Captain Hedlund excused himself, and Lance Corporal Nelson followed closely behind him, leaving Alex and me sitting there alone, sitting in a pot of our own mess, barely on speaking terms and hoping for the best outcome for one another. I wanted so badly to touch him, to wrap my arms around him and kiss him with every ounce of passion inside of me. I wanted to be Alex and Cassie once again.
“Hey, Blondie…you okay?” he asked, that deep, husky voice breaking me from my thoughts.
“Yeah,” I breathed, hoping and praying that my lust wasn’t plastered all over my face.
A wry smile fixed on Alex’s lips, indicating that he could probably tell something was up with me, and it had nothing to do with the court proceedings. The cockiness he carried by nature couldn’t be stifled—not even in a courtroom where at any moment, a judge would walk through those doors and seal our fate. Alex didn’t seem to care. He was a walking enigma, keeping those around him on their toes, guessing what he would do next.
“Don’t sweat this shit. Regardless of what happens, I think Captain Hedlund has argued a good counter and those assholes are shaking.”
“Alex, knock it off. We’re as good as done. They have so much shit that it’s easy for a blind man to see that we’re guilty. Even if we don’t get the max, we have something coming our way, and that alone should have you worried.”
He turned in his chair, facing me head on as his entrancing golden eyes poured into mine. “It’s so funny how not too long ago, all of this was worth it. Now, it’s like the biggest mistake you’ve ever made. Well, I’ll tell you what, Blondie, you’re my favorite fucking mistake. And punished or not, I’m never going to regret what we did or what we had. You shouldn’t either.”
He turned back around in his seat, pulled out his cell phone and began typing away. Alex Cruz, for everything that we were embroiled in, still had a way with words. His words played on my ears like soft notes from melodic piano keys.
His favorite mistake?
If that were the case, why had he pulled the plug on us? Why couldn’t he continue on with our relationship and work things out the way any normal functioning couple would? Suddenly, the answer to that question came barreling towards me with enough force to knock me off my feet. Alex and I were not, nor would we ever be a normal couple. There was something absolutely intriguing, inexplicable, and downright consuming about the way we fell in love and how hard we had fallen. It wasn’t normal, nor was it right, but it was what it was, and I knew that nothing from here on out could or would be conventional with us.
Now I just had to make it through the next ten minutes or so, find out my fate, and see if there were anything left to salvage of our fractured love. I didn’t have long to wait as the lawyers came filing back into the courtroom, each side looking eager and victorious.
Unfortunately, I couldn’t feel that same ambition. My eyes lay plastered on the Sergeant who stood and walked to the front of the judge’s bench. “All rise. The Honorable Colonel Thompson presiding.”
Chapter 11
Alex
The hammer was about to come down, and for once in my life, all of the control that I loved to hold and exert was non-existent. That skinny fucking Sergeant stood there, possibly knowing my fate, and there wasn’t a goddamned thing that I could do about it. I stole a glance at Cassie and watched her swallow a lump through that deliciously dainty neck of hers. More than anything else, I was afraid for her. Fear radiated through her eyes, and as I stood on the other side of Captain Hedlund, there wasn’t shit that I could do to help her, to ease her fears, to calm her down. I felt helpless and worthless. But more than anything, I felt angry.
I sucked on my bottom lip and swallowed hard, breathing hard through my nose like a bull waiting to be released. One way or another, this anxiety was going to subside, and I needed to hear something because I was bursting at the seams with no help in sight.
Captain Hedlund gave a confirming nod to both Cassie and me, but no emotion could be traced through his eyes. He was stoic as a statue, and if he were nervous or confident, he wasn’t letting on. For a second, I decided he really couldn’t give two shits about what would happen to us. That he was assigned to us because it was his job and nothing more.
I shut my eyes and lightly shook my head, hoping to shake away the paranoia. The dangling noose was getting the best of me, and I had to find a way to clear my mind. My heart beat so fast I felt as if it would burst through my ribcage, and as soon as Colonel Thompson began speaking, all blood drained from my face.
“I have considered the evidence presented by both sides of this case. I am twenty-two years into the Marine Corps, and it is, without a doubt, the fiber of my being. We create and maintain the world’s best warriors because we instill discipline and follow through with it in all facets of what we do.”
His words were like an incinerator slowly melting me before I was finally taken and thrown into the fire.
“Sergeant Cruz and Private First Class Bennett,” Colonel Thompson growled, glaring at the two of us. The wrath in his eyes accelerated my breathing, forcing me to take a couple of deep breaths in order to take control of my body once again. “Based on the evidence presented by Major Godinez, it would seem that you two have embarked on a prohibited affair involving and breaking the Corps rule on fraternization. As a student, Pfc. Bennett was subject to preferential treatment from her instructor, Sergeant Cruz, thereby placing the rest of the students at a direct disadvantage. This compromises morale. Our rules are put in place to combat such things.”
Without turning my head, I leaned forward ever so slightly to get a glimpse of Cassie. She looked pale, her breathing labored, and her beautiful emerald eyes waiting to unleash a flood of tears with the final words due to come out of Colonel Thompson’s mouth. My moment of guilt washed over me as I watched a young, promising Marine about to lose what little she had all because I’d needed to fuck her, and once I had, I’d fallen in love with her. Cassie should be in her new unit, thriving and working her way to her next promotion of Lance Corporal. Instead, she stood next to Captain Hedlund, staring forward but looking faint.
It was my fault that the fear of God sat in her heart, and I was prepared to throw myself over the fire if it came down to it. I would do anything to take that anguish away from her. She didn’t deserve any of the shit that was currently being swept in her direction.
“I believe in rules, and I believe in the law,” Colonel Thompson asserted, scanning the room from one side to the other. “If these two Marines had not broken the law, none of us would be here right now. Furthermore, the botched investigation would not have forced me to free Sergeant Cruz and Pfc. Bennett. Because protocol was not followed, I have no choice but to drop the charges and free Sergeant Alejandro Cruz and Private First Class Cassie Bennett.”
I exhaled harshly with the sound of Colonel Thompson’s words. My body lunged forward as I balanced my hands on the table, peering over to Cassie who stood looking shell shocked, crying like she had just won the lottery. Maybe she had. Maybe moving on with her life was worth more than millions. Either way, I wanted to grab her, to hold her, to tell her everything was going to be okay and that this whole fucking nightmare was now behind us, but I couldn’t. I was stuck where I stood, still running the Colonel’s words through my head, trying to make sense of them since I was sure he had misspoken.
Captain Hedlund turned to congratulate me, shaking my hand with the slightest trace of a smile across his face. I wanted so badly to reciprocate the expression, but I couldn’t. I was in utter disbelief. From the second the evidence had been presented, I’d felt the nails being hammered into our proverbial coffins, and it looked as if there were no way out. At the end of all of that, First Sergeant O’Hara, who worked tirelessly to nail us, nailed himself. He had been so blinded by his thirst for punishment that he’d sidestepped protocol and allowed us to walk free. I looked over to where he stood red and fuming, then smiled at him, further eliciting hate from the man.