On Monday morning we brought the four color prints back to the condo at Piney Village. The professional lab had done good work on the eight-byten enlargement. The Pentax lens had done the original good work. It was unmistakably Evan Lawrence, every pore, blemish, and laugh line. He was half smiling, startled, one eyebrow raised. The lab had put them in gray portrait folders.
Meyer sat at Norma’s desk in the little office she had fixed up. The file cabinets had been taken away.
Outside, the rain fell in silver-gray sheets out of a gun-metal sky. A tropical disturbance had moved in off the Gulf, a rain engine that had broken the heat wave. All over the city the body and fender shops were accumulating backlogs.
I leaned against the angled drawing board, one foot on the rung of the stool she had sat on when she worked at the maps, my arms crossed.
“One thing we know is that he left almost no trace of himself here,” Meyer said. “He lived here for almost three months. No possessions. No personal papers. Just some rough cheap chain-store clothing. This was going to be his home. It isn’t normal that he should leave so little hint of himself.”
“You said there were letters she wrote to him when she was out in the field. No hints in those? No clues?”
He frowned. “When I found them I thought he was dead too, and it seemed a terrible invasion of privacy. I threw them out, and then I retrieved them and put them with her personal papers. I just scanned a couple of them quickly. There’s about a dozen, I think. She was very much in love.”
He went off and found the letters and brought them back to me. “Travis, I don’t think I want to read them. If you wouldn’t mind…”
There were twelve of them, written on whatever paper was handy at the time. Yellow legal sheets, office memo paper, the blank backs of obsolete printouts. She wrote in the hasty scrawl of a busy person, using abbreviations, leaving out words. She talked of her work but without the technical details he would probably not have understood.
They were all dated and could be divided into small batches. Apparently she wrote frequently when she was out in the field. Three consecutive days in March, four in April, two in mid-May, and three in June.
Darlin, having dreadful time today with a ranch woman who refuses to believe we will repair their land when we’re through. Kept coming out, whining about the ruts and how we were scaring her animals. We were using some new equipment, and had to make certain it was placed just where I had marked the aerials. If, when all the reports are in, we decide to try to make a well, she will really go out of her mind.
Miss you so much I can’t believe it. I think of your hands touching; and I feel all weak and dizzy, and I forget what it is I’m supposed to be doing here. I can close my eyes and look into your eyes and see my whole life there. You can never ever love me as much as I love you. I never thought I could feel like this, not in my whole life. I never thought I could feel this kind of physical hunger for someone. Tomorrow night I will be home, darling; and we will be together, and I will be in your arms, and we will make it last and last until I go out of my mind.
That erotic strain ran through all the letters, those written before the marriage and those written afterward. It was a very strong physical infatuation. I could guess that she had been a shy person, not pretty, uncertain in any kind of sexual relationship, dedicated to her work. At twenty-nine, awakened by Evan Lawrence, she wanted to catch up on everything she had missed, and from the letters she was making a pretty good try.
But I was after hints and clues. What about the money? What kind of a man was Evan Lawrence? I came upon a comment in a June letter that puzzled me.
When we talked the other night, Evan, I guess I seemed too nervous about the arrangement. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to sound that way. It’s just that I’ve been so damned orderly all my life. Oh, I’ve taken big risks in my work, but not in my personal life. I pay every parking ticket on time. I know you are amused by that, and maybe you are a little irritated by it too. I agreed, and I’m not going to back out. The only thing is, we have to turn it around by April of next year. You say we will, so okay. And, darling, I can understand how just as a matter of personal pride, you want to make a contribution to our future. But it really doesn’t matter that much to me. I don’t think of things like that. I love you just as you are, and it would not matter to me if you had five million dollars or twentyeight cents. I trust you with my life and everything that goes with it. Now it is Cinderella time, and I am yawning, and this gasoline lantern in the van is hurting my eyes and attracting every bug in Louisiana, and tomorrow is the day when we’ll find out-not for sure but for maybe-if we want to keep this lease. If we want to keep it, we have to start making a hole in the ground by August at the latest.
I marked the passage and took it over to Meyer. He read it. carefully. “So! She filed a quarterly estimate in addition to the deductions they took from her salary at Amdex. And she would have to pay the estimate plus last year’s tax on April fifteenth. She was telling him that she had to have the deal consummated, whatever it was, and get enough money back so she wouldn’t be caught short when tax time rolled around. He had some kind of scheme and he talked her into letting him have the money quietly and secretly so he could, perhaps, double it.”
“That makes her sound like a dummy Meyer.”
“What could she say to him? ‘No, thanks. I don’t want you investing my money. I don’t trust you. You’re not smart enough, Mr. Lawrence. I earned it and it’s mine.’ Think of all the ways he could have worked on her, and then see if you really want to call her a dummy.”
I told him it was probably the wrong word to use, and I went back to my reading and rereading of that highly personal mail. I marked a few short passages and finally, when I was certain there was nothing else, I read each one aloud to Meyer.
You must have lots and lots of friends, darling. Don’t they know where you are living? It seems odd that you don’t get any mail or phone calls at all, only from my friends-or I should say our friends.
And, in another letter:
I don’t know what I did to make you so angry. I wasn’t jealous. I was just curious. I want to know what every minute of your life has been like. If you don’t want to talk about her, I’ll never bring it up again.
And finally:
I don’t care how beautiful Cuernavaca is, darling. Anywhere we can be together will be wonderful enough. I just can’t run out on Am Dexter at this point. Can’t we just begin to make plans instead of being so abrupt? In two years I could arrange to be as free as a bird. But I don’t really know how well I would adjust to being unemployed. I shouldn’t have brought this up in a letter. Don’t be angry with me.
Meyer shook his head and sighed. “So he was going to double her money and they would then live forever in Mexico in peace and luxury. And it is a fair guess he was married before.”
“Where does all this leave us?”
“Only a little better than nowhere at all. I’ve been trying to reconstruct some of the history he told us that night aboard the Flush. He worked on timesharing sales with somebody named Willy in Cancun. He has a degree in Business Administration from the University of Texas. He worked for a Mr. Guffey, a farmer living north of Harlingen, selling Japanese stone lanterns. He worked for Eagle Realty in Dallas. He worked in a rodeo for a short time. Can you remember anything else?”
“Not a thing.”
“Where do you think we should start?”
“You’re the academic type, Meyer. So you go to Austin, and I’ll go to Dallas.”
Ten
ON MONDAY afternoon in Dallas, I found Eagle Realty with a certain amount of difficulty because it had no sign. They had just moved into larger quarters, into a new building, and the sign hadn’t arrived yet.