We sat on the doorstep with cold beers in our hands. From the sitting room ‘Teenage Kicks’ by the Undertones wafted over, evidently this summer’s favourite band.
‘Are you going to Roskilde then?’ he said.
I nodded. ‘Think so.’
‘I may pop down there too,’ he said. ‘Arvid and Erling are going, but there are lots of others too, so I’ll just have to scrape together some money, then. . the Church are playing, you know?’
‘Are they?’
‘Yes. I wouldn’t like to miss out on the chance to see them.’
Cars were parked nose to tail on both sides of the street. People were constantly going in and out of the neighbouring houses. The town beneath us was buzzing, an endless stream of cars passing through the streets. In the sky there was the occasional flash of a plane, long white plumes of condensed water hovered in the air long after they had gone. The sun burned in the sky to the west. The roofs down the mountainside shimmered in red and orange, and between them stood trees swaying in the breeze.
After a while we went indoors, Yngve made pasta carbonara for dinner, and then we had another couple of beers on the doorstep. Our conversation flagged, it was as though a little distance had grown between us since we last met, but it didn’t matter, it could have been for all sorts of reasons.
In one of the letters he had sent he had, very discreetly, told me to remember to use a condom. I appreciated his concern, but I had smiled when I saw that, because he would never have been able to say it to my face. It was only possible in a letter, and then en passant. Or if he was drunk.
‘Are you still suffering after Kristin?’ I said after we had sat down.
‘It’s one big suffering,’ he said.
‘And you can’t get her back? There’s no hope of that?’
‘Do you think I would be sitting here with you if there were?’
‘Maybe not.’ I smiled.
‘It was my fault. I took her for granted. All of a sudden she didn’t want to go on, and by then it was too late. Shit, that’s the hardest part to deal with, that I could have prevented it. But I took it for granted. I didn’t value it highly enough.’
‘But you do now?’
‘Now I’m in the privileged position of being able to see what I had, yes.’
The sun was no longer shining on the doorstep, and I took off my sunglasses, folded them and put them in the breast pocket of my shirt.
‘You shouldn’t keep them there,’ Yngve said. ‘It doesn’t look good.’
‘You’re right,’ I said, and took them out again.
‘And while I’m at it, that studded belt of yours might have had its day.’
‘Possible,’ I said. ‘But I’ll give it a while yet.’
There was a silence. We smoked, gazed down at the sunless but warm street.
‘May I ask you something?’ I said at length.
‘Of course,’ he said.
‘When did you. . first have it?’
He glanced at me. Then gazed down again.
‘When I was eighteen. On the trip to Greece. When I went with Helge, if you remember. On Antiparos beach. At night. In the moonlight.’
‘Is that true?’
‘Yes, it was late but good. Or, in retrospect, it seems better than it was. Why do you ask?’
I shrugged.
‘Don’t tell me you haven’t slept with a girl yet? You’re not a virgin, are you?’
‘No, no, of course not,’ I said. ‘You know I’m not.’
We fell silent again. The air around us was full of noises. All the windows were open, all the shouting, bikes occasionally whizzing past, cars creeping slowly up the mountainside, the wonderful solid sound of car doors shutting.
It wasn’t a lie. Technically speaking, I wasn’t a virgin, I had penetrated that girl at the russ party — not much, a centimetre or two — but for Christ’s sake there had been contact, I had fucked. It wasn’t a lie.
‘I’ll order a taxi,’ Yngve said, getting up. ‘We’ll nip down to Ola’s first. Him you’ve got to meet.’
~ ~ ~
My possessions arrived a few days later, we fetched the boxes from the hurtigrute quay, put them in the cellar, and then I travelled down to Kristiansand, where I mostly stayed in Lars’ bedsit. After Roskilde we were going to hitch down through Europe together, and we planned the journey, first to Brindisi on the south-eastern tip of Italy, and then across to Athens, and from there to the Greek islands. I suggested Antiparos, he agreed. I managed to fit in a visit to grandma and grandad as well, and Gunnar, who’d heard I was in town, invited me to theirs on the last evening. I had to meet my cousins, we were a small family, as he put it, it was important to stay in contact. He picked me up from Rundingen, Tove was waiting for us with dinner, we spent the evening chatting, his two sons kept crawling all over him, and the fact that they weren’t frightened of him — indeed they exuded trust, this struck me every time I was there — gladdened my heart. No one said a word about dad, and that was fine, it seemed to me. I slept in their cellar, and in the morning, after a hurried breakfast, Gunnar drove me to the ferry terminal, where Lars and his girlfriend were waiting for me.
During the crossing to Denmark we were mostly up on deck. The sun was shining, the sea lay like a vast sheet around us, we sat in deckchairs drinking and smoking, got up now and then and drifted around, especially me, I was so restless.
After arriving in Roskilde by train, we queued up, were given our armbands and went to the campsite. I had borrowed a small brown two-man tent from Lars, he would share his girlfriend’s.
Once the tents were up, I left Lars and went to look for Bassen. We had arranged to meet at the rendezvous point, we had agreed to check in every hour on the hour, and the first time I went there he was already waiting.
‘Hi,’ he said and smiled. ‘Let’s go for a drink, shall we?’
He laughed when I told him about Northern Norway. I said nothing about Andrea, I wouldn’t ever do that, not to anyone, there was no reason.
We went for a scout around, not many people had come yet, he said he was hungry, I was hungry too, I said, and when we passed the Hell’s Angels campsite and saw that they were grilling enormous chunks of meat over a fire he stopped and shouted to them.
‘Hi! Can we have some of your food? We’re starving! A bit of meat for two Norwegians!’
One of them got up and made a move towards us.
‘He’s going to let us in,’ Bassen said. ‘They’re much better than their reputation. If you’re not aggressive towards them, they aren’t aggressive towards you.’
‘Hi there!’ he said when the Hell’s Angel — who not only had long hair, a hefty handlebar moustache, leather trousers, leather jacket and a bandana round his forehead but also impenetrable black sunglasses — was only a couple of metres away.
He moved quickly towards us and did not look enormously friendly. But perhaps it was just as Bassen had said, they just looked dangerous.
He stopped, then spat at us, turned and went back.
The gobbet of phlegm hit Bassen on the chest.
‘Jesus Christ,’ he said as we hurried away, angry and frightened. ‘He spat at us! Why did he do that? All we wanted was a bit of food!’
‘Oooh, shit,’ I said. ‘I think we got off lightly there. I reckon they are dangerous.’
Bassen laughed.
‘Yes, now we’re out in the big wide world, Karl Ove!’ he said.
I laughed too. We went for some more to drink and a bite to eat. After an hour I returned to the tent, I had to spend some time with Lars and the others as well, after all I had come with them. They were sitting outside drinking wine with a girl I hadn’t seen before.