A devout member of the voodoo religion, Jax knew the price for harming another was steep, even if by accident. Every once in a while, someone in his position had no choice, especially if using black magic was the difference between life and death. The rumors about him were worse than the truth, but they helped keep the people of New Orleans safe. He’d pay the price for what he did down the road.
What was one more drop in the bucket of mistakes he’d made? He was already condemned after all he’d done.
Serial killer. If they only knew what it was he was trying to do, they wouldn’t give the series of deaths such a name. No, Jax’s intention was much nobler than slaughtering innocents. When the women he performed the zombie rite on died, it was purely accident.
Jax found himself slowing, unable to shake the image of Adrienne from his thoughts. She looked too much like her sister for him to escape the memories. They’d been flowing hard and fast since yesterday, when he saw Adrienne in the alley. He’d heard she was in town and walked by her father’s apartment building frequently. Curiosity made him wonder how much she looked like Therese.
If he knew they were almost identical, he would’ve stayed away. He hoped his warning to her kept her away, because he didn’t know if he could trust himself around her.
Forgotten memories kept popping into his head, aching ones that made his breath catch. The first kiss with Therese, the way her skin smelled after they made love, the brilliant smile she saved just for him.
He shook his head. She’d been gone for five years, and it was like he’d just seen her, touched her. He couldn’t see Adrienne again. Out of respect for Therese’s memory, he couldn’t let himself be tempted. He’d keep her safe, the way he did her father, the members of his House and voodoo community that frequented this district.
Jax pushed open the door to the Coffee Loa, a café that moonlighted as the hub of activity for the voodoo priest and priestess heading up House Igbo. Four people sat drinking espresso in the coffee shop.
The man behind the counter, a slender African man in jeans and a t-shirt, straightened when Jax entered. He waved him towards the back.
Jax went through one back room into the second, where the member of the House Igbo created his spells and potions to sell. A small amount of voodoo priests and priestesses sold spells and were known as bokors. Although most only sold healing or protective spells, this man was one of the few he know that would sell black magic spells. The scent of mummified animal parts and blood was covered by incense. A shrine to Baron Samedi, the god overseeing death and the dead, was on one side of the room, and Jax dipped his head to the god of death as he entered.
“You come twice this month,” Togoun Igbo said, heading towards a small refrigerator.
“I know.”
“Sit.”
Jax didn’t object, accustomed to the bokor’s way of doing business. There was no in-and-out, like at a normal store. No, Togoun’s routine was the same every time.
“You cannot keep asking from a god without giving back,” Togoun reminded him. “If you use black magic to harm another – ”
“- the penalty is threefold whatever harm I cause,” Jax finished for him. “You’re a bokor. Sell me my spell.”
“I do as always.” Togoun pulled a small, clay jar from the refrigerator and set it on the table beside Jax. “Take off your mask.”
Jax removed the skeleton mask he’d worn for five years, since Therese’s death.
Togoun pursed his lips in disapproval.
Jax grinned. “Gotcha.” He’d painted the skeleton on his face with Halloween make-up.
“You cannot hide what these spells are doing to you,” Togoun said. “You are losing your spirit, bit by bit.”
“I don’t care. I need to see her again.”
“Baron Samedi will dig her grave one day.”
“But he hasn’t yet. I refuse to let her go.”
Togoun never said anything more. He peered into Jax’s eyes as if looking for his soul then picked up the spell.
Jax handed him the normal fee: enough money to pay for Togoun’s rent for the month.
“I will need more blood next time,” Togoun said, accepting the payment.
“No problem.” Jax stood.
“Be careful, cousin. One of the original four Houses has returned to New Orleans. This family bears a curse strong enough to harm any involved with it. The Toussaints are unhappy about it, and your own DuBois relatives are worried.”
Been there. Done that. “Yeah, thanks.”
“You know this House?” Togoun asked.
“I do. St. Croix. One of them moved here a long time ago,” Jax replied.
“Therese St. Croix,” Togoun said, realization crossing his features. “The girl you mourn every month.”
“Yeah. I met her the summer after I graduated college. Her sister is here. She’s harmless. Tell the Toussaints not to interfere,” Jax said firmly. “She’s under the protection of House DuBois.”
“Does your uncle know this?”
“My word is enough.”
Togoun dropped his gaze at Jax’s sharp look.
“My uncle is the head of the family, but these are my streets, Togoun,” Jax said quietly. “Just do what I tell you.”
“I know.”
Jax turned and left. He tucked the cool clay jar in his pocket and stalked out of the shop. He tugged his mask back on then pulled up his hood. The apartment building where he lived was between the coffee shop and where Therese used to live, a lengthy walk across wards and through back alleys patrolled by his crew. He greeted a few as he crossed their paths. His brother, Rene, was probably on his way to the Irish Channel after taking care of their mother, who was confined to a wheelchair. Though he could throw down as well as any other member of LO, Rene was more sensitive than Jax had ever been to the emotions of those around him. He’d taken on the responsibility of caring for their mother, which Jax should have done.
Jax trotted up to the second floor where his apartment was.
Since he’d seen Adrienne, he hadn’t been able to think clearly. Normally, he waited for Rene to take their mother on her monthly trip to a special clinic in Baton Rouge. Jax stayed at her row house for two days while they were gone. He usually performed the rite in the attic of his mother’s home.
He only needed twenty-four hours. The black magic that drew Therese’s wandering spirit into the body Jax chose for her never lasted longer and many days, didn’t make it past twelve hours.
Jax’s pulse was flying by the time he reached for his doorknob. In under an hour, he’d rid himself of the need and pain he’d felt since running into Adrienne.
“Loa Yemaya, goddess of femininity and protector of those who cross between life and death,” he whispered. “I know it’s not a full moon, but I beg of you and my ancestors to bless me tonight and forgive me for any harm I cause.”
He opened the door to his apartment. It was quiet, aside from the rustling that came from his bedroom. He locked his door and tossed his jacket then went to the kitchen. There was no food in the cramped space. He’d converted it into a shrine for Baron Samedi and another for the loa Ogoun, the warrior god that watched over his family.
Jax lit candles and knelt, praying to the various spirits, gods and goddesses.
“I seek your forgiveness and your compassion for what I am about to do. Samedi, guide her spirit true. Ogoun, give me strength and Yemaya, keep my hands steady, so that I may feel the beauty of the female spirit. I will bring you my sacrifice after the rite. Amen.”
He pulled the clay bottle out of his pocket and reached for the blood-flecked knife on the counter. Adrenaline raced through him to the point of his ears roaring. He pulled his mask off and his shoes, then paused before the doorway of his bedroom.