“This may be New Year’s Eve, but we won’t stand for any basketeers on our beat,” a cop the size of an ox growled as he shoved Eddie against a fence.
Eddie started to say something, but the second cop cut him off. “You’ll keep your yap buttoned if you know what’s good for you.” Then he balled his fist and slammed it into Eddie’s stomach. Eddie doubled over and fell to the ground.
“Brownie!”
“Fairy!”
I rushed forward, kneeled next to Eddie, searched his face, and then turned to glare up at the cops.
“What are you doing?” I demanded. “Who do you think you are?”
The ox smirked at us. “And who do you think you are? A pair of buttered beards?”
Grace looked thoroughly confused-like the cop was speaking in a foreign tongue.
“They’re the anchors around my neck,” Eddie moaned from the ground. Then, from somewhere deep within him, he managed to chuckle.
“He’s with us,” I said. “He had too much to drink, and we got separated. New Year’s…”
The cops hassled us a bit more-talking way over Grace’s head-before finally letting us go. Grace and I helped Eddie to his feet. We each took one of his arms and proceeded up Ivar to where we lived. I went through Eddie’s pockets, found his key, and opened his door.
“Helen, you sure saved my bacon,” he mumbled, thankful, as we laid him on his bed.
I left his key on the nightstand.
When Grace and I got to our room, I was scared and mad. “How dare they talk to Eddie like that! And did you see the way that one cop slugged him! We should report him.”
“How would we go about reporting him? And what was that all about anyway? What’s a basketeer?”
I cleared my throat and said what needed to be said. “Eddie doesn’t like girls.”
Grace shook her head, confounded.
“You know what I mean,” I said. “He’s a momma’s boy.”
Grace still didn’t get it.
“He’s swishy,” I explained. “A fruit. A lavender.” I used American slang, hoping it might help her catch on.
Grace looked like her eyes were going to pop out of her head and hop down Hollywood Boulevard, as Ruby might say, but that doesn’t mean she believed me. She listed the proof I was wrong: “He went out with the ponies at the Forbidden City. He danced with our female customers. He has you as his partner. He kisses us in our routine.”
“He’s the Chinese Fred Astaire, but that doesn’t mean he isn’t a basketeer.”
“What is that anyway?”
I sighed. “A basketeer is a man who likes to stare at other men’s… baskets. They like to look at the outline of-”
Grace put up a hand to keep me from saying any more. “How do you know?”
“I grew up in San Francisco. A city. Maybe that’s why I always knew what Eddie was.” As an afterthought, I added, “Who doesn’t have a funny uncle?”
“A funny uncle? We didn’t have anyone like that in Plain City.” Grace considered. “Well, maybe the man who ran the hamburger stand… Helen! Are you sure?”
I nodded.
“And you like Eddie anyway?”
“He’s my friend and my dance partner. I respect him and he brought me here. And, Grace, remember all the things he’s done for you. He’s not any different than he was this morning when we woke up.”
Grace scrunched her face like a hedgehog. Finally, she shook her shoulders, letting all the tension go. Then she gave me a frank stare. “Do you think all men in this business are basketeers or fairies or whatever? Because that would explain a lot.”
THE FIRST TWO months of 1941 were desolate, unpromising, and endless. I felt forlorn and hopeless, taking the bus back and forth from Chinatown to work, going out for auditions that went nowhere, and worrying about money. Grace wasn’t a bowlful of peonies either. “How many plates of rice and pork chops can you serve when your dreams are limitless?” she asked one day.
The longer the night lasts, the more capricious our dreams will be.
At the end of February, I was laid low by a stomach bug. I curled up on the love seat, slept, couldn’t go out. After a couple of days, Grace began to study me the way she used to scrutinize the ponies at the Forbidden City.
“What?” I asked. “Why are you staring at me like that?”
“Helen,” she said as she sat on the floor next to the love seat. “You know what’s wrong with you? You’re pregnant.”
“Pregnant?”
“Think about it. Have you had your period?”
I made the calculations. I hadn’t had a visit from the little red sister in… I tallied my other symptoms… “Aiya!” I dug my nails into my palms, fighting the impulse to cry.
Grace took me to a doctor, who confirmed the diagnosis. I was with child. A tide of emotions sucked me up, spinning and tossing me until I could barely think.
“You’ve got to tell Tim,” Grace said, although I don’t know what she thought that would accomplish. Still, I allowed myself to be taken to C. C. Brown’s. Grace waited at the counter while Tim and I talked in the storage room.
“I can’t marry you,” he said. “It’s against the law. I’m sorry.”
“That’s all you have to say?”
“Look, it’s clear you had experience in this. I hate to say it out loud, but I know I wasn’t your first.”
I guess bailing and not taking responsibility-no matter what the circumstances-was to be expected from a lo fan.
Eddie offered to beat up Tim, which gave us a good laugh. Eddie said he’d find someone who could “help” me, but my soul screamed at the idea.
“I can’t have a back-alley abortion,” I said. “I just can’t.”
Grace suggested I go to an unwed mothers’ home, have the baby, give it up for adoption, and then resume my life.
“Even girls in Plain City had to do that sometimes,” she said.
“But did you have half-breeds back there?” I asked. Grace’s eyes widened as that sank in. “The baby’s going to be a mongrel. Half and half.” Just saying the words made me sick to my stomach.
“What will it look like?” Grace inquired, horribly boorish.
“I have no idea. Ugly?”
Grace and Eddie stayed with me. They gave me tissues when I cried. They brought me soup and soda crackers. Despair paralyzed me. I couldn’t have an abortion. I couldn’t give away the baby. And I couldn’t go home to the compound with an illegitimate half-breed. When Grace went to work, I unwrapped the framed photo that was folded inside the sweater I’d tucked in the middle drawer on my first day here and took it back to the love seat. I stretched out with my feet on the armrest and the photo propped on my stomach and resting against my thighs. I was alone and scared, but deep inside I felt life-a tiny dot, scratching, grating, growing, needing me, needing love. I enveloped that tiny dot in layers of imaginary wool, straightened my shoulders, and took a deep breath. I knew what I could do. I just needed my friends to go along with it.
A WEEK LATER, the three of us went to the courthouse so Eddie and I could get married. I wore a nice dress. Eddie looked suave in his fawn-colored sports jacket and chestnut-brown wool trousers. Grace was our witness. The ceremony was over in five minutes. When we got back to Grace’s and my apartment, Eddie sat next to me on the love seat. My tiny bouquet lay on the cushion between us. None of us had much to say. It wasn’t exactly wedding bells and tulle. Eddie was helping me out of a jam, and I could be a cover for his “interests.”
Finally, he slapped his thighs. “I guess it’s time for me to go.” He stood. “We don’t want to push you out, Grace. I’ll sleep in my apartment for now.”
“I wish this were more joyous for you, Helen,” Grace said once Eddie closed the door behind him.