Ari had saidshe had pictures. If Ari was deadthe House investigators had them. Had everything.
There was no dignity left him then, except to keep from noticing they knew, or admitting the truth to anyone.
"Listen to me, son." Denys' hand closed on his again. It was soft and warm and any human contact affected him in terrible ways. "Son, I can't excuse what Ari did. But there was more to her than" He jerked back.
He saw Denys read him. Saw the thinking going on in Denys' eyes and tried to keep the color from his face. "than you want to hear about," Denys concluded. "I know. Listen. Listen to me. Make this register All right?"
"All right. I'm with you."
"Brave lad. Listen now. Jordie's coveringfor us and for you. He's lying to the press, and the Council. He's telling them it was Ari standing in the way of his transfer. Every reason in the world but the truthand they can't psychprobe him. You have to understand, Justinyou're . . . him, as much as you're his son. That puts a freight on everything that happened between you and Ari thatthat pushed him beyond the limit. It was old businessbetween him and Ari. He understands what happened to you. Yes. You know what I'm telling you. And he loves you very much. But part of it is his own pride. Do you understand? Those of us who work inside these wallsknow how tangled and complicated even a parent's love can be ... in a moment when he was pushed too far. Everything he wants is gone, except you. And you can take everything else he's gotif you go in there with your emotions out of control. I want you to get control of yourself. Let him take a little peace of mind out of here with him. Let him see his son's all right. For his sake."
"Why won't they let me go with him?"
"Because you're a minor. Because of the security arrangements. Because, truthfully, I couldn't get Giraud to agree to it. Security, they keep saying."
"That's a damn lie!"
"Listen, now. I'm going to get some arrangement where you can get visiting privileges. Not right away. Maybe not even this year. But time and quiet can do a lot for this situation. They're scared as hell there's a conspiracythe Winfield-Kruger mess, you know."
O God. My fault. My fault. "They can't think Jordan was in on that. I was. Giraud ran the psychprobe. Run it again! I can swear he didn't know a damn thing"
"Unfortunately, son, that's exactly the kind of thing Jordie wants to preventgetting you involved in the investigation. There is fire under that smoke. I'm afraid Jordie was meeting with a man called Merild, who had connections that are running into some very dark corners. He was also meeting in secret with a number of very high-up Centrists who are linked to lanni Merinothe Abolitionists. And Rocher has come out with a very inflammatory statement about Ari's death that Merino hasn't quite repudiated. A lot of people in the government are running scared, scared of investigations, scared of guilt by association. Internal Affairs demanded to get hold of Grant. Giraud had to do a probe to satisfy them"
"Oh, my God"
"He had to. I know. I know, son. But they could have learned too much from you. Justin, the shock waves Ari's death has generatedare enormous. You can't imagine how enormous. The government is in crisis. Careers are in jeopardy. Lives are. There's an almost universal conviction that this had to be political; that the reasons for what's changed their lives has some meaning beyond a dissatisfied scientist breaking Ari's skull. It's human to think like that. And Jordie's testimonythe fact that he can't testify under probethe fact that Florian and Catlin were put downsome posthumous order of Ari's, they think. . . . Yes. They're gone too. People sense something else going on. They want to think something else is going on. Crime of passion, from an education tape-designer, you know, gives people cold chills. We're supposed to be too rational. Jordie's going to have to do the best damn psych-out in front of the Council committee he's ever done in his life. And for Jordie's own sake, the quieter things stay for the next few years, the better. Just be patient. Jordie's not without friends. He's not old. Forty-six isn't old. He can outlast the furor, if you don't do something that blows the lid off everything we've arranged."
He found enough air to breathe finally. He tried to think that through. He tried to thinkwhat was the safest thing for his father and what his father would want. Tried not to thinkO God!that it was his own mistakes that had caused it.
"Can you get yourself together?" Denys pressed him.
"I'm together. I'm all right. What about Grant?" Oh, God, they could mindwipe him. Florian dead! And Catlin
"Giraud is assigning Grant back to you."
Good things no longer happened to him. He did not believe them. He did not trust them.
"He has," Denys said, "because I just signed the papers. Get through this business with Jordan and you can get him out of hospital. Do you want that sedative, son?"
Justin shook his head. Because Jordan would know if there was any drug involved. He had read him all along. Jordan must have. He hoped
He hoped he could keep from tape-flashes if Jordan hugged him. That was how bad it was. That was what Ari had done to him. He was losing his father. He was not going to see him again. And he could not even tell Jordan goodbye without feeling Ari's hands on him.
"I'm all right," he said. If he could not lie to Denys and make it credible, he had no hope of lying to Jordan. Getting himself together had to start now. Or he was not going to make it.
x
Mikhail Corain looked anxiously at the aide who had laid the fiche-card on his desk. "Dell's?" he asked.
The aide nodded.
Corain waved a hand, dismissing the aide, slid the card into the desktop viewer and tilted the screen.
Dell Hewitt was a member of Internal Affairs. She happened to be a Centrist who was a friend of Ginny Green, who had been the Centrist candidate in Internal Affairs in the last election. And in this nervous time of investigations and committees rummaging into every dark corner in Novgorod, she had laid more than her own career on the line with what she had leaked to Yvonne Hahner, who she knew would leak it to Dellarosa in his staff. As good as wrap it up and mail it.
Regarding the azi Catlin and Florian: no conclusion. Perhaps the termination was ordered outside the system. Perhaps inside, by persons unknown. Perhaps Ariane Emory did order the termination, not wanting them interviewed. Perhaps she felt it was humane. Perhaps it was some kind of death pact the azi themselves had asked for: Reseune says they would have been very profoundly affected by the thought of losing her. Also, Reseune says, they were Security, but with a fix on Emory. They were therefore capable of harm to Reseune, and retraining would be difficult if not impossible without mindwipe, which their age precluded. Giraud Nye refuses to open the books on their psychsets. The order did come under Emory's personal code. Giraud Nye cites security considerations in refusing to allow Internal Affairs technicians to examine the computers.
Corain sipped the coffee warmed by the desk-plate. Two hundred fifty cred the half-kilo. They were damned small sips. But, a man was due a little luxury, who had been a scratch-and-patch outback farmer most of his life.
No new news. That was disappointing. He traced down the long list of things Reseune had refused to allow Internal Affairs to do, and read the legal justifications. Reseune's legal staff was winning every round. And Internal Affairs, at the uppermost administrative level, was not hitting back.