“Not yet. She’s flying in from Miami.”
I’m saved from having to continue the conversation by Charlie Low, who claps his hands to get everyone’s attention. After I sit down, I notice a small dance floor and a piano, which give my heart a little hiccup. I shift my focus to Charlie-shrunken and frail now-to calm myself. If only he’d used his noodle, he would have been a rich man at the end of his life. Instead, he spent it all on wine, women, and song. Women, especially, were his downfall. Too many wives. (Fortunately, he still owns the Low Apartments, which continue to stand as a gleaming gem on the edge of Chinatown.) I peer around the room and spy Walton Biggerstaff, who taught me so much and choreographed our shows. Jack Mak and George Louie are gone, though. So many men have passed already, and that knowledge feels like a heavy weight.
“You all know why we’re here,” Charlie begins. “We’re going to raise money for our old friend, but no bake sales for us! I’ve come up with a better idea. The Forbidden City opened on December 22, 1938. Here we are in 1988. We’re going to put on a revue for the fiftieth anniversary. We’re going to re-create the Forbidden City and all our best acts. We’re going to put on a show!”
“Put on a show?” Bessie Lim drawls languidly. “Take a look around. We aren’t young Mickey Rooneys and Judy Garlands anymore.”
“Don’t tell me you’ve forgotten how to sing,” Charlie responds. “I know you girls. No one can keep the Lim Sisters from making harmonies as sweet as honey.”
“I wasn’t there the night the Forbidden City opened,” someone else calls out. “I didn’t work there until close to the end.”
“That’s all right,” Charlie says so quickly that I realize he’s come fully prepared to deal with all complaints and whiners. “We’re taking a broad approach. We’re going to use everyone we can, whether from the Forbidden City, the China Doll, or any of the other clubs some of you played in for one- and two-night stands out there on the road.”
“I haven’t performed in front of an audience in years,” Irene says, speaking for all of us. “I can’t do it.”
“Performed in front of an audience?” Charlie snorts. “What do you call all the magic shows you and Jack did at our kids’ and grandkids’ parties?” He then addresses the whole room. “Don’t be such a bunch of old ladies… and men. I know what Irene and the rest of you have been up to. You’ve been taking ukulele lessons, traditional Chinese dance, tai chi, yoga, maybe even learning how to moonwalk. So don’t tell me you can’t perform. We’re going to put on a show. We’re going to invite our friends and the press. We’re going to get even more people-old customers and total strangers-to come. And we’re going to raise money for our dear friend, like I said.”
“But what’s the show? Who’s going to write it? Who’s going to choreograph it?” a former chorus girl asks, and the ponies she sits with nod in agreement.
“We don’t need new material,” he answers. “We’re going to do the routines you were famous for-”
“I’m not going to work with any kittens!” a woman’s voice sirens through the air.
Everyone laughs. Charlie goes on: “Can’t you see it? Nostalgia! We’re going for an era that’s disappeared, see?”
I hear this with a good deal of anxiety. I want to help Eddie, and I’m perfectly willing to make a donation to his health fund, but dance? (And honestly, why do we have to do this at all? Helen and Eddie stayed married. He’s on her insurance policy, and she’s as rich as Croesus to boot. All right, I know the answer. We’re show kids. We want Eddie to know we’re with him 100 percent, even if we don’t understand this new disease.)
“There’s Ruby Tom!” Charlie suddenly exclaims.
So she came. I process that information before glancing over to where Charlie points. Ruby sits at a table on the far side of the room. She still has her figure, and her skin looks great. She wears a sequined gown… in the middle of the day… with sparkling clips in her hair… and diamond and ruby bracelets climbing her arm. What a spectacle. Even at-what?-seventy?-Ruby has to show off. But damn, she looks good-still seeking the spotlight, still addicted to glitter, and still sly as ever. I notice that my old pal is peeking at me out of the corners of her eyes. I keep my face bland.
I’ve had other friends-mothers to be when I was pregnant with Ben and Stephen, moms of the other boys in my sons’ schools, and the gals I played tennis with over the years-but none of those women knew me as a girl. None of them could ever really know me, not like Ruby and Helen know me. I’m convinced this is so, because I’m staring at Ruby and seeing not the sexed-up old woman who is just this side of grotesque, if I’m honest, but the girl who loved to laugh with her two best friends.
“And, of course, our beloved Grace Lee,” Charlie barrels along. “Still famous. Still a lady.”
I nod politely at the acknowledgment, but inside I’m gloating like I’m seventeen, because I received more applause than Ruby. If Helen were here, I think, she might be smiling too.
Right then I see Helen, standing in the doorway, wearing a Chanel suit, with matching purse and shoes. She somehow manages to appear bemused, critical, and bitter. With another of those hiccups in my heart, I remember when Helen and I were the very best of friends, sure that no one could come between us, and then later when the deepest friendship was between Ruby and Helen, and how much that hurt me. I loved those two, but together and separately, they caused me some of the worst pain of my life.
Charlie, in the astute way he handled a room in the old days, has noticed Helen too. “Ruby Tom, Grace Lee, and Helen Fong! Come up here! Let’s see if you three still have it.”
Ruby is first on the dance floor, naturally. More applause as Helen comes to stand next to Ruby. Now everyone stares at me. I don’t want to get up, but how can I not? It would be rude not to participate. So I find myself joining Ruby and Helen. Goose bumps rise on my arms from the pleasure of having so many pairs of eyes on the three of us.
“Shall I do my Princess Tai act?” Ruby asks. Yes, she still plays clubs way off the Strip and senior centers, where, as I’ve heard her say, “I put a little bump in those old geezers.” But the idea that she might take off all her clothes is horrifying.
“I don’t want to be seen in a show with a stringy and naked old bird,” Helen states, half in jest, half on the square. She’s probably thinking of her political ambitions. She’s put together an exploratory committee to look at the feasibility of running for an open congressional seat in Florida. She won’t win, but I’m proud to say I was the first person to write a check.
“I have a different idea,” Charlie says diplomatically. “Will my glamour girls do me the honor of performing ‘Let Me Play with It’?”
It would have to be that. If I first became famous for the dance I did in Aloha, Boys!, then the Swing Sisters became even more renowned for the routine we did for Ed Sullivan. Best known for singing and dancing to “Let Me Play with It” will be in each of our obituaries and probably end up on our tombstones as well.
Someone starts to pluck the piano keys. At the sound of the opening bars of “Let Me Play with It,” something we’ve danced to maybe ten thousand times, the three of us arrange ourselves in the proper order. How can my feet know what to do? How can my hips sway and my shoulders shimmy? I can feel that I’m clumsy and stiff, but I don’t seem any worse than the two women who dance beside me. Like I’ve always said, friends are better than sisters and three are stronger than one.
Beyond Ruby and Helen, I see the faces of people I’ve admired, envied, and maybe even hated on occasion in a fractured kaleidoscope of images. They’re smiling at me, and I decide against everything that tells me this is a terrible mistake that I’ll be a part of this revue or follies or whatever they want to call this reunion show we’re going to mount. I wonder if Joe will still be awake when I get home. Will he run his hand through his hair, throw his head back, and laugh when I tell him how I stumbled through the old routine? When I announce that I’ve decided to be in this performance thing for Eddie after all, will he say “I told you so”? Of course, because Joe loves me, I am his China doll, and he knows that Helen and Ruby will be the sisters of my heart for all eternity. In my mind, I count. One, two, three, four. As I make the slow turn that initiates the break, I glimpse Ruby and Helen making their turns as well. After all this time-despite the secrets revealed and the hearts broken-we are still in sync on the dance floor. Love envelops us, and we dance and dance and dance.