Natalia lifted and dropped her shoulders again. ‘I don’t know. I haven’t heard of them.’
Neither had he, thought Charlie. He said: ‘Weren’t you surprised?’
‘Very,’ conceded Natalia at once. She smiled and added: ‘Pleased, too. I never thought it possible but I prayed for this.’
Enough, thought Charlie. He said: ‘Who’s the man you were with?’
‘Man?’ frowned Natalia, puzzled.
‘Last night, in the bar?’
Natalia smiled again, shaking her head this time. ‘His name is Golovanov. He’s the chief aeronautical engineer from the Ilyushin plant and I’ve only known him for two days and he gropes a lot. OK?’
Charlie smiled back at her, shamefaced. ‘I wanted to know.’
‘There isn’t anyone, Charlie. There hasn’t been, not at all.’
‘Good.’
‘And?’
‘No,’ assured Charlie in return. ‘No one.’ What about Laura? Not the same, he told himself: not the same at all.
‘I wondered,’ admitted Natalia. ‘Worried, which was stupid. Not my business, I mean.’
‘Isn’t it your business?’
‘We’ve talked enough tonight.’
‘Why avoid it?’
‘I’m frightened.’
‘That’s ridiculous.’
‘I know.’
‘So?’
‘Please, Charlie!’
‘No,’ he refused.
‘Later.’
‘You’ve got to decide.’
‘I know.’
‘You said you loved me.’
‘I do.’
‘So what’s left to decide?’
‘You decided: you came back. You wouldn’t stay in Moscow.’
‘I told you it was a mistake I’ve regretted, a million times.’
‘And I’ve told you I’m frightened.’
‘You don’t have to be.’
‘Of course I do!’ said Natalia impatiently.
Charlie wished he had not been so glib. ‘We can do it!’ he implored.
‘I don’t want to talk any more, not tonight.’
‘Or last night, either.’
‘Please!’ she said again.
‘I want you to stay. I want you to stay and marry me,’ he declared.
Natalia stared at him, knowing that was exactly what she wanted, too, but unable to bring herself to say the actual words. She said: ‘Let me think.’
‘There’s nothing to think about!’
‘Tomorrow.’
‘What’ll be different then from now?’
‘Tomorrow,’ she insisted.
‘I…’ started Charlie and then stopped. Enough again, he decided.
‘What?’
‘Nothing.’
‘It’s late; I should go back.’
‘You were later going back last night,’ he reminded her.
‘I don’t feel…’
‘…that wasn’t what I meant.’
Once more they stared at each other for several moments, neither speaking. Then Natalia said: ‘It’s been my fault.’
‘Mine,’ contradicted Charlie.
She made an impatient gesture. ‘Both our faults then!’
‘I don’t want there to be another mistake, not like last time.’
Natalia stood, impulsively. ‘Tomorrow,’ she repeated.
‘Tomorrow,’ Charlie accepted.
There was a minuscule escalation, the requirement for the London embassy to reply on the same eavesdropped code. The message from Berenkov, in Moscow, said: HAS PAST VISITOR MET GUEST? Losev, obedient to his instructions, replied: ENCOUNTER CONFIRMED.
‘It’s building up!’ insisted Harkness.
‘A visitor is a guest,’ pointed out Witherspoon.
‘Legend identities?’ queried Harkness.
‘It’s a possibility,’ suggested Witherspoon.
‘Work on the supposition,’ said Harkness.
35
Emil Krogh believed it would be the last day he’d need at the factory and he was glad because he thought Springley had started to become suspicious. On the last visit the man had hung around the tiny temporary office like he had on the first occasion but his attitude was different: then he had been solicitous and eager to help but now he was querulous and towards the end had openly questioned why the American wanted access to a set of drawings he had already studied. The true reason was that Krogh had taken insufficient notes from his previous examination and had two drawings unfinished at the Kensington house, adding to the backlog that the finicky Russian was creating. Krogh improvised, inventing a story of possibly finding an incompatibility between what the two factories were creating and needing absolutely to check. He actually sketched the American companion piece to which the English part was to be joined, supposedly to substantiate his query, and Springley had eventually appeared satisfied – but only just.
Petrin kept pressing him for a completion date for the drawings which Krogh at the moment was refusing to give, convinced that if he provided a deadline the Russians would insist he meet it, and he didn’t want any more pressure than he was already under. But in his own mind he had decided another week. It was a foregone conclusion that the technical expert with the moustache would insist upon his usual translated interrogations, so a positive return to California was impossible to fix yet but Krogh was hopeful the delay wouldn’t extend for more than three days beyond his own finishing estimation. Then home. Home to Peggy, with all this settled and behind him.
He’d written to Peggy, two long letters which he’d never done on a trip away from home before, telling her how much he wanted to get back. Which he did. Desperately. Back to the safety of people and places he knew. To be treated properly, like a human being, not disparaged and sneered at, like they constantly sneered at him now. He’d told Peggy he loved her, too, which was something else he hadn’t done for longer than he could remember. And he did. He was going to prove it when he got back: make it up to her for all the half-assed screwing about and the neglect. He’d written that he was tired and wanted to rest – which he did, aching from fatigue although Petrin’s pills were giving him some sort of sleep at nights – and that he intended they should take a vacation together. That’s what he needed. To get away, just he and Peggy. Somewhere they could just relax, sleep a lot. Eat good food. Get well. The reflection came quite naturally but it surprised Krogh and then he wondered why it should. That was how he did feel about what had happened in America and was continuing here: like he was suffering a debilitating illness during which he’d done things over which he did not have complete control and which therefore he couldn’t be called upon to account for. A person couldn’t be blamed – accused of anything – when they were ill. That wasn’t fair. But it was going to be all right. He was going to get well again soon now.
He announced when he arrived at the Isle of Wight factory that he thought this would be his last visit and that maybe he should say goodbye to Bishop and the other directors who’d welcomed him, which had the effect Krogh wanted, of getting Springley away from constantly looking over his shoulder. The project chief returned to say the chairman wanted to give him a farewell lunch and Krogh said he thought he would be through in time and that he’d be happy to accept.
Because it was a last-minute arrangement it was not so stiffly formal as the day he arrived, with less people in the directors’ dining room. The chairman wanted the assurance that he’d had access to everything he wanted, which Krogh gave the man, recounting his invented story of an unfounded incompatibility to make it seem his trip had been worthwhile and hoping further to satisfy Springley, who was at the lunch. Bishop said if there were any uncertainties that arose later in his mind he was always welcome to return and Krogh promised to remember that. There was small talk about how much longer he intended remaining in England, and Spear, the managing director, agreed that another week in London would be nice at this time of the year. Then Spear disclosed he hoped to visit the West Coast in the near future and Krogh responded as he knew he was expected, inviting the man to be his guest both in California and at the plant, and they exchanged contact cards.