"Maybe he stayed overnight with a friend," Chuck began, but Charlotte shook her head.
"He hasn't done that since he was a little boy. And if he had, he would have called." Even as she uttered the words, she knew she didn't believe them. A year ago-a few months ago; even a few weeks ago-she would have trusted Jeff to keep her informed of where he was and what he was doing. But now? She didn't know.
Nor could she explain her worries to Chuck, since he insisted on believing there was nothing wrong; that Jeff was simply growing up and testing his wings.
As she was searching for the right words, the words to express her fears without further rousing her husband's anger, the front door opened and Jeff came in.
He'd already closed the door behind him and started up the stairs when he caught sight of his parents standing in the den in their bathrobes, their eyes fixed on him. He gazed at them stupidly for a second, almost as if he didn't recognize them, and for a split-second Charlotte thought he looked stoned.
"Jeff?" she said. Then, when he seemed to pay no attention to her, she called out again, louder this time. "Jeff!"
His eyes hooded, her son turned to gaze at her. "What?" he asked, his voice taking on the same sullen tone that had become so familiar to her lately.
"I want an explanation," Charlotte went on. "It's after two a.m., and I want to know where you've been."
"Out," Jeff said, and started to turn away.
"Stop right there, young man!" Charlotte commanded.
She marched into the foyer and stood at the bottom of the stairs, then reached out and switched on the chandelier that hung in the stairwell. A bright flood of light bathed Jeff's face, and Charlotte gasped. His face was streaked with dirt, and on his cheeks there were smears of blood. There were black circles underJeffs eyes-as if he hadn't slept in days- and he was breathing hard, his chest heaving as he panted.
Then he lifted his right hand to his mouth, and before he began sucking on his wounds, Charlotte could see that the skin was torn away from his knuckles.
"My God," she breathed, her anger suddenly draining away. "Jeff, what's happened to you?"
His eyes narrowed. "Nothing," he mumbled, and once more started to mount the stairs.
"Nothing?" Charlotte repeated. She turned to Chuck, now standing in the door to the den, his eyes, too, fixed on their son. "Chuck, look at him. Just look at him!"
"You'd better tell us what happened, son," Chuck said. "If you're in some kind of trouble-"
Jeff whirled to face them, his eyes now blazing with the same anger that had frightened Linda Harris earlier that evening. "I don't know what's wrong!" he shouted. "Linda broke up with me tonight, okay? And it pissed me off! Okay? So I tried to smash up a tree and I went for awalk.Okay? Is that okay with you, Mom?"
"Jeff-" Charlotte began, shrinking away from her son's sudden fury. "I didn't mean… we only wanted to-"
But it was too late.
"Can't you just leave me alone?" Jeff shouted.
He came off the bottom of the stairs, towering over the much smaller form of his mother. Then, with an abrupt movement, he reached out and roughly shoved Charlotte aside, as if swatting a fly. She felt a sharp pain in her shoulder as her body struck the wall, and then she collapsed to the floor. For a split-second Jeff stared blankly at his mother, as if he was puzzled about what had happened to her, and then, an anguished wail boiling up from somewhere deep within him, he turned and slammed out the front door.
Chuck, stunned by what had happened, stared at the closed door for a moment, then knelt down to help his wife to her feet. As Charlotte began sobbing quietly, he led her upstairs.
First he'd get her calmed down and back in bed. Then he'd start hunting for Jeff.
Jeff shambled away from the house, stumbling down the sidewalk to the street. But as the glow of the streetlight struck his eyes, he blinked dazedly then quickly ducked away, darting across the street and disappearing into the deep shadows between two houses.
His head was pounding with a dull throbbing pain that seemed to penetrate the very bones of his body, and tears were streaming from his eyes. How could he have done that? It was bad enough shaking Linda Harris like she was some kind of rag doll, but to have hit his own mother that way…
He tried to force the thought from his mind. He couldn't have done that-he couldn't have! It must have been someone else.
That was it. There was someone else inside him-someone evil-who was making him do things he never would have done himself.
But if there were someone else inside him, it meant he was going crazy. He was losing his mind, and they'd lock him up. That's what they did with crazy people, he knew-at least if they got violent.
He crouched in the shadows for a moment, his eyes darting like those of a wild animal that knows it's being hunted. How long did he have before they would start looking for him, how long before they'd come for him? He had to get away, had to find someplace to hide.
He kept low to the ground, balanced on the balls of his feet, then darted across a backyard, vaulting over the low fence that separated one yard from the other. He crossed two more yards that way, then slipped once more between the houses, pausing to search the street for signs of life before dashing across its open expanse to the welcome darkness on the other side. He wasn't certain where he was going yet, but his instincts seemed to be leading him to the other side of town, out near the school.
And then he knew.
There was someone he could go to, someone he trusted, someone who would help him. His breathing eased slightly as his panic began to subside and his mind to clear. Even the terrible pain in his head was lessening, and he broke into a loping stride, slipping from one shadowed area to the next, carefully avoiding the bright pools of yellow light that illuminated the sidewalks. No more than ten minutes later he reached his destination.
He paused across the street from Phil Collins's house, huddling close to the trunk of a large cedar tree, watching not only the coach's house, but the houses on either side as well.
The buzzing of insects seemed amplified in his ears, and in his paranoia he couldn't imagine how anyone could sleep through the din. Yet all the houses on the block were dark, nor could he see signs of movement on the streets.
Perhaps, after all, they weren't looking for him yet.
He crouched for a moment, then darted across the street and around to the back of the coach's house. He tapped softly at the back door, then harder.
Instantly, the house came alive with the sound of a dog barking, and a second later lights came on. Then the door opened a crack and Jeff recognized the coach's familiar face peering out at him.
"It's me, Coach," he said, his voice trembling. "I-I'm in trouble. Can I come in?"
The door closed for a second, and Jeff heard Collins mumble something to the dog, then the door opened wide and Jeff stepped into the kitchen of Collins's little house. The big German shepherd crouched at its master's feet, its teeth bared, a low growl rattling in its throat.
"Easy, Sparks," Phil Collins said. "Take it easy." The dog visibly relaxed, then slunk forward to sniff atJeffs hand.
Jeff sank into the single battered chair that stood next to the kitchen table and held his head in his hands.
"I-I hit my mother," he said, his eyes avoiding the coach's. "I don't know what happened. But-Well, sometimes it's like I just go crazy." Finally he looked up, his expression beseeching. "What's wrong with me?" he asked. "I get so mad sometimes I just can't control myself. All I want to do is start hitting things. I just want to start hitting, and I don't care what happens."
Collins placed his hand on the boy's shoulder. "Now, just take it easy," he said, unconsciously repeating the same words he'd used to the dog only a moment before. "There's nothing wrong with you, Jeff. You're just going through a tough time in your life, that's all. Now just try to tell me what happened."