The witch nodded. Eldric assumed she was right-handed. But the witch was left-handed, and she had the second sight, which meant she saw the Strangers wriggling from beneath the great stones that dotted the Scars. She saw the Strangers weaving and wobbling toward her on their tiny string legs. But Eldric hadn’t the second sight; he was blind to the Strangers, so she pretended blindness too. She showed him her new fist-making skills; he gave her fist his undivided attention.
One doesn’t laugh at the Strangers, despite their spaghetti arms and legs, despite their outsized heads that loll about on spaghetti necks. The Strangers are proud and powerful. The Strangers control the harvest.
“Excellent fistibus,” said Eldric, but he wasn’t done with my hand. He inspected my left palm, the pucker of scars.
“There’s no fortune to be read in that palm,” I said, but of course he wanted to know about it; of course he’d been dying to ask since we first met. “Do you want the version of the story in which I’m a hero, or do you want the true version?”
“Both,” said Eldric.
“Greedy!” I said.
“I was quite ill,” I said, which I mentioned not because it’s true, although it is, but because it makes people feel sorry for me. Even a witch wants sympathy. “My memory of the event is rather foggy.” This is also true. “But I know I was writing one of those stories Rose is forever mentioning, and I suppose I smelled the fire—in any event, I found myself at the library door.”
Here’s where my account of the fire diverges from the truth. I had, indeed, been writing, but the Horrors alone know what possessed me to stumble into the library. What made me call up the fire?
I don’t think I’ll ever know. Not even Stepmother could venture any theories. And burning my hand—well, I’d been ill, and perhaps I hadn’t been strong enough to control the fire.
“You must remember,” I said, “that this is the heroic version.”
“I have it well in mind,” said Eldric.
“I attempted to rescue my stories, not for my own sake, but for Rose’s. The stories soothe her, and there are so very many she loved. I knew it would take me years to write them all again, and even then, they’d never be the same.”
“I believe that,” said Eldric. “Heroic version or not.” He curled my fingers into a fist.
“As for burning my hand in the attempt,” I said, “I think I must blame my illness.”
It’s unsettling to straddle two worlds, one foot in the human world, speaking to Eldric of scars and fires, the other foot in the world of the Old Ones, where the Strangers look at me all slanty and sideways beneath their toadstool bonnets, their tongues flapping from their lolly-bobbing heads.
It seems odd that a day given over to bad boys and boxing should turn into a day of memories. But so it was. My memories were dull and gray, like a photograph. The books were black, the fire gray. A cloud of white lace rushed into the library. I didn’t recognize her at first, not Stepmother, because it wasn’t possible that she be there. She couldn’t rise from her sickbed. Her bracelets were the color of cinders, although they jangled in the key of gold.
Flames leapt into the room. They sharpened their teeth on the floor. And then I couldn’t see, there was only sound—a jangle of gold, a woman’s voice, a girl’s screams. The girl had burnt her hand.
How much pain, though, must Stepmother have endured to rush to the fire? To try to save me? I never asked, of course.
“My turn.” I’ve always wanted to know about the scar that dips into Eldric’s eyebrow. Eldric treated me to an account of the Great Pudding Caper, which made me laugh so hard I had to stop fighting to catch my breath.
“Mistress!”
Now the Strangers spoke. “Make us our story, mistress!”
They spoke one at a time, their voices identical, one picking up precisely where the last left off. If you were to close your eyes, you’d think it a single voice.
Punch, kick, block. I must get rid of my skirts if I am truly to kick.
“Make us our story, mistress! Our story, it need must be telled. The story o’ the dark earth, o’ the roots, the roots what us tends all the spring long that you fo’ak might have victuals an’ beer.”
Kick, punch, block, punch. All those stories, the stories of the Old Ones, they burnt in the fire.
“Scribe it to us, mistress. Scribe o’ the clay. Clay, it be right comely, but you fo’ak doesn’t see it. You doesn’t see the crystals what it got, you doesn’t see ’em sliding and gliding.”
The Strangers are the ones to know such things. The Strangers rule the underground, not the Devil. They ripen the corn and paint colors on the flowers and gild the autumn leaves.
“Make us stories o’ the underground. Make us the story o’ the Unquiet Spirit what tosses in her winding sheet. She be lying with them cold worms an’ don’t nobody hear her shrilling.”
Punch, block, kick.
“The Unquiet Spirit, she be shrilling out a name. Tha’ knows it fine, that name. It be tha’ own particular name. It be Briony Larkin.”
Stepmother screamed my name the day of the fire. Stepmother, who ran to the library despite her injury. I have a theory about how she might have managed to pull off such a feat. It comes in the form of an equation: Love + Fear = Herculean Strength. It’s how mothers come to fling runaway motorcars from their children. It’s how . . . well, actually, I oughtn’t to speculate, never having experienced the Love portion of the equation. But I did read about the mother and the motorcar in the London Loudmouth.
“Make us our story, mistress. Make us our story.”
Eldric caught at my fist, examined it, made sure I hadn’t slipped into thumb-breaking mode. “Your fists are beautiful,” he said.
Beautiful! He said my fists are beautiful! How I wished I could tell him about the Strangers.
“Thank you,” I said. His hand was warm around my fist. “Yours are adorable.”
He squeezed my fist in mock protest. He smiled his curling smile. How I wished I could tell him everything.
Secrets press inside a person. They press the way water presses at a dam. The secrets and the water, they both want to get out.
Beautiful! That’s what a friend would say. A friend would touch a person’s hand. But Briony, you mustn’t think about having friends and touching hands. If all goes as planned, you and Rose will leave the Swampsea. You’ll leave the Swampsea on one of Mr. Clayborne’s trains, but nothing will really change. You’ll live alone, except for Rose, you’ll live in the dark with the dust and the crumbs, and when you hear a noise, you’ll scuttle into the cracks of the wainscoting.
Friendship will get you nowhere. You have to keep your secrets. You mustn’t speak of the Strangers, now lob-bobbling away from you. Now vanishing beneath the rocks. You mustn’t believe that the pretty boy from London will keep your secrets. Do you want to exchange the pressure of all those secrets for a rope about your neck?
Guess what it is that turns plants to coal.
Pressure.
Guess what it is that turns limestone to marble.
Pressure.
Guess what it is that turns Briony’s heart to stone.
Pressure.
Pressure is uncomfortable, but so are the gallows. Keep your secrets, wolfgirl. Dance your fists with Eldric’s, snatch lightning from the gods. Howl at the moon, at the blood-red moon. Let your mouth be a cavern of stars.
13
The Trial
Pearl returned to us the day before Nelly’s trial. We welcomed her, and we shook her hand, and some coins passed from Father’s hand to hers, and we went our various ways, all except Edric, whom I overheard offering to help with supper.
Pearl said it was very kind of Mister Eldric but she didn’t need no help, and anyways, she knew her place, she was sure, which was more than she could say for Mister Eldric; and Eldric said never mind about that, he thought she might like some company just now; and Pearl burst into tears and cried and cried, with Eldric saying things too low for Briony to hear; and Briony realized she should admit she was turning overhearing into eavesdropping, in which case she might as well sit down and enjoy it, which she did; and she heard Pearl’s sobs turn to laughter from time to time, as when Eldric tried to peel an onion with the butter knife or said he didn’t mind gathering herbs from the garden if Pearl could tell him where to find the mint sauce.