“Please, miss, it’s been tormenting me like this for so long, miss. I just need some release. With your fingers, miss, or your dainty kisses, or I really don’t care precisely what. Please, just a bit of release and then I’ll be still like a good girl and hold the book again.”
Her hips rocked all the while as she pleaded with me, a steady stream of words that no doubt would only have continued had I not stepped in toward her again and given her hope that I might grant her outlandish request: To leave her here, chained nude for some unspoken scholarly perversion, yet to effect upon this stranger caresses of the most intimate nature.
Yet, she was quite lovely. Breathtakingly so. Plump and soft and round in just the right proportions, and clearly desirous of me. Her hips moved with urgency, and her wide eyes and moistened, parted lips begged for attention. Her lust was consuming her, but it was genuine. I had never been one to shy away from the stirrings of lust. Though the circumstance was rather unusual, it was, truth be told, the very authenticity of it which stirred a tingling heat in my own loins that I could not deny.
Her flesh was feverishly hot under my hands. I roamed her skin, tasting the glossy nectar that anointed her, sliding along each curve until my fingers plunged boldly into the velvet-soft valley of her cleft. I stroked and soothed her to one wave of bliss after another. Beautifully responsive, she was. Her shudders and sweet breathy cries became my sustenance, my air, until it seemed I lived only to draw her arousal higher, to tickle and rub and suckle in such ways as would reward me with more sighs, more moans, more eager trembles and stiff thrashes of her pristine flesh.
Pressure was building within me, too, and soon I could not deny my longing to free her, even just briefly, so that she could reciprocate the intimate soothings I had already suffered long days and nights without. Now with each touch I bestowed, I thought not of her pleasure, but of how desperately I longed to have those same touches gifted upon my own stiffened peaks; my moistened valley.
“Yes, yes, my darling,” I breathed as her breath again grew labored and short, heaving her glorious bosom. Her cries had taken on the quality of words, nonsense words strung together in a language born of passionate abandon. Guttural, thick words that seemed to damage the throat in their utterance. I encouraged them, coaxed them, as if they spoke right to the knot of desire at my heated core.
And then, silence.
I looked up from her glistening body and followed her wide-eyed, hungry gaze.
It lurked in the shadows, a deeper region of black within a darkness that at first seemed broken only by the shifting absence of flickering candle-glow. I did not know how long it had been watching us, but now it moved forward and its form demanded attention. It was massive, with hide an inky black that gleamed green in the candlelight; a shift of color I would not have predicted from the ink drawings I had spied in the study. There were too many thick limbs in motion for my dazed mind to accurately count, and extra appendages, as welclass="underline" throbbing, glistening appendages that spoke to the hulking creature’s desire, if not to its gender. I should perhaps have been afraid of the creature, but I was not generally inclined to be the fearful sort, and my new lover’s own lack of fear only reinforced my own. The hum of my own need dominated in my veins and I could only think of opportunity — at last, opportunity! — not consequence.
The maid on the altar — for that was surely what the stone table was — strained at her bonds. “It’s here!” her breathy whisper announced, though she could spare no glance toward me. I took no offense at her inattention — the pulsing, veined tips of a particular trio of protrusions had me quite transfixed, as well. I so dearly needed the release I had just bestowed, was so intoxicated with desire, I could think of nothing beyond putting those tips to their obvious uses.
The thing stepped forth from the shadows, gliding as if through the murk of molten secrets. Beneath my skirts, my own molten secrets begged for attention.
“Do you think, darling,” I whispered back slowly, blindly reaching behind me and patting the stone upon which she was spread, “that there’s room enough up here for two?”
Don Pizarro
THE C-WORD
It had been eleven months since I’d last called Anna. One day, she’d stopped answering her phone, and eventually I stopped trying to get through to her. I’d mostly stopped thinking about us until her corner of Massachusetts caught the edge of a hurricane. For three days, I resisted the urge to call.
I never thought she’d call me.
“I knew you’d be worried,” Anna had said.
“I was,” I said, shocked into honesty by the realization she’d actually given me a moment’s thought.
We spent most of the time talking about the storm’s aftermath. “Arkham’s flooded,” she said. “They canceled classes at Misk until further notice. Newburyport’s a mess….”
“How are you?” I asked.
“Innsmouth pretty much got through it unscathed,” she said.
Not the answer I was looking for. This didn’t surprise me. Neither did Innsmouth’s shelter from the storm, despite the town being situated right on the coast. After its revival in the nineties as a place where artists and hipster students with trust funds — like myself — could thrive, nothing could slow Innsmouth down. Not its own sordid history, nor the recession, not even the weather.
The tired old joke was always, “What did Innsmouth sell its soul to this time?”
We did some perfunctory catching up and had gotten to the part where we both mentioned about how little had changed in our lives over the past year, when I blurted out, “I want to see you.” I hung my head down between my knees and waited for another rejection.
“Eliot,” Anna said with a sigh.
I was mentally kicking myself, thinking stupid, stupid, stupid.
“One last visit,” she said. “One. For old time’s sake.”
The way she broke our unspoken rule about using any word or phrase that could possibly call to mind our seventeen-year age gap — that was the biggest shock of all. If it didn’t matter to her anymore, maybe I didn’t matter to her either. Still, I wasn’t about to look a gift from the Gods in the mouth.
I texted Anna as soon as my flight landed at Logan Airport, and sent several more through the bus ride to Newburyport. She texted back when she could. She was knee-deep in a stream of hipster commuter students from Miskatonic U., looking to replace the water-damaged minimalist furniture in their cheap Arkham lofts.
When, after a long series of detours, the Newburyport-to-Innsmouth bus finally arrived at the Town Centre, I called her. “I can’t wait to see the store again,” I said as I walked toward the Warehouse District, filled with fond memories of the things we used to do in the back of her warehouse. Not that I had any particular hope of reliving them.
“I’ve booked you a room at The Gilman,” said Anna, preemptively answering the question of where I was going to be staying. “It’s too wild at the store. How about you hang out and I’ll come by for dinner? My treat.”
When I was handed the keycard for Room 428, it was official. Anna’s signals were definitely mixed. Why would she keep me away from her house, only to book me in a room full of memories?
The memories did come, and I let them, lying alone on the bed in the too-familiar room. The good ones came first. From the first time we met, she and I were in transitional phases, just like Innsmouth was at the time. I was a Ph.D. student at a school as far away from Ojai, California, as I could get. She had launched a new business venture after spending her early forties trying to be something other than a woman descended from Old Money that was long since gone. Kindred spirits, or so I’d thought, bonding over meals or coffee, discussing our plans and dreams and — after graduation — trying to figure out how to make our plans dovetail.