The walls were lumpy where they’d been painted over without being scraped first. If you dug at the walls, layer after layer of different color would come up, like the strata in an archaeological dig. Each color had its own history, its own memories of pain.
It was like being in the belly of a great ship. Except instead of the roar of engines, you had the beat of nearly perfect silence. There are some places where silence hangs in heavy folds. St. Louis City Hospital was one of those places.
If I’d been superstitious, which I am not, I would have said the hospital was the perfect place for ghosts. There are different kinds of ghosts. The regular kind are spirits of the dead left behind when they should have gone to Heaven or Hell. Theologians had been arguing over what the existence of ghosts meant for God and the church for centuries. I don’t think God is particularly bothered by it, but the church is.
Enough people had died in this place to make it thick with real ghosts, but I’d never seen any personally. Until a ghost wraps its cold arms around me, I’d just as soon not believe in it.
But there is another kind of ghost. Psychic impressions, strong emotions, soak into the walls and floors of a building. It’s like an emotional tape recorder. Sometimes with video images, sometimes just sound, sometimes just a shiver down your spine when you walk over a certain spot.
The old hospital was thick with shivery places. I personally had never seen or heard anything, but walking down the hallway you knew somewhere, near at hand, there was something. Something waiting just out of sight, just out of hearing, just out of reach. Tonight it was probably a vampire.
The only sounds were the scrape of feet, the brush of cloth, us moving. There was no other sound. When it’s really quiet you start hearing things even if it’s just the buzz of your own blood pounding in your ears.
The first corner loomed before me. I was point. I’d volunteered to be point. I had to go around the corner first. Whatever lay around the bend, it was mine. I hate it when I play hero.
I went down on one knee, gun held in both hands, pointing up. It didn’t do any good to stick my gun around the corner first. I couldn’t shoot what I couldn’t see. There are a variety of ways to go around blind corners, none of them foolproof. It mostly matters whether you’re more afraid of getting shot or getting grabbed. Since this was a vampire I was more worried about being grabbed and having my throat ripped out.
I pressed my right shoulder against the wall, took a deep breath, and threw myself forward. I didn’t do a neat shoulder roll into the hallway. I just sort of fell on my left side with the gun held two-handed out in front of me. Trust me, this is the fastest way to be able to aim around a corner. I wouldn’t necessarily advise it if the monsters were shooting back.
I lay in the hallway, heart pounding in my ears. The good news was there was no vampire. The bad news was that there was a body.
I came up to one knee, still searching the shadowed hallway for hints of movement. Sometimes with a vampire you don’t see anything, you don’t even hear it, you feel it in your shoulders and back, the fine hairs on the back of your neck. Your body responds to rhythms older than thought. In fact, thinking instead of doing can get you dead.
“It’s clear,” I said. I was still kneeling in the middle of the hallway, gun out, ready for bear.
“You through rolling around on the floor?” Dolph asked.
I glanced at him, then back to the hallway. There was nothing there. It was all right. Really.
The body was wearing a pale blue uniform. A gold and black patch on the sleeve said “Security.” The man’s hair was white. Heavy jowls, a thick nose, his eyelashes like grey lace against his pale cheeks. His throat was just so much raw meat. The spine glistened wetly in the overhead lights. Blood splashed the green walls like a macabre Christmas card.
There was a gun in the man’s right hand. I put my back to the left-hand wall and watched the corridor to either side until the corners cut my view. Let the police investigate the body. My job tonight was to keep us alive.
Dolph crouched beside the body. He leaned forward, doing a sort of push-up to bring his face close to the gun. “It’s been fired.”
“I don’t smell any powder near the body,” I said. I didn’t look at Dolph when I said it. I was too busy watching the corridor for movement.
“The gun’s been fired,” he said. His voice sounded rough, clogged.
I glanced down at him. His shoulders were stiff, his body rigid with some kind of pain.
“You know him, don’t you?” I said.
Dolph nodded. “Jimmy Dugan. He was my partner for a few months when I was younger than you are. He retired and couldn’t make it on the pension, so he got a job here.” Dolph shook his head. “Shit.”
What could I say? “I’m sorry” didn’t cut it. “I’m sorry as hell” was a little better but it still wasn’t enough. Nothing I could think of to say was adequate. Nothing I could do would make it better. So I stood there in the blood-spattered hall and did nothing, said nothing.
Zerbrowski knelt beside Dolph. He put a hand on his arm. Dolph looked up. There was a flash of some strong emotion in his eyes; anger, pain, sadness. All the above, none of the above. I stared down at the dead man, gun still clasped tight in his hand, and thought of something useful to say.
“Do they give the guards here silver bullets?”
Dolph glanced up at me. No guessing this time; it was anger. “Why?”
“The guards should have silver bullets. One of you take it, and we’ll have two guns with silver bullets.”
Dolph just stared at the gun. “Zerbrowski.”
Zerbrowski took the gun gently, as if afraid of waking the man. But this vampire victim wasn’t going to rise. His head lolled to one side, muscles and tendons snapped. It looked like somebody had scooped out the meat and skin around his spine with a big spoon.
Zerbrowski checked the cylinder. “Silver.” He rolled the cylinder into the revolver and stood up, gun in his right hand. The shotgun he held loosely in his left hand.
“Extra ammo?” I asked.
Zerbrowski started to kneel back down, but Dolph shook his head. He searched the dead man. His hands were candy-coated in blood when he was done. He tried to wipe the drying blood onto a white handkerchief but the blood stained the lines in his hands, gathered around his fingernails. Only soap and scrubbing would get it off.
He said, softly, “Sorry, Jimmy.” He still didn’t cry. I would have cried. But then, women have more chemicals in their tear ducts. It makes us tear up easier than men. Honest.
“No extra ammo. Guess Jimmy thought five’d be enough for some dumb-ass security job.” His voice was warm with anger. Anger was better than crying. If you can manage it.
I kept checking the corridor, but my eyes kept going to the dead man. He was dead because I hadn’t done my job. If I hadn’t told the ambulance drivers that the body was safe, they’d have put him in the vault, and Jimmy Dugan wouldn’t have died.
I hate it when things are my fault.
“Go,” Dolph said.
I took the lead. There was another corner. I did my little kneel-and-roll routine again. I lay half on my side, gun pointed two-handed down the hallway. Nothing moved in the long, green hallway. There was something lying in the floor. I saw the lower part of the guard first. Legs in pale blue, blood drenched pants. A head with a long brown ponytail lay to one side of the body like a forgotten lump of meat.
I got to my feet, gun still hovering, looking for something to aim at. Nothing moved except the blood that was still dripping down the walls. The blood dripped slowly like rain at the end of the day, thickening, congealing as it moved.
“‘Jesus!” I wasn’t sure which uniform said it, but I agreed.
The upper body had been ripped apart as if the vampire had plunged both hands into her chest and pulled. Her spine had shattered like Tinkertoys. Gobbets of flesh, blood, and bone sprinkled the hallway like gruesome flower petals.