He smiled. “Thanks… for everything.” He stared at me, our faces inches apart. A trickle of sweat oozed down his face in the cold October night.
“You got a coat?”
“In my car.”
“Get it and put it on. You’ll catch your death sweating in this cold.”
His smile flashed into a grin. “Anything you say, boss.”‘ His eyes were bigger than they should have been, a lot of white showing. “You pulled me back from the edge. I won’t forget.”
“Gratitude is great, kid, but go get your coat. You can’t work if you’re home sick with the flu.”
Larry nodded and started slowly towards the cars. He was still unsteady, but he was moving. The flow of blood had almost stopped on my wrist. I wondered if I had a Band-Aid in my car big enough to cover it. I shrugged and started to follow Larry towards the cars. The lawyers’ deep, courtroom voices filled the October dark. Words echoing against the trees. Who the hell were they trying to impress? The corpse didn’t care.
Chapter 20
Larry and I sat on the cool autumn grass watching the lawyers draw up the will. “They’re so serious,” he said.
“It’s their job to be serious,” I said.
“Being a lawyer means you can’t have a sense of humor?”
“Absolutely,” I said.
He grinned. His short, curly hair was a red so bright, it was nearly orange. His eyes were blue and soft as a spring sky. I’d seen both hair and eyes in the dome light from our cars. Back in the dark he looked grey-eyed and brown-haired. I’d hate to have to give a witness description of someone I only saw in the dark.
Larry Kirkland had that milk-pale complexion of some redheads. A thick sprinkling of golden freckles completed the look. He looked like an overgrown Howdy Doody puppet. I mean that in a cute way. Being short, really short for a man, I was sure he wouldn’t like being called cute. It was one of my least favorite endearments. I think if all short people could vote, the word “cute” would be stricken from the English language. I know it would get my vote.
“How long have you been an animator?” I asked.
He glanced at the luminous dial of his watch. “About eight hours.”
I stared at him. “This is your first job, anywhere?”
He nodded. “Didn’t Mr. Vaughn tell you about me?”
“Bert just said he’d hired another animator named Lawrence Kirkland.”
“I’m in my senior year at Washington University, and this is my semester of job co-op.”
“How old are you?”
“Twenty; why?”
“You’re not even legal,” I said.
“So I can’t drink or go in porno theaters. No big loss, unless the job takes us to places like that.” He looked at me and leaned in. “Does the job take us to porno theaters?” His face was neutrally pleasant, and I couldn’t tell if he was teasing or not. I gambled that he was kidding.
“Twenty is fine.” I shook my head.
“You don’t look like twenty’s fine,” he said.
“It’s not your age that bothers me,” I said.
“But something bothers you.”
I wasn’t sure how to put it into words, but there was something pleasant and humorous in his face. It was a face that laughed more often than it cried. He looked bright and clean as a new penny, and I didn’t want that to change. I didn’t want to be the one who forced him to get down in the dirt and roll.
“Have you ever lost someone close to you? Family, I mean?”
The humor slipped away from his face. He looked like a solemn little boy. “You’re serious.”
“Deadly,” I said.
He shook his head. “I don’t understand.”
“Just answer the question. Have you ever lost someone close to you?”
He shook his head. “I’ve even got all my grandparents.”
“Have you ever seen violence up close and personal?”
“I got into fights in high school.”
“Why?”
He grinned. “They thought short meant weak.”
I had to smile. “And you showed them different.”
“Hell, no; they beat the crap out of me for four years.” He smiled.
“You ever win a fight?”
“Sometimes,” he said.
“But the winning’s not the important part,” I said.
He looked very steadily at me, eyes serious. “No, it’s not.”
There was a moment of nearly perfect understanding between us. A shared history of being the smallest kid in class. Years of being the last picked for sports. Being the automatic victim for bullies. Being short can make you mean. I was sure that we understood each other but, being female, I had to verbalize it. Men do a lot of this mind-reading shit, but sometimes you’re wrong. I needed to know.
“The important part is taking the beating and not giving up,” I said.
He nodded. “Takes a beating and keeps on ticking.”
Now that I’d spoiled our first moment of perfect understanding by making us both verbalize, I was happy. “Other than school fights, you’ve never seen violence?”
“I go to rock concerts.”
I shook my head. “Not the same.”
“You got a point to make?” he asked.
“You should never have tried to raise a third zombie.”
“I did it, didn’t I?” He sounded defensive, but I pressed on. When I have a point to make, I may not be graceful, but I’m relentless.
“You raised and lost control of it. If I hadn’t come along, the zombie would have broken free and hurt someone.”
“It’s just a zombie. They don’t attack people.”
I stared at him, trying to see if he was kidding. He wasn’t. Shit. “You really don’t know, do you?”
“Know what?”
I covered my face with my hands and counted to ten, slowly. It wasn’t Larry I was mad at, it was Bert, but Larry was so convenient for yelling. I’d have to wait until tomorrow to yell at Bert, but Larry was right here. How lucky.
“The zombie had broken free of your control, Larry. If I hadn’t come along and fed it blood, it would have found blood on its own. Do you understand?”
“I don’t think so.”
I sighed. “The zombie would have attacked someone. Taken a bite out of someone.”
“Zombies attacking humans is just superstition, ghost stories.”
“Is that what they’re teaching in college now?” I asked.
“Yes.”
“I’ll loan you some back copies of The Animator. Trust me, Larry, zombies do attack people. I’ve seen people killed by them.”
“You’re just trying to scare me,” he said.
“Scared would be better than stupid.”
“I raised it. What do you want from me?” He looked completely baffled.
“I want you to understand what nearly happened here tonight. I want you to understand that what we do isn’t a game. It’s not parlor tricks. It’s real, and it can be dangerous.”
“All right,” he said. He’d given in too easily. He didn’t really believe. He was humoring me. But there are some things you can’t tell someone. He, or she, has to learn some things in person. I wished I could wrap Larry up in cellophane and keep him on a shelf, all safe and secure and untouched, but life didn’t work that way. If he stayed in this business long enough, the new would wear off. But you can’t tell someone who’s reached twenty and never been touched by death. They don’t believe in the boogeyman.
At twenty I’d believed in everything. I suddenly felt old.
Larry pulled a pack of cigarettes out of his coat pocket.
“Please tell me you don’t smoke,” I said.
He looked up at me, eyes sort of wide and startled. “You don’t smoke?”
“No.”
“You don’t like people to smoke around you?” He made it a question.
“No,” I said.
“Look, I feel pretty awful right now. I need the cigarette, okay?”
“Need it?”
“Yeah, need it.” He had one slender white cigarette between two fingers of his right hand. The pack had disappeared back into his pocket. A disposable lighter had appeared. He looked at me very steadily. His hands were shaking just a bit.