For some reason she hesitated, standing just outside. She could see the foyer, the marble entrance. It beckoned, drew her, a sanctuary. Why had he asked her so formally? Why didn’t he just stay quiet and allow her to enter? Jaxon turned over his words in her mind. There was a formality, almost a ritual feeling, to them. Lucian remained silent, adding to her apprehension that there was something she wasn’t comprehending.
Jaxon turned to face him, tilting her head to look up into his black eyes. Soulless. Lost. Alone. He stood tall and straight in complete stillness, his face in the shadows. “If I enter of my own free will, does that give you some kind of power over me?” She couldn’t help sounding nervous.
He didn’t laugh at her as she feared he might. He simply watched, unblinking, steady. Jaxon moistened her suddenly dry lips. “Answer me truthfully. Does it somehow bind us together or make it so I’m a prisoner here?”
“If you fear me so much, why would you think I would reveal the truth simply because you ask it of me?”
“I just know you would.” She shrugged delicately. “I know things, and you don’t lie to me. So tell me.”
“I have already bound us together with the ritual words. You cannot leave me any more than I could leave you.”
She blinked. “Ritual words?” Before he could reply, she shook her head. “Don’t go there. I’m not going to get distracted. Will I be a prisoner?”
“As for being my prisoner here in this house, you are able to come and go as you please.” She remained looking up at him. Lucian slowly smiled, his mischievous little-boy smile that would likely get him out of lots of trouble. “Unless, of course, there is danger to you.”
“I can’t wait to hear who determines what constitutes danger. You aren’t making this easy for me. I have no idea why I’m allowing you to walk into my life and take it over. And, Lucian”—she smiled sweetly up at him—”I am not the same as you. Whatever you are, and I’m not ready to find out yet, your ritual words can’t bind us. I make my own decisions in matters of relationships. Yes, I will enter your home of my own free will.”
She stepped across the threshold and nearly panicked.
Something deep within her shifted and came alive. It was so strong, she almost turned around to run back outside, unable to identify what it was but certain her body, her heart, and her soul recognized this place, this man. Lucian’s larger frame blocked the doorway. He caught at her small waist and simply held her, the strength in his arms enormous, yet he was so gentle he never could have hurt her. “What is it?”
“I don’t know. I feel as if I’m not me anymore. As if somehow you’re slowly taking me over. Are you doing that?” She didn’t try to get free. She wasn’t even certain she really wanted to be free Her large eyes searched his expression seriously.
“I would never want to take you over. You are exactly who you are supposed to be. We have spent so much time, each of us alone, it is strange, perhaps, to share so much together so soon. But we are lifemates, and we will adjust.”
She leaned into him even as she turned to face the huge room. “I feel as if I belong here, as if I know this place.”
“You do belong here. Go explore. If there is anything you wish to change, feel free to do so.” He opened his arms, allowing her to step away from him.
The house was even more beautiful than Jaxon had remembered. She tried not to stare around her in complete awe. In her job as a police officer, she had certainly been in more than one mansion, but this was extraordinary. In a way it evoked an Old-World elegance, a forgotten time. There was even a ballroom with a parquet dance floor. Her favorite room was a massive library made cozy by a large fireplace with two comfortable chairs placed in front of it, an antique reading table between them. On three walls were floor-to-ceiling bookcases, a ladder on rails the only way to ascend to the top shelves. She saw every kind of book imaginable, from fiction to science, old to new. She noted that the books, some of them ancient, were in several languages. It was a virtual treasure trove. Jaxon felt she could spend a good portion of her life right in that room and be happy.
The house was far larger than she had imagined, even larger than it appeared from the outside. The kitchen alone was bigger than her entire apartment. Lucian glided up behind her so silently, she nearly jumped out of her skin. “It is not your apartment any longer. I told your landlady she could rent it out.” He said it softly, proving he was still a silent shadow in her mind.
“You did not.” Jaxon swung around, her hands on her hips, daring him to be telling her the truth. “Of course I did. You do not belong there. You never belonged there,” he answered complacently.
“I know you wouldn’t dare give away my apartment. They’re not exactly easy to come by, especially on my salary.” Jaxon stared up at him, trying to read his expression. “You couldn’t have, Lucian.” She was trying to convince herself as well as him. “Surely my landlady would have insisted on the lease being fulfilled.”
He shrugged, not in the least perturbed. “She was willing to accept cash. I find in most cases it works quite well. Have you not had similar findings?”
“You really did it, didn’t you? Oh, my God, I’ve got to call her. Where the heck are the telephones in this place? You can’t just do that. You can’t.” She glared at him. “You don’t even feel remorse. I’m looking at you, and I don’t see one speck of remorse in you at all. You don’t even feel it, do you?”
“I see no reason to experience such an emotion. You are in our home, where you belong. The elderly woman was more than satisfied with the cash for the lease and will be able to find a new renter immediately. It worked out quite well for everyone.”
“Not for me. I need my own space, Lucian. I really do.” Exasperated, she shook her head. What was the use? He didn’t seem to understand what he had done.
“There is more than enough space here, is there not?” He looked puzzled, his black eyes seeking out every corner of the room. “There is much you have not even seen yet. The grounds are immense, and in many of the walls are secret passageways and other rooms. I am certain there is enough space for you right here.” Just in case Jaxon should touch his mind, Lucian made certain his amusement was buried deeply. He continued to look innocent and straight-faced.
Jaxon shook her head and gave up. He was exasperating, and she was too tired to deal with him. She would work it out another day—phone her landlady and get her place back. Right now she was too tired and confused. Maybe she was hungry. She should be hungry, but every time she actually thought of food, she felt slightly sick. The refrigerator was intimidating. She stood in front of it. “When I was shot, was my stomach affected?”
For the first time she was aware of his hesitation. Jaxon felt her breath catch in her throat. “Why do you ask? Are you hurting?” His voice, strictly neutral, gave nothing away.
“I’m hungry, but the thought of food makes me feel nauseated. In fact, I can’t remember eating or drinking anything since I woke up. Is something wrong with me, or am I being paranoid?”
“I can hear that fear in your voice again. The unknown. It is the worst fear of all, is it not?” He said it so softly, she shivered. Whatever he was about to reveal, she did not want to know.
Jaxon held up a hand and shook her head without looking at him. “I think I’ll walk around outside. The grounds look beautiful. In any case, I need to know my way around.” She went to move past him, attempting to duck under his arm.
Lucian’s arm dropped down like a gate. He curved it around her and swept her up against him. “Do not fear the truth. It is different, but it is not evil.”
She squared her shoulders. “Then tell me. Get it over with. Whatever needs to be said, just come out with it. I’m an adult, not the child you think me.”