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ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
To Aldous Huxley and Chatto & Windus for lines, used on page 52, from "To Lesbia" published in Collected Poems.
To A. E. Houseman and the Society of Authors for lines, used on page 165, from "Epitaph on an Army of Mercenaries".
To Michael Alexander and penguin Books for lines, used on page 181, published in The Earliest English Poems.
COLONEL BUTLER'S WOLF
by ANTHONY PRICE
The Master's Lodging,
The King's College,
Oxford.
My dear Freisler,
I know you will remember our conversation in the Fellows' Garden during last summer's Rhodes House conference.
At that time you ridiculed my fears as the nightmares of a suspicious old man. Nevertheless you agreed to pass on my message to those whose duty it is to investigate nightmares, and I have reason to believe that they did not reject it.
In that belief I have held my hand (if not my tongue) during these last months. But now something has occurred which makes further action imperative.
I have heard this day of the death of one of my former students...
BUTLER LISTENED TO the sound of the nurse's quick step recede down the corridor until it was lost in the nursing home's silence, an expensive silence as far removed from the National Health Service as a dummy2.htm
Rolls-Royce was from a five-ton lorry.
For a moment he stood looking at himself in the mirror on the back of the door. Presumably its function was to enable Matron to check her uniform and her expression before leaving her office to patrol her kingdom; old RSM Hooker had had just such a mirror on his office door in the regimental depot. Likely it was still there, even though Hooker was bones on the Imjin. Some things didn't change.
But others did, like the reflection before him. It wasn't the hard face and the clashing reds of skin and hair which bothered him. They were only a little more out of place over a civilian suit than they had been over a uniform. He had always looked a bit like a prizefighter; now he looked like a retired prizefighter. But where had that air of defeat come from?
He sighed and turned away. Possibly it came from too many errands like this one, small and nasty errands that he scorned to escape. And which were being given him more and more often, he suspected.
It had even been an errand very much like this one which had started Hugh Roskill on his way to this place.
The thought of Hugh directed his eye to the steel filing cabinets beside the window. Hugh's case history and progress report would be in there and it would take him ten seconds to pick the silly lock and see for himself how far Hugh was swinging the lead.
He scowled with disgust: so far down the slope he had come that the exercise of his petty thief's skills was almost instinctive even when unnecessary. This was all mere routine and Hugh had undoubtedly been telling the simple truth—it wasn't the sort of thing a man would lie about, even one who enjoyed being fussed over by pretty nurses drawing twice the pay of their overworked sisters in the public service.
Again he halted his line of thought angrily as he recognised it for what it was: a half-baked, unsubstantiated, left-wing line. He hadn't the least idea what nurses in exclusive nursing homes earned, and the nurses he had seen so far had been if anything less attractive than those who had looked after Diana in the cottage hospital at home.
His glance softened as it settled on the three little girls playing on the gravel parking lot outside the window. It wasn't often that he could combine business with pleasure, but bringing them had been a minor stroke of genius. It had won him a rare extra afternoon with them, and their pleasure in the adventure had been, as complete as Hugh's in their goggle-eyed hero-worship. There was even a chance that Hugh would never realise the real reason for their presence.
Yet there had been a cloud for Butler in that meeting which he recognised as a just reward for his duplicity. Inexorably, remorselessly, they were growing up. Today they were delightful kittens, and tomorrow and for a year or two to come. But their little claws would grow and their furry coats would become sleek, and they would be tigresses in the end. One day he would find their mother in them.
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As he felt the knot tighten in his gut he heard the distinctive click-tap quick step—the hospital step—
rapping towards him down the passage. With relief he shut his daughters and his late wife out of his mind and turned back towards the door.
"Major Butler—I'm sorry to have kept you waiting. Do sit down." Matron's voice was as crisp as her step. "You have an inquiry about Squadron Leader Roskill, I believe?"
There was the merest suggestion, a primness about the inflexion of the question, that Matron wasn't certain he had any right to pry into the exact condition of Roskill's thigh bone. As if to emphasise her doubt she allowed the palm of her right hand to rest flat on the folder she had taken from the cabinet and placed on the desk in front of her.
"Squadron Leader Roskill is a colleague of mine at the Ministry of Defense, Matron." Butler allowed his official tone to trickle into the words gradually. "We are a little short-handed at the moment. We'd like to know when we can expect to have him back with us."
"I see."
Butler met her gaze with obstinate innocence. In an establishment like this it was reasonable that the fees purchased a measure of loyalty as well as treatment, apart from the simple mathematical fact that the longer Hugh stayed, the louder the final ring on the cash register would be.
"Well..." the hand resting on the file relaxed a fraction "... you must understand that the original injury sustained by Squadron Leader Roskill was a serious one, Major. There was considerable damage to the bone. Whatever is done, there is bound to be a limp. What we are doing is attempting to minimise it."
Are doing. That meant that the sawbones was still at work and Hugh wasn't going back on to the active list for some time yet.
Butler nodded sympathetically, wondering as he did so just how much Matron knew or guessed about the nature of that original injury. Probably not too much, since Hugh had been taken to one of the Ministry's own nursing homes in the first place, and they would have passed on only the information they couldn't possibly conceal.
The hand opened the file at last.
"Now—let me see—" she began.
"When I'm grown up I think I'll marry Uncle Hugh."
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Sally's childish treble came through the open quarter-window with startling clarity. The three children had moved gradually across the gravel until they were playing directly beneath the office.
Matron swung round in her chair with a rustle of starched uniform to examine the source of the interruption.
"Don't be silly. You're far too little for him."
Diana's emphasis indicated that she was also in the running for Roskill's hand, and as the eldest of the three had a much better chance of reaching the winning post first.
Matron turned back towards Butler. "Your daughters, I believe, Major?"
"I'm sorry, Matron. I'll send them back to the car at once—"
"There's no need for that." She smiled at him. "They won't bother anyone here."
"Well, you'd both better wait until he gets better from his accident. He might only have one leg."
As always, Jane represented reason and calculation. At nine she was already estimating the odds with a coldness that sometimes worried Butler.
"They are delightful, Major—quite delightful."
"He didn't have an accident, stupid— he was shot."