Blake glanced at Keira. She was not looking at him, would not look at him.
"Jacob's beautiful, really," she continued. "The way he moves-catlike, smooth, graceful, very fast. And he's as bright as or brighter than any other kid his age. He's-"
"Not human," Blake said flatly. "Jesus, what are they breeding back there?"
The girls looked at each other again, shifted uncomfortably, sharing some understanding that excluded him. Now neither would face him. Suddenly he wanted to be excluded. He drove on in silence, suspicion growing in his mind. He concentrated on putting distance between himself and those who would certainly follow-though he could not help wondering whether what followed was really worse than what they carried with them.
PART 2: P.O.W. PAST 11
Within a day of Christian's collapse, Eli had seven irrational people huddling around him. They had no idea what was happening to them, but they knew they were in trouble. They were cftmbative, fearful, confused, lustful, driven, guilt- ridden, and utterly miserable.
They huddled together, not knowing what to do. They were fearful of going near outsiders with their painfully enhanced senses and their odd compulsions, but Eli was one of them. More, he was complete. He smelled right to them. And he could see their needs clearer than they could. He could respond to them as they required, offering comfort, sternness, advice, brute strength, whatever was necessary from moment to moment.
He found comfort in shepherding them. It was as though in a very real way, he was making them his family-a family with ugly problems.
Meda found both her brothers and her father after her, and she, like them, was alternately lustful and horrified. Her father suffered more than the others. He felt he had gone from patriarch and man of God to criminally depraved pervert
unable to keep his hands off his own daughter. Nor could he accept these feelings as his own. They must be signs of
either demonic possession or God's punishment for some terrible sin. He and his sons were badly frightened.
His wife and daughters-in-law were terrified. Not only were they unable to understand the behavior of their men, but they were confused and embarrassed by their own enhanced sensory awareness. They could smell the men and each other as they never had before. They kept trying to wash away normal scents that would not vanish. They spoke more softly as they realized the substantial walls no longer stopped sound as well as they had. They discovered they were able to see in the dark-whether they wanted to or not. Touching, even accidentally, became a startlingly intense sensual experience. The women ceased to touch each other. They also ceased to touch the men except for their own husbands. And Eli.
They all developed huge appetites as their bodies changed. Worse, they developed unusual tastes, and this frightened them.
"I'm so hungry," Gwyn told Eli on the day her symptoms became undeniable. She gestured toward a pair of chickens- part of the Boyd flock of thousands. This pair were scratching and pecking at the sand in the shade of the well tank.
"Suddenly, those things smell good to me," she said. "Can you believe that? They smell edible."
"They are," Eli said softly. It had been necessary for him to supplement his diet with one or two of them or with several eggs every night when the family was asleep.
"But how could they smell good raw?" Gwyn said. "And alive?"
Living prey smelled wonderful, Eli knew. But Gwyn was not ready to face that yet. "Go raid the refrigerator," he told her. "Maybe Junior is hungry."
She looked down at her pregnant belly and tried to smile, but she was clearly frightened.
He did what he would never have done before this day. He took her arm and led her back to the house to the kitchen. There he saw to it that she ate. She seemed to appreciate the attention.
"Something feels wrong," she said once. "Not with the baby," she added quickly when Eli looked alarmed. "I don't know. The food tastes too sweet or too salty or too spicy or too something. It tasted okay yesterday, but now . . . When
I started to eat, I thought I was going to be sick. But that's not right either. It's not really nauseating. It's just ... I don't know."
"Bad?" he asked, knowing the answer.
"Not really. Just different." She shook her head, picked up a piece of cold fried chicken. "This is okay, but I'm not sure the ones running around outside wouldn't be better."
Eli said nothing. Since his return to Earth, he knew he preferred his food raw and unseasoned. It tasted better. Yet he would go on eating cooked food. It was a human thing that he clung to. His changed body seemed able to digest almost anything. It tempted him by making nonhuman behavior pleasurable, but most of the time, it let him decide, let him choose to cling to as much of his humanity as he could.
Though certain drives at certain times inevitably went out of control.
Meda brought him her symptoms and her suspicions not long after he left Gwyn.
"This is your doing," she said. "Everybody's crazy except you. You've done something to us."
"Yes," he admitted, breathing in the scent of her. She had some idea now what she was doing to him just by coming near.
"What have you done?" she demanded. "What do you feel?" he asked, facing her.
She blinked, turned away frightened. "What have you done?" she repeated.
"It's a disease." He took a deep breath. He had never imagined that telling her would be easy. He had already decided to be as straightforward as possible. "It's an extraterrestrial disease. It will change you, but no more than I'm changed."
"A disease?" She frowned. "You came back sick and gave us a disease? Did you know you had it?" "Yes."
"And you knew we could catch it?"
He nodded.
"Then you gave it to us deliberately!" "No, not deliberately."
"But if you knew . . ."
"Meda . . ." He wanted to touch her, take her by the shoulders and reassure her. But if he began to touch her, he would not be able to stop. "Meda, you'll be all right. I'll take care of you. I stayed to take care of you."
"You came here to give us a disease!"
"No!" He turned his head toward the well tank. "No, I came ... to get water and food." "But you-"
"I couldn't die. I wanted to, but I couldn't. I can go out of my mind; I can become an animal; but I can't kill myself." "What about the others, the crew?"
"All dead like I told you, like your Barstow news said. The disease took some of them-before we found out how to help them." A half-truth. A deletion. Disa and two others had died in spite of the help they got. "The others died here-with
the ship. Someone-maybe more than one-apparently managed a little sabotage. I wish they'd done it in space, or back
on Proxi Two."
"How do you know someone sabotaged the ship? Maybe it was an accident." "I don't know. I don't remember. I blacked out."
"How did you get off the ship?"
"I don't know. I have off-and-on memories of running, hiding. I know I took shelter in mountains of volcanic rock, lived in a half-collapsed lava tunnel for three days and two nights. I nearly starved to death."
"People can't starve in just three days." "We can. You and me, now."
She only stared at him.
"It was raining," he continued. "I remember we deliberately chose to land in a storm in the middle of nowhere so we could get away before anyone found out what we were. Even with speeded up reflexes, increased strength, and enhanced senses, we nearly disintegrated, then nearly crashed. We kept them from shooting us down by talking. God, we talked. The brave heros giving all the information they could before they crashed. Before they died. We could no more imagine ourselves dying than we could imagine not coming straight in to Earth. It was a magnet for us in more ways than one. All those people ... all those . . . billions of uninfected people."