But Claire was so suspicious, always spouting conspiracy theories about Warren’s death. Anne did a better job comforting her than Holtzmann could.
His inbox had scores of messages, two of them of note.
Item one: Rangan Shankari had broken, around 3am. He described an ingenious system of backdoors in the Nexus binaries and hacks in the compiler to place them there. And he’d given them the passwords.
Holtzmann frowned, wondering what they’d done to finally break Shankari. The electrical shocks? The waterboarding? The Nexus-dosed interrogators?
And now that DHS had the back doors, what would they use them for? Spying on the thoughts of Nexus users? Preventative mind control? Political surveillance? Manipulation of those thoughts?
“Why?” he asked aloud. “Why did you leave those back doors in there? Didn’t you see the danger? How could you be so stupid?”
Item two: The forensic report from the Chicago bombing. The blast site tested positive for Nexus. Samples were en route to Holtzmann’s lab now.
Holtzmann would have no choice but to process those samples. He’d hand them off to Wilson, with instructions to come to him and him only with the results.
Holtzmann sat back, then started a new file, titled Personnel Assessment, and started listing everyone who could have taken Nexus out of the secure fridge in his lab.
Holtzmann crawled into bed hours later. The pain was back, an aching deep in his bones. His muscles were cramping. His mouth was dry. His heart was beating fast. He had all the blankets pulled over him, was sweating, but he still felt so cold all over.
All he wanted was another little opiate surge. Just for the pain. The doctors had cut him off too soon. He just needed a little bit more, for a little bit longer, until he was fully healed.
I nearly died last night, some part of himself said.
Just a little one, just once more, the other part of him answered.
He had the interface up when he heard the garage door open. He lay paralyzed in bed as he listened to Anne ascend the stairs to the bedroom.
“Sorry I was out so late,” she told him as she disrobed. “Claire’s in a really bad space. She’s not moving on.”
Holtzmann made a sympathetic sound.
Anne slid into bed beside him. “She’s convinced it was a cover-up, that Warren was killed to keep him from testifying.”
Holtzmann stared longingly at the interface in his mind. If he did just a small dose, would Anne notice?
She curled up against him and stopped talking for a while. Holtzmann forced himself to breath slowly and regularly, to not touch the interface in his mind’s eye.
If I sound like I’ve fallen asleep…
“Martin?” Claire asked.
Holtzmann said nothing, and finally Claire stopped. A few minutes later she rolled over, towards her side of the bed.
He waited until her breathing turned regular, and he was sure she was asleep.
Then Martin Holtzmann dialed up a small dose, and finally he felt OK again.
He rose early, brought Anne coffee in bed with a smile, put on his game face as he readied for work.
“You seem better today,” she noticed.
“I feel better.”
“You were dead to the world when last night. Do you remember me coming to bed? Our conversation?”
He cocked his head quizzically. “Yeah… Something about Claire, right?”
Anne smiled tolerantly at him, and then they were off to their respective offices.
The day was a succession of nearly useless meetings. He sat in on a planning session related to the Nexus back doors, vetoed a proposal to use “aversive stimuli” to motivate Nexus children to purge the drug, got briefed on the Nexus vaccine development, which was looking promising, and on the proposed Nexus cure, which wasn’t looking promising at all.
Through the day, his list of potential Nexus thieves was never far from his mind.
Means, motive, and opportunity, he thought.
Twenty-two people had access to the fridge in the wet lab, giving them the means.
Any of them could have worked a late night, providing opportunity. Access logs could show who had been in the lab when. But he didn’t have access to those logs or videos. Only Internal Affairs did, and he certainly didn’t want them digging.
Motive, then. What was the motive for the inside man? Hatred of the President? Money? Blackmail?
He played it out in his head at the end of the day, as he walked to his car in the dark but now heavily secured parking garage. Which of those twenty-two were ideologues? Who needed money? Who’d bought a flashy car recently, moved into a bigger house?
Holtzmann frowned as he opened his car and placed his cane and bag in the passenger seat. He kept pondering his list of suspects as the car cleared the security perimeter and turned onto the freeway on autodrive. And so he didn’t see the ripple of distortion in his rear-view mirror. Didn’t hear a rustle of cloth as the man who’d been hidden in the back of the car came up to a seated position, a barely visible blur against the faux-leather seats and the retreating highway lights behind them.
“Martin.”
Holtzmann jumped in shock. The voice was distorted, mechanical. His heart slammed into his throat. He scrambled for the handle to the door, then heard the chunk as the car locked itself.
Stupid man. If they’d come for him, he was dead already. Nothing he could do.
“Relax, Martin,” said the deep, anonymized voice again.
Holtzmann looked into the mirror to see the face of his killer. The figure in the back seat was just a shadow, a barely perceptible distortion. A man in a high-tech chameleonware suit, then. A professional.
Holtzmann swallowed hard, wishing he’d told Anne the truth, that he’d trusted her.
Then the figure behind him raised a hand, and Holtzmann closed his eyes to wait for the killing blow.
16
ONLY FORWARD
Friday October 19th
Feng pulled Kade along behind him to the jeep, then climbed into the driver’s seat. Monks followed them with canisters of fuel and liters of water. Even in the midst of shock and sorrow, they did what needed doing. Like soldiers.
Feng leaned out of the jeep to place a hand on the shoulder of a monk.
“Thank you.” He put his respect into it, beamed it out of his mind to theirs, one soldier to another. They bowed. Then Feng put the pedal down, and he and Kade were off.
The first priority was to be gone. Feng pushed the jeep hard and fast down the dirt road. Brilliant green trees and brush raced past them, contrasting with the red earth of the bare ground they drove on. This was the bottleneck, the one road up or down from Ayun Pa.
The tires skidded just a bit as he found the maximum lateral acceleration they’d take. Every sound of every pebble, every twig, every bit of give and play of the tires on the road loomed loud in his mind. He absorbed the sounds, the feel of the wheel, the response of the jeep to his acceleration. The vehicle became an extension of his body. He felt Kade grab hold with his one good hand as a sharp turn pulled him out to the side. Feng spun the wheel back the other way as the road hairpinned, sending red dirt and loose scree flying. The smile came to his face of its own accord. He was alive, and free, and totally absorbed in their mad dash down this hillside road.
Fifteen minutes later, they were off a different side road, the jeep hidden in a copse of date palms. They’d heard no sirens, but Feng intended to take no chances.