“I bet it does.”
“You want to compare losing some loved ones to dying of cancer?”
“How would you know? You don’t love anyone.”
“You’re wrong. I love-”
“Don’t fucking say it,” I warned. “Don’t you dare fucking say it.”
He stared at me, hard, then slowly nodded. “I get it.”
I wanted to hit him. “You don’t get shit. You think I’m afraid to get close to you because I’m afraid I’ll lose you? Get over yourself. I don’t want to get involved with a drug-sniffing loser.”
“Then maybe you should stop calling me when you need help.”
I was done with this conversation. I grabbed my stuff and got out of the damn truck. I was ten yards into the corn before remembering I left my rifle behind. Screw it. Let Phin keep the damn rifles. He could rob an old folks’ home, or sell them for cocaine.
Noise, from behind. I increased my pace.
Then a tug on my arm.
I whipped around, jammed my palm into his chest. Phin staggered backward.
“The lady doesn’t want to be touched,” I said, teeth clenched.
“The lady is acting like an asshole. You’re the only one in the world that hurts, is that it, Jack? And feeling sorry for yourself is the only way you can cope?”
“You don’t seem to be coping too well either.”
“I take it day by day. That’s all anyone can do.”
Day by day? What total crap.
“You’re one sorry SOB, you know that, Phin? You told me the sex wasn’t a mistake. You were wrong. It was a mistake. The latest in a long line of mistakes I’ve made. I’m through.”
“What about Alex? She wins?”
“You’re the big macho stud. You can handle her. I think you guys would make a really cute couple.”
I turned, and appropriate for my environment, stalked away. Phin made the mistake of grabbing my arm again.
I spun, whipping around my right leg, aiming to knock his sanctimonious head off. But he anticipated the move, already had his arm up over his head, and caught my foot in his armpit.
And then he made the biggest mistake of his life. He dropped my leg, took a quick step forward, and slapped me in the face.
Slapped me. Open-handed.
I felt my face go red, and not just the cheek he smacked. The hitting I didn’t mind. Hitting me meant he thought of me as an equal, that he could defend himself appropriately. But the fact that he actually pulled his punch-took it easy on me because I was a woman-that was infuriating. He didn’t think we were fighting. He thought he was handling some hysterical little girl.
That showed no respect for me at all. And I slept with this guy?
“Not smart,” I said. I dropped my gear.
“I’m sorry.” He put his hands up and backpedaled. “Did I hurt you?”
Apparently, he wanted to make it even worse. A breeze blew through the corn, making a peaceful, rustling sound. The sense of tranquility was shattered when I clenched my fists so tight we both heard my knuckles pop.
“If you want to hit me back, that’s fair.”
Jesus, he was just digging his own grave. Phin was lean, muscular, and had a few inches and maybe forty pounds on me. He could fight. I’d seen it. But I was a black belt, and I was beating up kids bigger than me while he was still in diapers.
I moved in with two quick steps, feinted left, then hit him with a left-right combo to the body. Phin brought up his fists, taking the shots on his shoulders. I jerked forward, head butting him between his arms, connecting with his jaw.
Phin kept his footing, but he was unsteady. I got a leg behind his and pushed, flipping him over my hip. He went down, hard, and I dropped a knee on his chest, fist poised to slam into his naked throat. A killing blow.
Instead, I opened my hand and slapped him across the mouth.
“You’re not worth a punch either,” I said.
He stared at me, stunned. I got up, grabbed my stuff, and stormed off.
“You’re mad because I slapped you and didn’t punch you?” he called after me. “You’re out of your goddamn mind!”
I didn’t dignify that with an answer. The more corn I got between us, the better off I was.
“Dammit, Jack! I didn’t punch you because I love you!”
I thought about yelling something back, but decided against it. I wanted the last words I ever said to Phineas Troutt to be the ones I’d already spoken. That’s all he deserved.
But even though he was out of my life, permanently, I had to begrudgingly thank him. Because of Phin, I was back to being angry.
Alex was going to suffer for what she did. I would make sure of it.
CHAPTER 42
“OH MY GOD!” Samantha squeals. “Those boots are to die for!”
They’re bright shiny red, just like Superman wears, except these have stiletto heels and red fringe around the top. Might as well write I’m a stripper across the tops.
“And they’re only eighty bucks! I’m soooo buying these!”
“I think I’ll get a pair too,” Alex says, battling her reluctance and picking one up. She checks the insole. Fabrique by Enrique Perez. A nobody, with zero fashion sense.
“You’ll look totally hot in those, Gracie.”
Was Sammy just being friendly? Or flirting? “Thanks. So will you.”
“I know I’m in shape, but I don’t have definition like you do. You can see your leg muscles through your pants.”
Sammy runs a finger along Alex’s thigh. This is definitely flirting.
“I work out a lot.”
“I knew you did. Pilates?”
Alex pictures her martial arts kata, kicking and striking to break imaginary boards and bones.
“Something like that,” she answers.
“I’ve tried them all. Jazz-Kwon-Do. Swimmerobics. Tramp-O-Chi-that’s tai chi on a trampoline, not with tramps, which would be gross. The local gym has a Spankercize class, but I don’t think I want my personal trainer whacking my ass.”
“Might be fun.”
“Depends on the spanker,” Sam says, winking.
The clerk comes by, and they request two pairs of Enrique’s finest, in the same size. This naturally provokes a squeal of delight from Sam. How nice it must be to get excited over such trivial things. Half an hour ago, she practically died of plea sure because the mall sound system played a Muzak version of Nirvana.
“So where to next? We hit all boutiques in the mall. There’s a Boston Store. I think they have a sale going on.”
“I’m starving,” Alex says. “How about food?”
“I know this groovy little Thai place. They’ve got this green curry to die for. I love spicy foods. They make me hot.”
Alex smiles her half smile. “Then we have to try it. Can you drive?”
“Sure!”
Sam takes Alex’s arm, and they walk out of the mall, Sam yapping and giggling, Alex genuinely amused by this woman’s spirit and enthusiasm. The enthusiasm is dampened somewhat when they get to Sam’s car.
A Prius.
“It gets sixty miles per gallon. It’s so green. I’m all about the planet. People are destroying the earth. We all need to conserve, or there won’t be enough left for everyone.”
“Or we could just kill a lot of people.”
Sam raises an eyebrow at Alex, then begins to laugh.
“God, you’re so funny! I thought you were serious!”
Alex lets out a few chuckles, hoping they don’t sound as forced as they feel. When they’re in the car, Alex touches Sam’s arm.
“Samantha, I’m having a good time, and I don’t want to be reading you wrong. But you do like girls, right?”
“You mean sexually?”
Alex nods.
“Sure! I’m totally bi. I mean, guys are great, but most of them are really impatient, you know what I mean? Women know how to take their time. Don’t you think?”
Alex nods, but the truth is, she’s feeling pretty impatient right now too.