“It isn’t going to happen in this lifetime,” she announced, glaring at him. “And as I have only this one, you’re in for a big disappointment.”
His laughter was low and amused, rife with that mocking male superiority that said she would be easy enough to handle. “Come on, honey. The others will be rising soon. We have miles to travel this night to stay on schedule. The cats will need to feed before we go.” He did not add that all of his family would have to do the same. He sensed her deep fear that he wanted her to use for sustenance, that perhaps he intended the rest of them to use her, also. He wanted to reassure her but knew mere words would not help.
He reached down and pulled her to her feet. She was so unexpectedly light for a woman with such an iron will, and he was so enormously strong, he felt he might fling her into the sky if he wasn’t careful.
The moment she was standing, she jerked away, wiping her palms on her jeans, glaring at him. He might rule everyone around him, but she wasn’t about to stand for his nonsense. She wasn’t going to become a food supply for anyone. And she certainly wasn’t going to have some male fantasy figure dominating her life. She might have a penchant for trouble, but she wasn’t stupid.
Darius glanced down at her transparent, expressive little face as they walked back toward the camp. She could not hide her thoughts from him anymore, now that he realized the differences in her mind. His earlier troubles served him right for being so complacent and sure of himself in his dealings with her. She was an unusual mortal, yet he hadn’t considered that he would have to delve deeper than he normally would. Aside from thinking too much, Tempest had an interesting mind, a way of focusing in on one thing only and blocking out everything else.
She stumbled a little, and he slipped an arm around her shoulders despite her little shrug of retreat. By nature, Tempest was accepting of others. She also understood the way animals reasoned, their survival instincts. So it would require her only a step or two to accept the Carpathian way of life.
Darius knew she could accept it as long as it didn’t encroach on
her
way of life. Tempest lived like a nomad. That was essentially the same way his group lived, but she preferred a solitary existence. She understood an animal’s way of life, had strong survival instincts herself, but she had less understanding of people and why they did the things they did. Growing up in a crack house, with mothers selling their children for drugs, selling their own souls for the drugs, she had decided at an early age that she wanted little to do with people, and nothing had happened since to change her mind.
Rusti inched away from the warmth of Darius’s body. She didn’t like the way he made her feel, that out-of-control rush of hungry need. He was too dangerous, too powerful, far too used to getting his way in all things. She liked her quiet, independent life. Solitude suited her. The last thing she needed was to be caught up in Darius’s bizarre troupe of followers.
She sighed, unaware that she did so. She couldn’t stay with the Dark Troubadors. The sanctuary they had seemed to offer was rapidly turning into something she wasn’t equipped to handle.
Darius glanced down at her bent head, the faraway, pensive look on her face, the sadness reflected in her large eyes. He laced his fingers through hers. “There is no need to worry so much, honey. I have sworn to protect and care for you. I do not take such oaths lightly.”
“This isn’t exactly something a person can prepare herself for, Darius. Even if you’re a... a Carpathian rather than a vampire, whatever you are isn’t altogether human. I know that when you communicate mentally with me.”
“Are you so certain that
you
are completely human? When I merge my mind with yours, I observe brain patterns different from those of ordinary mortals.”
She winced, looking as if he’d struck her. “I know I’m different. Believe me, you aren’t telling me anything I haven’t heard before. You can’t call me anything I haven’t already been called. Freak. Mutation. Frigid. You name it, I’ve heard it.”
Darius stopped abruptly, forcing Tempest to do the same. He brought her hand to the warmth of his mouth. “I did not mean it that way. I admire what you are. If either of us is a ‘mutation’ from the norm, Tempest, it is me, not you. I am in no way human. I am an immortal. And I can assure you that you are neither a freak nor frigid. Your heart and soul were simply waiting for mine. Not everyone can hand themselves over to just anyone. A few know that the giving of the treasure of one’s body, one’s intimacy, is sacred, meant solely for the one they were made for, their other half. Perhaps those who taunted you were jealous of that knowledge in you because they were in far too much of a hurry to wait or because they held themselves too cheap.”
Her long lashes hid her emerald eyes. “I’m not a virgin, Darius.”
“Because some man forced himself on you?”
“I think you have a false impression of me. I’m no angel, Darius. I’ve stolen cars, souped them up, gone for joy rides. I’ve always rebelled against so-called authority figures, probably because the ones I knew left a bad taste in my mouth. It always amazes me how the most self-righteous people, the ones forever preaching and pointing fingers at others, often do the most underhanded and dishonest things. Once I could support myself, I came up with my own code of honor, and that’s what I live by. But I’m no saint, and I never have been. The places I come from don’t breed saints.”
Darius was becoming familiar with every nuance of her voice. She sounded slightly sad, accepting of her brutalizing childhood but angry with herself for trusting others during those terrible years. Trusting them and having them let her down. That was why she preferred the solitary existence she had chosen, and he could sense her determination not to give it up, despite her need to. The job as mechanic to their traveling band had represented the ability to support herself and be free from the demands of intimate, prolonged contact with other people. He was taking that away from her.
“Perhaps it would be easier on you if I removed your memories of what I am. I could do it properly, Tempest,” he offered. He found himself reluctant to do so, however. Somehow he wanted her to accept him as he was.
She shook her head adamantly. “No. If you did something like that, I would never be able to trust anything you said or did.”
“You wouldn’t remember, and it would take away your unnecessary fears. It does not make sense to me that you should remain afraid of us when we regard you as family,” he said reasonably.
“No, don’t do that to me,” she insisted.
For a moment his dangerously predatory eyes moved over her face, a red flame flickering in their depths, reminding her of a wolf, a relentless hunter. What did she know of him? Only that he was not human but “Carpathian,” allegedly immortal. And that he believed he had a right to her. She knew little of the unusual powers and properties he’d mentioned, but she felt them radiate out of his every pore. She could be lulled into a false sense of security because he often treated her gently, even tenderly.
But Darius was first and foremost a predator, yet with all the cunning and intellect of a human. He was dark, mysterious, dangerous, powerful, and very, very sensual It was a formidable combination. Tempest nearly groaned aloud. How was she going to get out of this mess? His thumb was feathering over her knuckles, sending darts of fire racing through her bloodstream. Why did she have to be attracted to him? Especially if he was more beast than man? Was it because he was the first male who had ever treated her with such care? Was it because he was so utterly lonely and in need?
“Stop thinking so much, Tempest,” he repeated softly a hint of laughter in his velvet voice. “You are making things seem worse than they are.” He was becoming tempted to remove her memories despite her reluctance just to ease her fears, yet he was selfish enough to want her to know what he was and have the courage to stay with him anyway.