“That’s me.”
“You look old.”
“I am old. That was a long time ago.” It occurred to me that he was probably near the age I was when cast for Martyr & Pesty’s first season.
“Why you never punch that dude in the face?”
“It’s not me, it’s a character. If it were me I would have punched him.”
“Naaah.” My interlocutor seemed to think I lied.
“Well, Zoom needed to keep his job, you know.”
This answer satisfied him better, and he fell silent behind me for the time being. Oona was quiet, too, behind our leader, and we made a kind of reverent company as we picked our way up and down the scrubby rises led by these sprites, these ushers, who’d emerged from the wasteland. The ball field was in view for a moment, then it wasn’t. Puffy Coat halted at a section of the cyclone fence where it was split and curled away from the ground as if by a raiding animal. He set his stick on the ground, then gripped the fence and widened the breach, nodding to indicate that we should duck through, his breath frosting in the air before him.
“This can’t be what Noteless had in mind as an approach to his great work,” I said.
Oona had wriggled past the barrier, and now beckoned me to follow. “I don’t think he necessarily intends to make it easy to see. I’ve heard some people rent helicopters and fly over.”
“What if we just took his word for it?”
A dust-trampled path led downhill from the damaged fence, into deeper brush. Bladder swelling, hands chapping in cold, I was just ready to despair totally when Noteless’s Fjord erupted into view at our feet. The chasm seemed to have been hewn out of the earth by unnatural force, the ground’s lip curling suddenly downward, bringing with it shrubs and small trees now turned horizontal to sprout from the Fjord’s walls. The artificial crevasse yawned at least fifty yards across, perhaps a hundred. On the vertiginous cliffs dangled dozens of pairs of sneakers tied together at the laces, lodged on all sides in the branches and scrub. Then I made out other stuff, on the ridge at our feet, junk which unlike the sneakers had perhaps been intended to finish a journey into the earth’s craw but had fallen short: children’s toys, kitchenware, electronics, knotted plastic bags of unspecified treasure. I made out a tricycle and a large nude doll, a smashed stereo turntable, a power drill. I wondered whether the refuse was Noteless’s flourish, or the local community’s spontaneous outpouring. In any event, the cascade of garbage was the only thing “urban” about his Fjord, since the city was entirely out of view. We could have been a hundred miles into forest, for all the skyline of treetops informed us. I wondered, too, whether I knew exactly what a fjord was, after all. Or maybe it was Noteless who didn’t know what a fjord was. Shouldn’t it be full of water? Perhaps it was, at the bottom.
We stepped nearer, the four of us. Beneath the lip of trees and grass and the crap that had lodged there, the earth gave way to an underbelly of roots and stones, and below that, darker stuff, veins of sunless soil, and shadow tapering to total blackness. It was as though a titanic ax had descended from heaven to sink its blade in the parklands, then be lifted away. Oona and I stepped as though hypnotized nearer to the lip-there was no definite limit to approach, only whichever foothold on that curled ridge of landscape you’d last judge safe to take. Trampled grass showed others were braver than ourselves. The boys hung back. Having marshaled us here, they seemed to want to let us steep in the site’s insane grandeur undisturbed a while. The wind had died entirely by now, and the long tilt of clouds overhead seemed ready to close over us like the lid of a box. I took an involuntary step backward, and heard something glassy crackle underfoot. But I didn’t take my eyes off the dark center before me. The longer I stared into the Fjord, the more likely it seemed that I’d pitch headfirst into that light-destroying well, so the sky could slam shut and entomb my tiny form inside.
“Okay, it’s kind of incredible. Let’s go home now.”
“Wait, I want to take it in,” Oona said. “It’s a total vision of death.”
“One hundred percent agreed. I’m cold and I have to pee.”
“So go pee.”
I stepped backward again, unwilling to trust the Fjord at my back. Again I felt a gritty crackling under my shoes. I turned one heel up, as if to check for dog shit, and found dusty shards of thin glass embedded in my sole’s leather. Crack vials. That detail, I figured, was beyond even Noteless’s vision. He’d had collaborators at this site.
“Can you believe they’d put the man who built this in charge of the Memorial to Daylight?” said Oona. “I wonder if those people have ever even seen this thing.”
“Well, he’ll obviously have to… compromise… on the memorial…” I’d found a discarded Starbucks cup and was using it to scour the glass from my shoe.
“Did you know he originally proposed Urban Fjord for Columbus Circle? Needless to say, they refused him.”
“Pretty petulant of him to have put it here instead.”
“You’re projecting, Chase. Whatever you think of Noteless, there isn’t a less petulant man alive.”
“I’ve never heard you speak so reverently about one of your assignments. You’re trying to make me jealous.”
The boys stepped up beside us-like museum guards, it occurred to me now.
“What you gonna give?” asked Puffy Coat. Leaning on his broomstick crook, framed in wilderness, he could have made some mock Pre-Raphaelite tableau. But I needed to get a grip on myself. Not everything was in quote marks, or wearing some mystical halo of interpretation. I suffered Perkus’s disease by proxy. I should focus on the real. Two badly parented boys had led us to see the freakish hole in the ground on this chilly bluff at the edge of their ghetto. They were playing hooky. Their older brothers would have mugged us.
“What do you mean?” said Oona.
“Everybody put in something,” said Puffy Coat. “What you got?”
“An offering, you mean.”
Puffy Coat only shrugged. That word was near enough to what he had in mind.
Oona looked at me, and pointed at the coat pocket where Obstinate Dust bulged. “He brought something,” she told the boys.
“I want to return this to Perkus,” I protested.
“Perkus gave the book away, Chase,” said Oona. “Besides, what else have we got? I’m not tossing in my Treo.”
“Do it, Cheese,” said New York Jets.
I had to tell myself it wasn’t Perkus Tooth I’d be symbolically interring in that pit, but Ralph Warden Meeker. From the sample I’d taken on the 1 train, he and Noteless deserved each other. Obstinate Dust, meet Obstinate Hole. Anyway, it would be a relief to walk the return path without the asymmetrical sink-weight in my pocket. I gave the book a spirited heave, wrenching my shoulder in the process. The tubby paperback fluttered softly as it dwindled to a birdlike speck, proving the real breadth of Noteless’s monstrosity. Then it was gone.
“Ow.” I cradled my shoulder, amazed at what a single effort could inflict. I hadn’t been to the gym in months. At least I’d gotten the book past the crud-strewn whale’s lip, into depths where its impact returned no sound.
The ceremony freed us from the Fjord’s spell. The boys turned and piloted us back through the tear in the fence, and up the last rise, until Fort George Avenue was evident ahead of us, and beyond it, hints of the wider city, even the reassuring far-off Chrysler and Empire spire-tops. There our guides soberly shook each of our hands, and turned back. Their graceful final silence would forever enshrine them for me as mythological chaperones. I peed behind a tree, then Oona and I found our way back into the streets. Oona was on the silent side herself.