Detective Collins approached me. “Let’s start again,” he requested. “What do you surmise Mr. Boiler meant when he said he didn’t want the other guys to win?”
As I repeated what I’d said before, Detective Collins ran a hand through his hair. When I came to the end, he said, “Well, we’ve just interviewed your neighbors. It seems you have a history of harboring Japs.”
My stomach clenched under my rib cage.
“What’s this all about?” I asked.
“Your roommate, or should I say your second roommate, was a Jap. We need to figure out just how active she was for the Jap cause, and if you were helping her.”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” I retorted indignantly.
“Take a look at these.”
He handed me the letters from Ida’s room. They’d been written to Ida by her parents from the Japanese internment camp at Manzanar and sent to a local post office box. Her real name was Ume Otsuka. I had held on to my emotions-frozen from shock-but now tears welled in my eyes. I cried-not because I’d been deceived, but because I knew the terror Ida must have hidden all these years. She must have been petrified that she’d be caught, hated, vilified, sent to a camp, and, yes, beaten or murdered. It chilled me to think she might have lived with me-the person folks believed had ratted out Ruby-as a way to deflect suspicion from herself.
THE PRESS DUBBED the incident the Triangle of East and West, which didn’t make a lick of sense but it sold a ton of newspapers. The public defender painted Ray as a heroic patriot, while I was called in for questioning by agents from the FBI and the War Relocation Authority on six separate occasions.
“Did Ume use her job at the Forbidden City to get information from our servicemen to send to Japan?”
“I knew her as Ida.”
“Was she sympathetic to the Jap cause?”
“Not that I know of.”
“Are you sympathetic to the Jap cause?”
“No!”
I barely slept. My nerves were wrecked from the questioning, the reporters, the way my neighbors stared at me, and, worst, the memory of Ida’s gaping throat and the lingering stench of blood and death that permeated my apartment. I hadn’t been physically hurt, but I felt broken. My old habit of squeezing my legs, arms, and ribs to feel for injuries returned. Things let up once Ray confessed that he’d “known Ida was a Jap all along,” but that he’d killed her in a jealous rage-just like I’d said. Before he was sent to jail, he gave a final interview in which he proclaimed, unrepentant, “She got what she deserved.” All this was followed by predictable chest beating about the insidiousness of the enemy and reminders that loose lips sink ships, even though Ida’s only crimes had been trying to pass and bad judgment.
I hadn’t done anything wrong, but the news about Ida being Japanese-and my roommate-went over at the Forbidden City like a dented can of Spam. The ponies and other performers gave me the cold shoulder but good. They couldn’t decide if I was a traitor because I befriended Japanese or if I’d somehow orchestrated Ida’s death in the same way I’d ratted out Ruby for my own gain. I was exhausted. My eyes were swollen and my cheeks blotched from crying. I lost weight. I looked so bad that servicemen didn’t invite me to their tables to chew the fat. Either that or they’d read about me in the newspapers and didn’t want to be seen anywhere near a “Jap sympathizer.” My same old desire to flee-that phantom itch-was overwhelming. But before I could run, Charlie lowered the boom. He fired me. For the second time!
I called Max Field. My agent had wrung out his guts trying to get me another film role without an ounce of success. Now he failed at getting me a gig in San Francisco. “You’re famous,” he allowed, “but I can’t book you in a mainstream nightclub like Bimbo’s because you’re Chinese.”
“What about in Chinatown, like last time?”
“Not after all that’s happened.”
“But I didn’t do anything!”
“Look, first Ruby, then Ida-”
“But I’m innocent!”
“Whatever you say…”
Which wasn’t exactly an endorsement.
I’d lost a job I loved. My friends high-hatted me. My agent didn’t believe me. I was blackballed by clubs in Chinatown. Even Helen, who had helped me so many times before, was at a loss. My career and my life were in ruins.
“What am I going to do?” I cried to Max.
“I might be able to get you some gigs on the Chop-Suey Circuit. You won’t be making anything close to what you’re used to making, but you’ll be out of town. People will forget…”
The Chop-Suey Circuit was an idea I hadn’t considered. Jewish performers traveled the Borscht Belt through upstate New York, going to hotels and bungalow resorts during the summer. Black entertainers had the Chitlin’ Circuit, and they cruised the blues highway through the South, playing clubs and dance halls. We Chinese had the Chop-Suey Circuit. Clubs across the country-mainstream nightclubs-invited us, meaning the Chinese “This” or the Chinese “That,” to perform as novelty acts. It sounded good to me, because there was nothing and no one keeping me in San Francisco. No one, that is, except Helen.
“You promised you’d stick with me,” she said when I told her my plan.
“I did, and I’m sorry.”
“But I went to Los Angeles to find you. We came back here together-”
“Helen-”
“What will I do without you?”
“Move out of the compound? Get your own place?” I suggested.
“I could never go out on my own.”
“You went to Hollywood,” I reminded her.
“To find you,” she repeated. “Anyway, that was with Eddie and before I had Tommy.” After a pause, she asked, “Are you really going to desert me?”
I could have said she’d already deserted me when she went to work as a Gray Lady with Irene, but I knew how she’d respond. She was helping the war effort, while I was breaking my promise to stick with her until Eddie came home.
“I love you, Helen,” I said, “but Ida was murdered not ten feet from where I sleep. Every time I close my eyes, I see her face.”
“We could get an apartment together-”
I gave her a sad smile. “How will I pay for it? No one will hire me. They all think-”
“Don’t let the worst thing about a person become the true thing. You’ve got to stay and fight!”
“The worst thing is already the true thing. I don’t have a choice.”
“All right,” she said, seemingly yielding. “Then let us come with you. Tommy’s old enough now.”
But I was running, and I needed to change the current path of my story. I couldn’t have a mother and child in tow.
“Ruby wouldn’t desert me,” Helen protested, laying on the guilt. But that was Helen all over, playing Ruby and me against each other. Besides, wasn’t she the one who’d said I shouldn’t respond to Ruby’s letter? “Please don’t leave me,” she begged.
Helen was a good and loyal friend, but her neediness felt selfish to me. I reached over and squeezed her hand. “This isn’t about the three of us,” I said.
“It’s about your career,” she said as she began to weep, which was darned insensitive, considering the circumstances.
For the second time, I had to pack my roommate’s things and, again, it was excruciating. I put Ida’s belongings in storage to give to her parents once the war ended, but what were they going to do with her polka-dot blouses, hairnets, or the dried corsages soldier boys had given her? I sold or gave away most of my possessions, including my car. I took Ruby’s money and my savings and hid the cash in the lining of my makeup case. I promised Helen that I would write to her at the compound and told her she should send her letters to Max Field, who would forward them to me wherever I was. I wrote to Joe, telling him to do the same. I didn’t give him any details about Ida, the gossip, or losing my job. I needed to buck up and take care of my own business. He had enough on his plate.