"Well, maybe," Kristin said distractedly. She stood from the pile of hay she'd been sitting on. "Maybe."
"Your Pa's dead, Kristin. You're smart and you're tough. But not tough enough to take on Zeke on your own."
He looked at her expectantly. She felt like laughing. Everyone thought she could help. Everyone thought that all she had to do was bat her eyelashes at Cole Slater and he'd come straight to their rescue. If they only knew.
"We'll talk about it in the morning," she told him.
When she returned to the house, it was dinnertime.
Delilah had set out the good china and fine crystal again. She'd made a honeyed ham, candied yams, turnip greens and a blueberry pie.
Shannon and Cole Slater talked all through the meal. There might not have been a war on. There might not have been anything wrong with the world at all, the way the two of them talked. Shannon was beautiful and charming, and Cole was the perfect gentleman.
Kristin tried to smile, and she tried to answer direct questions. But all she could remember was that he had rejected her — and that she needed him desperately. She hated him, yet trembled if their hands so much as brushed when they reached for something at the same time.
She drank far too much Madeira with dinner.
When he went out back to smoke a cigar afterward, Kristin decided to take another bath. She hoped Delilah would think she hadn't been able to wash away the miserable stench of the morning.
Shannon was a sweetheart, tender and caring. Kristin realized when Shannon kissed her goodnight that her sister was suffering more then she had realized. She was just taking it all stoically, trying to ease Kristin's pain with smiles and laughter.
Shannon went to bed.
Kristin dressed in her best nightgown. It had been part of her mother's trousseau. It was soft, sheer silk that hugged her breasts in a pattern of lace, then fell in gentle swirls around her legs.
She sat at the foot of her bed in the gown, and she waited. She was still, but fires raged inside her.
She had to make him stay, no matter what it took.
This was something that she had to do.
She heard his footsteps on the stairs at last. She heard him walk down the hallway, and then she heard the door to her parents' room open and close.
She waited, waited as long as she could, as long as she dared. Then she stood and drifted barefoot across the hardwood floor. She opened her door and started across the hall. She nearly panicked and fled, but something drew her onward. She wondered if she had gone mad, wondered if the world really had been turned upside down. Nothing could ever be the same again.
She hated him, she told herself. And he had already turned her down once.
One day she would best him.
She placed her hand on the doorknob and turned it slowly. Then she pushed open the door.
The room was dark. Only a streak of moonlight relieved the blackness. Kristin stood there for several seconds, blinking, trying to orient herself. It was foolish. She had waited too long. He was probably fast asleep.
He wasn't asleep. He was wide awake. He was sitting up in bed, his chest bare. He was watching her. Despite the darkness, she knew that he was watching her, that he had been waiting for her and that he was amused.
"Come on, Kristin," he said softly. He wasn't whispering like a man afraid of being caught at some dishonorable deed. He was speaking softly out of consideration for the others in the house, not out of fear. He wouldn't give a damn about convention, she thought. And yet he seemed to expect her to respect it.
Men.
"I, uh… just wanted to see if you needed anything."
"Sure." He smiled knowingly. "Well, I don't need anything. Thank you."
The bastard. He really meant to make it hard for her.
"That's a nice outfit to wear to check on your male guests, ma'am." He said the last word with a slow, calculated Southern drawl, and she felt her temper flare. Where the hell was he from?
"Glad you like it," she retorted.
"Oh, I do like it. Very much."
This was getting them nowhere. No, it was getting her nowhere.
"Well…"
"Come here, Kristin."
"You come here."
He grinned. "If you insist."
She should have known he would be lying there nude beneath the sheets.
Well, she had come to seduce him, after all.
She just hadn't imagined his body. The length of it. She couldn't remember what she had imagined. Darkness, and tangle of sheets… She had known it involved a naked man, but she hadn't known just how a naked man could be.
She tried to keep her eyes on his, aware that a crimson tide was rushing to her face. She wished she had the nerve to shout, to run, to scream, but she didn't seem to be able to do anything at all.
Her eyes slipped despite her best efforts, slipped and then widened. She knew that he saw it, and she knew that he was amused. But she didn't move and she didn't speak, and when he stood before her at last, his hands on his hips, she managed to toss her head back and meet his gaze with a certain bravado.
He placed his hands against the wall on either side of her head. "Like what you see?" he inquired politely.
"Someone should really slap the living daylights out of you," she told him sweetly.
"You didn't do badly."
"Good." She was beginning to shake. Right now it was a mere tremor, but it was growing. He was so close that… that part of his body was nearly touching the swirling silk of her gown. She felt his breath against her cheek. She felt the heat radiating from him. She bit her lip, trying to keep it from quivering.
He pushed away from the wall. He touched her cheek with his palm, then stroked it softly with his knuckles. She stared at him, unable to move. She knew then that he could see that she was trembling. His eyes remained locked with hers. He moved his hand downward and cupped her breast.
The touch was so intimate, so bold, that she nearly cried out. He grazed her nipple with his thumb, and sensations shot through her with an almost painful intensity. She caught her breath, trying desperately to keep from crying out. And then she realized that he was watching her eyes carefully, gauging her reactions.
She knocked his hand away and tried to push by him, but he caught her shoulders and threw her against the wall.
"I hurt your feelings before. But then, I don't think that you were lacking in self-confidence. You must know that you're beautiful. Your hair is so golden and you have the bearing of a young Venus. Kristin, it isn't you. It's me. I haven't got any emotion left. I haven't got what you need, what you want. Damn it, don't you understand? I want you. I'm made out of flesh and blood and whatever else it is that God puts into men. I want you. Now. Hell, I could have wanted you right after I ripped another man away from you. I'm no better than he is, not really. Don't you understand?"
She drew herself up against the wall. She hated him, and she hated herself. She had lost again.
"I only know that I need you. Emotion! I saw my father murdered, and Adam…"
"Yes, and Adam."
"And Adam is dead, too. So if you're worried about some kind of emotional commitment, you're a fool. I want help against Zeke Moreau."
"You want me to kill him."
"It's worth any price."
"I told you… I don't murder men in cold blood."
"Then I just want protection."
"How badly?"
"Desperately. You know that."
"Show me."
She stepped toward him and placed her hands around his neck. Suddenly she realized that she hadn't the least idea of what to do. Instinct guided her, instinct and nothing more.
She stepped closer, pressing against him so that she could feel the length of his naked body through the thin silk of her gown. She wound her arms around his neck and came up on tiptoe to press her lips against his, summoning up the memory of the kiss he had given her. She felt him, felt the instrument of his desire pulsing against her. She felt the muscles of his chest and belly and thighs. Then she felt his arms, powerful around her.