It's Hell on earth for those who survive that way, used and abused and discarded the instant they lose their marketability. For those who haven't been to the underside and haven't lived with the ticks on society's underbelly, it's difficult to believe people will use each other so badly.
Believe me, there are people out there who'll destroy a hundred lives for pocket change and never know a moment's remorse. Who wouldn't, in fact, understand if you told them they'd done something wrong by addicting a twelve-year-old so she'd cooperate as a thirty-a-day flat-backer.
They understand "against the laws of Man" but not "against the law of humanity." Right is whatever you make it, for as long as you can make it last.
They're out there. And they're the real bogeymen.
And through those mean streets walks a lonely man, a solitary knight-errant, the last honorable man, bent but not broken by the lowering storm...
Boy! Pile it on like that and I might have a future as a street-corner prophet—complete with all the kicks in the teeth that implies.
People don't want to be told to do right. They don't really want to do right. They want to do whatever they want—and whine that it's not fair, it's not their fault, when it comes time to pay the piper.
There are times when I don't care much for my brothers and sisters, when I'd gladly see half of them buried alive.
I don't go into my high holy mode too often, but a trip to the Tenderloin gets me every time.
So much that goes on there is unnecessary. In many cases neither the exploiters nor the exploited need to be doing what they do to survive. TunFaire is a prosperous city. Because of the war with the Venageti and Karenta's successes in it, there's work for anyone who wants it. And honest jobs go begging until nonhuman migrants come to the city to fill them.
A century ago nonhumans were curiosities, seldom seen, more the stuff of legend than real. Now they make up half the population and the bloods are becoming inextricably mixed. For real excitement wait until the war is over and the armies disband and all the war-related jobs dry up.
I'll step down off my box with the observation that, hell though the Tenderloin is, and as vile, vicious, or degraded as its habitues may be, most have some choice about being there.
"Garrett."
I think I jumped about four feet high because my sense of survival had gone into hibernation. I came down so ready for trouble I had the shakes. "Maya! What the hell are you doing here?"
"Waiting for you. I figured you'd come this way."
Was the little witch turning into a mind reader? "You didn't say why." I knew why, though.
"We're partners, remember? We're looking for somebody. And there's some places a man isn't going to get into no matter what he tries."
"You get hiking right back home. I'm going into the Tenderloin. That's no place for—"
"Garrett, shut your mouth and look at me. Am I nine years old and fresh out of a convent?''
She was right. But that didn't make me like it, or incline me to change my mind. It's weird how the symptoms of fatherhood had set in. But damn it, Maya out of her sleaze ball duds and chuko colors wasn't anybody's little girl. She was a woman and it was obvious.
And that was maybe two-thirds of my problem. "All right. You want to stick your neck out, come on."
She joined me, wearing a smug smile filled with good teeth.
I said, "You snuck up on me, you know. You grew up. I can't help remembering the filthy brat I found beat to hell all those years ago."
She grinned and slipped her arm through mine. "I didn't sneak, Garrett. I took my time and did it right. I knew you'd wait for me."
Whoa! Who was talking shit to who here?
Maya laughed. "If we're going to do it, let's go."
37
To understand the Tenderloin—to even picture it if you've never been there—you have to get in touch with the seamiest side of yourself. Pick a fantasy, one you wouldn't tell anyone about. One that makes you uncomfortable or embarrassed when you think about it. In the Tenderloin there's somebody who'll do it with you, for you, or to you, or somebody who'll let you watch if that's your need.
Let your imagination run away. You can't think of anything somebody hasn't thought and done already. Hell, somebody's thought of something even more disgusting. And it's all available there in Wonderland. And not just sex, though that's the first thing that jumps to mind.
At that time of day, late afternoon, most of the Tenderloin was just waking up. The district worked around the clock, but the majority of its patrons were like insects who shun the light. The district wouldn't get white-hot until after sunset.
I asked Maya, "You been down here before?"
"Never with a gentleman." She laughed.
I tried to scowl but her constant good humor was catching. I smiled.
"Sure," she said. "One of our favorite games. Come down here and watch the freaks. Maybe roll a drunk or kick the shit out of a pimp. We got up to lots of stuff. Most of the people who come here don't dare complain."
"You know how dangerous that is?" The people of the Tenderloin are solicitous of their customers.
She gave me the look the young save for old farts who say dumb things. "What did we have to lose?"
Only their lives. But kids are immortal and invulnerable. Just ask them.
It wasn't yet dark but we had plenty of company on the outer fringe, where the offerings are relatively tame. Gentlemen were window shopping, barkers were barking, my angels were lurking, and a dozen prepubescent boys were trying to mooch copper. When I turned one down he took a big pinch of Maya's bottom and ran off. I roared in outrage, as I was suppose to do, and took a step after the brat, then the humor hit me. "You're on the other side now, sweetheart. You're one of the grown-ups."
"It hurts, Garrett."
I laughed.
"You bastard! Why don't you kiss it better?"
There in the tamer parts the houses display their wares in big bay windows. I couldn't help admiring what I saw.
"You're drooling, you old goat."
I probably was but I denied it.
"What's she got that I don't?" she demanded half a minute later. And I couldn't answer that one. The delicacy in question was younger than she and no prettier, but provocative as hell.
I needed blinders. My weakness was getting me into deep shit.
"There she is."
"Huh? Who? Where?"
Maya gave me a nasty look. "What do you mean, who? Who the hell are we looking for?"
"Take it easy. Where did you see her?" Grow up a little, Garrett. You got somebody's feelings to consider.
"Right up ahead. About a block."
Her eyes were better than mine if she could pick somebody out of the crowd at that distance.
I caught a glimpse of blonde hair in a familiar style. "Come on!"
We hurried. I tried to keep that hair in sight. It vanished, reappeared, vanished, reappeared. We gained ground. The hair disappeared in the swirl near the entrance to a "theater" just opening for the first show. And it didn't reappear.
I was as sure as Maya that we'd spotted Jill.
I tried asking questions of the theater's barker. He was a lean whippet of a man, hide tanned from exposure to the weather. He didn't look like a nice guy. He looked at me and saw something he didn't like, either. The promise of five marks silver got me a look of contempt. This guy not only didn't know anything about any blonde, he'd forgotten how to talk.
Maya pulled me away before I tried to squeeze something out of him. One must be careful putting the arm on the help in the Tenderloin. They hang together like grapes, them against the world. "Next time how about I do the talking?" she said. "Even these jaded apes will listen to me."