Runyan strained to look down at her, giving himself a momentary double chin. “But now you feel that you and I are better than that?” She nodded. He said, “Yeah, I like that, too.”
Louise shifted around again, so she was lying beside him with her head cushioned on his shoulder. They stared solemnly at the ceiling, neither speaking for a long time.
“Just OUT isn’t enough, is it?” Louise finally said.
“Not for me, not any more.” After a long moment, he said, “There should be a ceiling fan up there, and this should be Singapore, or Tahiti, or Hong Kong. I keep feeling I want to do something — go mountain climbing around the world like that guy at Yosemite—”
“Giovanni.”
“Yeah, him. Maybe a wilderness guide, or try to get a fishing boat... something that’s... my own....”
Louise nodded. Both of them were relaxed, unpressured, the tension finally gone.
“I want to keep on writing,” she said. “Keep at it until I learn how to make the words say on paper what I’m feeling inside. I keep catching myself thinking that the last five or six years never happened... or happened to someone else...”
“Seven or eight years,” said Runyan in a sleepy voice. He gave a long sigh. “Down in L.A., when I charged Brother Blood’s car, I realized you always have two ways to run. Away from...”
“Or toward?” murmured Louise.
They fell asleep that way, side-by-side on the big bed in the dim room.
It was a little before ten a.m. when Louise pulled the Tercel up in front of the regional parole office. They had already returned their rented camping gear to the mountain shop.
“I’ll check in with Sharples,” said Runyan, opening his door, “make sure he doesn’t have any excuse to call out the troops. Then we’ll settle up with those guys and be home free.”
“I’m still worried about Moyers — he’s convinced you’re going to turn the diamonds over to him eventually.”
He squeezed her hand in reassurance and got out and closed his door. Louise drove down the block to an open space in front of a stucco-fronted meeting hall which once had been a church. She turned on the radio for company while waiting.
Runyan crossed the shabby waiting room to the desk where the angry-faced secretary was opening mail. The straight-backed, government-issue chairs that lined the walls were empty except for two bulky men at opposite corners of the room, as alike as Rosencrantz and Guildenstern, each reading one of the stale magazines from the dog-eared pile on the coffee table.
“Runyan. For Sharples.”
The secretary looked up at him with almost frightened eyes. The bulky men, minus their magazines, converged on him from their opposing corners in a classic pincers movement. The closest one flashed an SFPD badge at Runyan.
“Inspectors Waterhouse and—”
“—Prince,” finished the other, then added unnecessarily, “San Francisco Pee-Dee.”
“We want to ask you a few questions,” said Waterhouse.
“Downtown,” said Prince.
“What about my rights?” asked Runyan. He fought down his panic reaction, kept his voice flat and his face unrevealing.
“We’re not charging you with anything,” said Waterhouse.
“Yet.”
“Just asking questions.”
“About Jim Cardwell’s murder.”
Runyan, shaken, demanded, “Jamie? Dead? How? When?” For years in San Quentin he had dreamed, schemed, wished for this moment; now that it had arrived, all he felt was shock, disorientation, and, strangely, a sense of loss.
“He does that good, don’t he?” said Waterhouse.
“I think it’s the way he moves his eyebrows.” He added, to Runyan, “So since you ain’t being charged with anything—”
“—Yet,” said Waterhouse.
“You ain’t got any rights.”
“Yet,” finished Waterhouse.
Louise was behind the wheel with her window rolled down, listening to the irrepressible Bruce Springsteen’s gravelly voice explore his Jersey roots, when Moyers’s hand came through the window to turn off the radio.
“Do I see diamonds in your eyes, my dear?” he said.
Louise, without even looking over at him, switched on Springsteen again. Moyers spoke over the sound of his voice.
“I ran a trace on you, lady.”
Louise just managed to keep her eyes straight front. He couldn’t have gotten past Vegas, could he? The trail had to dead-end there. Moyers reached in and shut off the radio again.
“I put a man in Vegas on you — it wasn’t too tough.” Though she still wasn’t looking at him, she could almost feel him shrug. “It’s always in the computers once you find a way in. So now I know who you really are. Where you went when you left Vegas. Why you’re here.”
Louise blurted out, “There aren’t any...” but caught herself before the word “diamonds.”
She sat motionless until she was in control again, then turned and looked at him. He was dressed in a brown suit with a blue shirt, a color combination she despised, one elbow on the frame of the open window.
“There aren’t any reasons for you to tell him what you found out.” Her voice was even. “I’m not in your way.”
“Sheer enjoyment?” He said it as if he really was wondering; then he smiled unpleasantly. “You have to disappear, right now, totally. Right out of Runyan’s life. I need him with nobody to lean on except me.”
Louise thought she finally understood. Runyan had wanted Moyers in Yosemite so he would have to back up their contention that they’d actually been there the whole time. Moyers was just turning it around. Get her out of the picture, and only his word stood between Runyan and a return to prison.
“No,” she said flatly. “I can’t do that.”
“I talk to him, you’re not even a memory,” said Moyers in an almost reasonable voice. “Whatever you want — him, the diamonds, peace in the world — you aren’t going to get it anyway. Forget that. But go now, you walk away clean.” He leaned closer; his face and voice were suddenly ugly. “Make me take him down, and I’ll take you down with him. Accessory after the fact of murder for a start, then—”
“But he didn’t kill anyone and I didn’t—”
“Doesn’t matter. It’s what I can make the cops and the courts believe. And I can make them believe damned near anything I want. I’ve had a lot of practice, over the years.”
She said quickly, desperately, “We could work together. I wouldn’t keep you from recovering the diamonds. He’ll... do anything I say...”
“Right now. Permanently.”
She turned the full force of her emerald eyes on him, making sure that none of her meaning was obscure.
“I’d do anything you wanted, Moyers.” She paused. “Anything.”
He sighed; his obsessed eyes passed up and down her body, deliberately stripping her. With genuine regret he said, “God, I’d love to!” He shrugged. “But I can’t take the chance. You’re too dangerous. There’s no way I could ever trust you, and I don’t want to end up stupid about you like Runyan.”
He stepped back and jerked a thumb. She wanted to fight; she wanted to keep on trying. But her will seemed numbed, paralyzed. If she could only talk with Runyan, he’d know how to...
But she couldn’t talk with Runyan about her real past, not ever. She’d lost Runyan, as of this instant, and if Moyers told him everything, even the memory of her would be destroyed for him. After Yosemite, after Los Angeles, they both deserved more of the relationship than that; but Moyers’s obsession with the diamonds went far beyond his lust for her, so she could never get to him the way she had to. She twisted the key, the engine roared, she fishtailed the car away with a shriek of rubber.