It was turning into a horror of a night. There were room-rattling booms of thunder and frightening light flashes, both competing with the rain that slashed across her windows. Catherine heard and saw none of it, her mind occupied solely with events of the past. Though not quite an old lady yet, she was well on her way, or at least that was how she felt on nights such as these, the nights she sat alone with her memories.
She had more memories now in her life for company than realities, so she often would revisit her youth and what she considered her “useful” days. Just now she was thinking back to the summers and springs and autumns when families thought nothing of caravaning halfway across England and Scotland to visit, loaded with gifts and servants and dogs and children.
She smiled, remembering all those children, especially her two boys, so different from each other and yet boon companions, mischievous, competitive, and loyal as brothers. She laughed softly. Had there ever been a time they were together that was not disastrous for her?
She loved those boys fiercely, especially Darcy, as if he was her own, and perhaps he would have been if she hadn’t chosen the path of prestige over love. She rarely admitted to regretting anything in her life, but that decision, in retrospect, had possibly been a mistake.
There was a soft knock on her door. “Come in,” she called, dabbing away any trace of her melancholy.
“I wanted to say good night,” Darcy said as he entered, closing the door behind him. It had been his lifelong nightly ritual when in residence to visit her before he retired. He looked sleepy but happy. Even with his hair tousled, without his jacket or cravat, he looked magnificent.
“Is everything all right? Is Elizabeth settled?” She reached out her hands to him.
“Yes, everything is perfect. She’s rather overwhelmed by your kindness to her and to her father. I am, also, by the way. Thank you, Aunt Catherine.” Darcy took her hands and, after kissing them both, he sat next to her on her settee. He tucked his aunt’s arm through his own.
“Well, I behaved rather badly before. I do freely admit it, but only to you. I will deny this to anyone else. I was so very disappointed, you see. I had really come to believe that you and Anne would marry one day.”
“I always told you we would not, though. Neither Anne nor I wished it. Why did it come as such a surprise?”
“This may come as quite a shock to you, Darcy, but I can be a very stubborn, opinionated person.” She immediately raised her hand between them in order to deflect any protests to which he would certainly give voice. He remained aggravatingly silent.
“No, please don’t contradict me.” She lifted one eyebrow at his firmly sealed lips. “I know my faults, few as they may be.” When Darcy dared look, he saw she was grinning back at him, and he laughed softly.
“Tell me truthfully, how did Richard fare in overseeing?”
He groaned then laughed, rubbing his hand across his forehead. “Well, we just went over a few items; it will take awhile to review everything, but all in all, it is rather a mess. He cannot add, you know, nor spell, and his record-keeping is abysmal. He paid several merchants more than once, and we’ll need to contact your tenants to see who actually forwarded their rents. I’ll tell you one thing, however—he has a real love for the land. He kept excellent accounts of crop and timber proceedings. He’d make a good tenant farmer, maybe even an adequate squire one day.”
“I tried to sit with him, but we’re like oil and water so much of the time. He has no experience in running an estate this size, no training to speak of, being a second son, and yet he was the only one who stepped forward with assistance.”
“I am sorry this all came about. I had no idea you were that ill, or we would have been here. As it was, he informed us about it later, when you were already on the mend.” Darcy shook his head “Regardless, I should have contacted you; it was unforgivably childish of me to sulk so long, and he never told me about your steward or your secretary! Both incapacitated at the same time—imagine that. Quite a bit of bad luck, that.”
“Don’t give me that smug look!” She glanced sideways at him and smiled. “Yes, Darcy, I know they are old—just as I am, but, heavens, I cannot just push them out if they don’t wish to leave! I owe them so much, and they are part of my family. They are just as much a part of Rosings as I am and I will keep them all around me for as long as I can!”
They sat together for more than an hour and talked about old times and memories long forgotten. They laughed a little and cried a little until Darcy let out a great yawn and stretched his arms.
“Well, I must get to bed, and so should you, Catherine.” He helped her to her feet, and she suddenly appeared very tiny and frail to him. Gone was her immense wig, and in its place, a graying braid rested over her shoulder, most of her hair hidden under her favorite nightcap. Her feet were in slippers instead of the higher-heeled shoes she wore to give herself a needed inch or two, and the wrinkles around her eyes and face were more exposed now that she was unadorned with powder or lip rouge or the mysteriously moving patch that Richard and he used to laugh about.
“I don’t sleep as much as I used to, Darcy,” she said. “As you get older, it becomes harder to turn off memories, and believe me, they devil you to distraction at night. You get off to bed, though. The storm is still wailing outside, and you have a lovely young wife awaiting you who will want comforting during all the thunder. You need not give this old woman any more of your time.”
Darcy hugged her tightly and kissed her forehead before saying good night. Then she was alone again. She thought that perhaps she would go to Anne’s room and check on her, a mother’s habit that would never die.
Picking up her candle, she went out into a hall dimly lit with wall sconces, smiling when she saw Darcy close the door to his suite of rooms. That was good—another of her babies would soon be safely in bed.
She padded her way down to Anne’s suites to look in at her sleeping daughter, walking over quickly to close the windows that were allowing in some of the pouring rain. Clucking and grumbling, she brought a towel from the linen drawer and placed it over the rain-soaked carpet. Will these children never learn to listen to me? She harrumphed.
With relaxation still eluding her, she decided to check on the other rooms, to make certain servants were everywhere if needed. Jamison had done a good job, she noted to herself, as there appeared to be a footman every ten feet, the lightning outside illuminating the old mansion every few moments. She turned down the far hallway toward Fitzwilliam’s rooms, laughing to herself at his earlier comments. He truly was rather far from the main part of the house. He and Darcy had always had the west wing of rooms to themselves whenever they visited. She felt bachelors should have their privacy, especially from a nosy old aunt.
She saw a faint light below his door . Is Fitzwilliam still awake? It must be nearing 3:00 a.m. The two footmen assigned there bowed at her approach, which she amiably acknowledged, and then on her signal, one knocked softly on the door. After a few moments, she heard her nephew’s gruff bark. “Who is it?”
“Eleanor of Aquitaine. May I enter?”
She heard him chuckle. “Enter at your own peril. The Lionheart is in residence.”
When the door opened, he arose slowly from his seat before the fire. Her eyes immediately focused on the balcony doors as she approached him. They were flung wide, allowing in the cooling air.
“Good heavens, Richard, it’s raining outside, you fool.” She marched over to the doors to close them, barely refraining herself from closing the windows also. “It is freezing in here.”
“Aunt Catherine, the rain is not coming in this direction, and the room is only now beginning to cool down. God in heaven, woman, how can you think it freezing? Are you completely devoid of blood?” His eyes were scowling even as his lips fought off a smile.