“Pretty plane,” he said loudly as he rolled forward. He still wasn’t comfortable with the chair. It seemed to steer a little harshly and pulled to one side.
“Um, hi, Senator.”
“Fly as sweetly as they say?” asked Zen.
“It’s pretty smooth, yeah,” said Turk. “Once you’re used to it. It’s very quick. Doesn’t have the brute thrust of the F–22, but it’s fast enough. Because it’s so small and light.”
“You like lying down to fly?”
“It’s more a tilt, really,” said Turk. “Closer to the F–16 than you’d think.”
“Cockpit looks pretty tight,” said Zen. “Almost an afterthought.”
“It was, pretty much. Just there to help them test it.”
“You think you could just sit on the ground and fly it?”
“No.” Turk scowled, his brow furrowing. He was thinking about the plane, Zen realized, gathering his actual impressions. “It’s different being in the air, you know?”
Zen knew very well. “It’s not easy to explain, is it? People always asked me about flying the Flighthawks. It was… hard to tell them, actually. Because you don’t think about it when you’re doing it. You just do it.”
“Yeah.”
“And you’re not really separated from the plane. You don’t think of yourself as separated,” added Zen, correcting himself. “Because if you thought of it that way, you’d have less control.”
Turk nodded. Zen turned and looked at the aircraft. It was rounded and thin, a beauty queen or model.
“Big difference between this and the A–10,” he said.
“Oh yeah.”
“What’s that like?” asked Zen. “I never flew one.”
“Oh. Uh, well, it’s a really steady aircraft. It, um, pretty much will go exactly where you want. Very physical — compared to the Tigershark. In a way, for me, it’s kind of closer to flying the Texan.”
“The T–6 trainer? The prop plane?”
“Yeah, I know. But for me, that’s kind of the parallel.”
“I learned on a Tweet — the T–37. Great aircraft.”
They traded a few stories about flying the trainers, solid and sturdy aircraft, perfect for learning the basics of flight. The planes were more forgiving than the flight instructors.
“There’s nothing like feeling the plane move where you want it to move,” said Zen finally. “Truth is, I could never look at a Flighthawk without feeling just a little bit of anger.”
“Because of the accident?”
“Yeah.”
Zen wheeled toward the Tigershark. “Flying was different once I lost my legs,” he said, talking more to himself than to Turk. “At first, I did it more or less out of spite — I had to prove to the Air Force, to everyone, that I was still worth something. They didn’t want me to come back. But they couldn’t exactly bar me. They could keep me out of a cockpit, obviously, because I couldn’t fly an F–15 or an F–22, or any real fighter. But the Flighthawks were different. My hands were still good. And my reflexes.”
“It must have been tough,” said Turk.
Zen slid his chair back to look at Turk. “Truth is, I was really, really angry. That helped. It gave me something to overcome. I like a fight.” He laughed gently, making fun of himself, though he wasn’t sure Turk would realize that. “How about you?”
“Like to fight? Well, I shot down those airplanes.”
“Not that kind of fighting.”
Turk pressed his lips together. He knew what Zen meant — dealing with the bureaucracy, with your superiors when they were being unfair or stubborn or both.
“Whatever you say is between you and me.” Zen nudged his wheelchair a little closer. “Doesn’t go out of this hangar. Nothing to your superiors.”
“You’re investigating the Sabres—”
“But not what happened with Shooter Squadron. What did happen?”
“I didn’t see anything on the hill,” said Turk. The words started slowly, then picked up speed. “I came across the ridge, checking. I had a good view of the kids there—”
“Kids?” asked Zen.
“They were definitely kids. There were all sorts of references on the ground. I could tell they were short — there was a bush, some vegetation. They were definitely kids.”
“You were moving at a hundred and fifty knots?”
“A little slower.”
“But you know what you saw.”
“It’s burned in my brain. If it was the Tigershark…”
Turk’s voice trailed off, but Zen knew what he was thinking: the Tigershark’s sensors were far wider than the A–10E’s, and would have captured a full 360 degrees. The computer would have examined the figures for weapons. There’d be no doubt.
Something else was bothering Turk. Zen didn’t know him very well, but he knew pilots, and he knew test pilots especially.
They were always sure of themselves. Granted, Turk was still pretty young. And back-to-back incidents like the ones Turk had been involved in had a way of shaking even the steadiest personality. But Turk was pretty damn positive about what he had seen.
So what else was troubling him?
Turk looked at the expression on the older man’s face. He was serious, contemplative, maybe playing the engagement over in his mind. The recorded images from the A–10 had been inconclusive. That didn’t help Turk.
Still, he knew what he had seen.
Didn’t he? He couldn’t repicture it in his mind now. With all this talk… maybe they were right.
No. No, it was just Ginella undermining him, trying to get him back.
Or had he really missed it? Had his eyes and mind played tricks?
“You think they’re right?” Turk asked Zen. “You think I chickened out?”
“Chickened out? Who said that?”
“It’s implied. Like I was too scared to fire at enemy soldiers because of everything else that had happened.”
“I don’t think that would be a fair assessment, do you?”
“It’d be bull.”
Zen studied him. “What did Colonel Ernesto say?” he asked.
Turk frowned. “She…” He shrugged.
“She what?”
Turk shook his head.
“What’s the personal thing going on here, Turk?” asked Zen sharply.
“What do you mean?”
“What is it with you and Ginella? One day she’s singing your praises, now she’s tossing you under the bus. What did you do to her?”
Zen couldn’t have surprised him more if he’d risen from the wheelchair and begun to walk on his own.
“What do you mean?” asked Turk.
“It’s written all over your face. There’s something personal here. What exactly is going on?”
“It’s nothing bad.”
“Whole story.” Zen had the tone of a father interrogating a child sent home from school by the principal. “Now.”
Reluctantly, Turk told Zen everything that had happened between him and Ginella, including her reaction to Li.
“There was never a quid pro quo, or anything like that,” he added. “But it was, uh, awkward.”
“Is that what’s really bothering you?”
“I did not see a missile on that hill. She can say anything she wants, but I didn’t see it. And I wasn’t affected by the Sabres. I mean, it was bad and everything — it’s terrible, but that wasn’t my fault either.”
If Turk had been a woman, the affair would clearly be a problem for Ginella. A commanding officer couldn’t have an affair with a subordinate, even one temporarily assigned.
But the role reversal blurred everything. Maybe it shouldn’t — from a purely theoretical sense, a colonel was a colonel, and a captain was a captain. But in real life, old prejudices died hard. A man simply wasn’t viewed as a victim of sexual harassment, no matter what the circumstances.