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That will not let you see yourself. Keep your body for someone else: The lies that hide you are less sure Than the truth that blinds me.

GHOSTS: WHAT JASON SAID TO MEDEA

It is time to part, before murder is done. We have robbed each other of all we had, Eaten bitter herbs of battleground and kitchen And soaked our souls in them, Digested the gall of trust so cannot give it back In that pure state it was before: Consumed ourselves by ignoble hatred. So let us part like ghosts And promise not to haunt each other – Or make ghosts of others.

HUNGER

I haven’t found my hunger yet. When will I know The hunger to eat these walls away? The smallest creature visible to the eye Ran the pallid whiteness up this page And when I crushed it, hungry at its freedom, I found a tiny spider made of brick. It had lived on brick, the bright red dust of brick That filled its dust-dot of a body and even the speck Of legs it ran upon. Its life was fed by dust, The dust of bricks, and it had slaked its hunger On bricks, no question asked or thought of, Eating through walls was its life, its vital hunger For the walls it ate through, even at times Without hunger. It was so realized I crushed it, a reddish smear On the page to remind me Of the hunger that I know about at last.

HEPHZIBAH

Why don’t I write or speak the name? No light at Hephzibah’s window, So do not use ‘love’ in vain Nor easily at this turn of the game. Her name ignites the wind, breeds Smoke in the snow of the heart Gluttons the marrow as I watch The bombed space Phosphorized to blindness. You cannot answer letters or my speeches, A different man when salt burns Till there is no more light. Signals change before the gale Wipes all traffic out. Cogs and linchpins tattoo Hephzibah So I can’t forget your name, or use it, But continually hear magic syllables Shriller than my curse As I speed through White headlights flooding the world.

FULL MOON’S TONGUE

She said, when the full moon’s tongue hung Over Earls Court chimneypots, And he circled slowly Round the square to find A suitable parking place – She said: ‘Let’s go away together.’
‘Keep clear,’ he said. ‘You’d better not. I’ll take you, but watch out, For I will bring you back If at all, In two pieces.’
She said: ‘I’ll never want to come back If I go away with you.’
‘They all do,’ he said. ‘I’ll bring you back in two pieces And you’ll live like that forever And never join them up again.’ ‘How cruel,’ she said, seeing what he meant.
‘Oh no,’ he said. ‘To take you apart completely From yourself and make two separate pieces Might be the one sure way of fixing A whole person out of you – Some do, some don’t.’ He was exceptionally nonchalant. ‘I’m not sure now,’ she said, Screaming suddenly: ‘You bastard! Let me get out, I want to walk.’
He stopped the car But could not park it, Someone with a similar problem Was hooting him to move, So she jumped free and walked away Leaving him bewildered, And in at least two pieces.
You talk too much, Said one piece to another.

SILENCE AND STILLNESS

Silence and stillness Are most prized in a whirlwind. Panic is being caught Between millstones of stillness – Feel the bones of the body Living out the heart’s pain.
The whirlwind will penetrate The stockade of a gaze erected That nothing can break through, While waiting for the force That will pull you into the body And draw all pain away.
A lawn grows in the palm of one hand: Trees in the other combust To chase worms out. Nothing can soothe the battered soul, But love cauterizes madness.

SMILE

Can’t get him out – Sits right in the fireplace Curled up tight Olive logs send red flames Feeling the chimney spout.
Cold and safe, legs indrawn, Wan smile, squats in his fireplace, Irons cold, hair neat Away and safe unless A crowbar can prise him whimpering free. He smiles wanly because no one has.
If and when he would be normal, A dead man on the street, smiles In a mirror no one can smash: A moonless grimace of victory, Insane as the sun That cleanses better than any fire Or his prison it once burned in.

CHAIN

The chain is weakest at its strongest point: The strong link by its heart helps weaker parts, And so weak links grow tauter than they should.
Thus, taking too much strength The whole chain crumbles Broken at both weak and stronger points.
Water breaks the strongest chain When a stormtide drags the ship away. Power changes all equations –
The strongest link a strand of hair, And weakest at its strongest point Shares its heart with weaker hearts.

GULF OF BOTHNIA — ON THE WAY TO RUSSIA

Midnight aches at the length of life The endless day Blocking the porthole-elbow of Bothnia: One grand eye lit in twelve o’clock yellow, Turquoise and carmine sun A wound gouged by the night-dragon Not yet asleep.
Day bleeds to death Sea close enough to dip The pen and write in. No midsummer howitzer can give A morphine blast and send the sun To whatever will rise up at dawn for me.