?
Another downshift through a puddle, maybe a creek, that splashed dirty water on the shattered windshield of the Kamaz. A left, a right, another left beneath more trees with branches scratching against metal and glass in a way I would not let trees touch my beat-up old Ford in Montana. Then we stopped by a big pit, both the sides and interior overgrown with weeds.
“When I came back from Kazakhstan, I was looking for property around here,” said Hussein, climbing down from the driver’s side. “I had heard about this place—lovely ground, trees, water to build a small mill. My mind was set! Then this is what I found.”
I jumped out of the truck and fiddled with my camera kit, testing the microphone and attaching the tripod.
“Look!” said a voice in the headset that was coming from nowhere in sight. It was Hussein, already deep inside the unnatural pit, clambering down the far side, feeling, touching, tenderly fondling pieces of rough masonry extending at flat angles far down below. Flagstones. Natural building blocks.
Then I got it. The flagstones were actually tombstones. Chechen tombstones used as an easy quarry after Hussein’s ancestors were bundled off to Central Asia.
“Veedish?” breathed Hussein, back up on level ground after having bounded out of the pit, and solemnly, lovingly stroking a new stack of cut stone that passed as a regular wall leading to a sluice gate. “Veedish —do you see?”
The perfect farm, a place replete with a miniature hydroelectric plant and pond was built using the gravestones of his ancestors as building blocks.
“I remember when we first came back, we kids would sneak out to this place. It was already in ruins then; maybe it was never completed,” recalled Hussein. “And there was a metal wheel associated with the generator—ah, here it is!—and we would spin the wheel and get it going as fast as we could and then dare each other to take a leap and seize the edge and sppiinnnnn!”
Hussein spun the groaning metal wheel, and I recalled doing a similar stunt in a grade school playground back home.
“Yes, we were kids. Kids!” breathed Hussein. “How could we know we were playing on the graves of our forefathers, laughing? And I remembered this place, and when I came back I had my mind set on owning it, developing it, because the remarkable thing was that no one else seemed to want it! So then I came back with my heart filled with dreams and memories, and someone had to explain why no Chechen farmer would ever, could ever homestead here. And that is when I began to understand. Really understand. There is no difference in time or space between the Czar’s cannons against Shamil in 1854, the Bolsheviks seducing us to fight against the Whites in 1918, or Stalin deporting us in 1944, or Yeltsin rolling his tanks over our tombstones today. Every fifty years, the Russians attempt to eradicate us, because we have never submitted. And they will never succeed.”
We trundled back to town in a silence enforced by the motor roar, picking up a couple of groups of forest youth on our way back and depositing them at the Assa River bridge checkpoint for guard duty. A knot of frowning elders in their papakhs and formless greatcoats stood to the side, stamping their feet in the cold and muttering darkly. Hussein leaned out the window and called over one of the armed men in the blockade house, exchanged some words in Chechen and then turned to me to explain.
“Ivan is closing the loop,” he said with a frown. The elders had been on their way to a perigavor, or contact meeting with the invisible Russians down the road, but the meeting had been canceled due to a helicopter attack on several village women collecting wild garlic in a nearby forest.
More ominous was the very fact that the elders had called for the contact meeting at all. It was designed, Hussein explained, to neutralize the town.
“This is not just a war of independence, pitting Djohar against Boris, or even the Chechens against the Russians,” he said. “It is also a conflict about control and the nature of Chechen society. It is about rich and poor, believers and nonbelievers—and I do not mean anything religious by my remarks. Mark my words, whatever the result of the current conflict, the one that comes after it will be much worse, because it will be one that pits Chechen against Chechen, and we are the most remorseless people in the world.”
And arguably innovative, as proven by the next stop on our itinerary. This was the courtyard of a blacksmith shop owned by a man named Alkhazur. My presence led to a certain amount of consternation among the other armed men loitering around. A quick discussion in Chechen ensued, but I could follow none of it. Voices were raised, but Hussein had the last word.
Then I found out why my camera caused concern. I was inside the local arsenal. Someone was firing up a welding torch, and in front of my eyes the lowly blacksmith’s shop was converted into a weapons repair and creation depot. A heavy machine gun ripped from a dead armored personnel carrier was now under the torch, the barrel straightened and firefight damage addressed. Then Alkhazur removed the rods from a broken-down tractor in the yard and welded together a mobile platform for the gun, replete with swivel action and a basic shield. Within half an hour Hussein and his men had acquired an antiaircraft gun to ward off helicopters.