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number of languages h e spoke and b y the amount of h is miscellaneous knowledge ; he was a real shopman behind the counter of learning and kept samples of all the sciences, the elements chiefly, in his head. In Alexander's reign, he wrote reform pamphlets in French ; then he had a German correspondence with Goethe on Greek matters. After becoming minister, he discoursed on Slavonic poetry of the fourth century, which made Kachenovsky remark to him that our ancestors were much busier in fighting bears than in hymning their gods a·nd kings. As a kind of patent of nobility, he carried about in his pocket a letter from Goethe, in which Goethe paid him a very odd compliment : 'You have no reason to apologise for your style : you have succeeded in doing what I could never do - forgetting German grammar.'
This highly placed Admirable Crichton invented a new kind of torture for our benefit. He gave directions that the best students should be selected, and that each of them should deliver a lecture in his own department of study, in place of the professor. The Deans of course chose the readiest of the students to perform.
These lectures went on for a whole week. The students had to get up all the branches of their subject, and the Dean drew a lot to determine the theme and the speaker. Uvarov invited all the rank and fashion of Moscow. Ecclesiastics and judges, the Governor of the city, and the old poet, Dmitriyev - everyone was there.
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It fell to me to lecture on a mineralogical subject. Our professor, Lovetsky - he is now dead - was a tall man with a clumsy figure and awkward gait, a large mouth and a large and entirely expressionless face. He wore a pea-green overcoat, adorned in the fashion of the First Consulate with a variety of capes; and while taking off this garment in the passage outside the lecture-room, he always began in an even and wooden voice which seemed to suit his subject. 'In our last lecture we dealt fully with silicon dioxide' - then he took his seat and went on, 'We proceed to aluminium . . . '. In the definition of each metal, he followed an absolutely identical formula, so that some of them had to be defined by negatives, in this way : 'Crystallisation : this metal does not crystallise' ; 'Use : this metal is never nsed' ; 'Service to man :
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this substance does nothing but hann to the human organism.'
Still he did not avoid poetical illustration or edifying comment : whenever he showed us counterfeit gems and explained how they were made, he never failed to add, 'Gentlemen, this is dishonest.'
When alluding to fanning, he found moral worth in a cock that was fond of crowing and courting his hens, and blue blood in a ram if he had 'bald knees'. He had also a touching story about some flies which ran over the bark of a tree on a fine summer day till they were caught in the resin which had turned to amber ; and this always ended with the words, 'Gentlemen, these things are an allegory.'
When I was summoned forth by the Dean, the audience was somewhat weary : two lectures on mathematics had had a depressing effect upon hearers who did not understand a word of the subject. Uvarov called for something more lively and a speaker with a ready tongue ; and I was chosen to meet the situation.
While I was mounting to the desk, Lovetsky sat there motionless, with his hands on his knees, looking· like Memnon or Osiris.
I whispered to him, 'Never fear I I shan't give you away I ' - and the worthy professor, without looking at me and hardly moving his lips. formed the words, 'Boast not, when girding on thine annour ! ' I nearly laughed aloud, but when I looked in front of me, the whole room swam before my eyes, I felt that I was losing colour, and my mouth grew strangely dry. It was my first speech in public; the lecture-room v·as full of students, who relied upon me; at a table just below me sat the dignitaries and all the professors of our faculty. I took the paper and read out in a voice that sounded strange to myself, 'Crystallisation : its conditions, laws, and forms.'
While I was considering how I should begin, a consoling thought came into my head - that, if I did make mistakes, the professors might perhaps detect them but would certainly not speak of them, while the rest of the audience would be quite in the dark, and the students would be quite satisfied if I managed not to break down ; for I was a favourite with them. So I delivered my lecture and ended up with some speculative observations, addressing myself throughout to my companions and not to the minister. Students and professors shook me by the hand and expressed their thanks. Uvarov presented me to Prince Golitsyn, who said something, but I could not understand it, as the Prince
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used vowels only and n o consonants. Uvarov promised m e a book as a souvenir of the occasion ; but I never got it.
My second and third appearances on a public stage were very different. In 1836 I took a chief part in amateur theatricals before the Governor and beau monde of Vyatka. Though we had been rehearsing for a month, my heart beat furiously and my hands trembled ; when the overture came to an end, dead silence followed, and the curtain slowly rose with an awful twitching. The leading lady and I were in the green-room ; and she was so sorry for me, or so afraid that I would break down and spoil the piece, that she administered a full bumper of champagne; but even this was hardly able to restore me to my senses.
This preliminary experience saved me from all nervous symptoms and self-consciousness when I made my third public appearance, which was at a Polish meeting held in London and presided over by the ex-Minister Ledru-Rollin.
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But perhaps I have dwelt long enough on College memories. I fear it may be a sign of senility to linger so long over them ; and I shall only add a few details on the cholera of 1 8 3 1 .
The word 'cholera', so familiar now i n Europe and especially in Russia, was heard in the North for the first time in 183 1 . The dread contagion caused general terror, as it spread up the course of the Volga towards Moscow. Exaggerated rumours filled men's minds with horror. The epidemic took a capricious course, sometimes pausing, and sometimes passing over a district : it was believed that it had gone round Moscow, when suddenly the terrible tidings spread 'like wildfire. 'The cholera is in the city.'
A student who was taken ill one morning died in the University hospital on the evening of the next day. We went to look at the body. It was emaciated as if by long illness, the eyes were sunk in their sockets, and the features were distorted. Near him lay his attendant who had caught the infection during the night.
We were told that the University was to be closed. The notice was read in our faculty by Denisov, the professor of technology; he was depressed and perhaps frightened ; before the end of the next day he too was dead.
All the students collected in the great court of the University.