She couldn’t take him to a hospital. Once, she had tried to explain to the men in white coats; she had tried to show them. … She hadn’t tried again. The darkness inside her shifted at the memory.
This man knew everything already. He had no need to come at her with needles and shocks. She removed his eyeglasses and tucked them into his pocket. Determination stiffened her spine, and she lifted the man more gently than she’d dealt with the—what had he called them?—the ferales.
Fresh blood pooled in the tear of his coat and spattered over her. She had to save him. He could tell her what she was; he could tell her why the most horrific monsters in the city cried out and fled from her.
A peculiar warmth trickled through her. Not the pathway of his blood—she was familiar enough with that sensation. This was different and long forgotten.
She was not alone.
A passing vehicle blared at her as she darted across the street, the man an unwieldy weight across her shoulders. Fortunately, the people of the city would notice only that she was small and her burden was large, and they would not imagine she could carry a full-grown man. They would remember, perhaps, a woman carrying a sack of laundry.
Delusions were so lovely.
She had roamed far tonight from her usual haunts. Now she knew why. God had finally taken pity on her and led her to this man who did not scream at monsters—monsters like her.
Fortitude carried her, and she carried the man, although his sliding weight tugged her collar tight until she choked and her limp turned to a stagger by the time she crept down the stairs to her basement hideaway.
She maintained a careful disguise of withered leaves and soft moss on the concrete steps—not so mussed that anyone felt obliged to come down and sweep, but not so tidy that they might think the area in use. The rust on the old lock resisted even a determined tug, but it yielded to her hand. She pulled it into place behind them.
When she faced the room, though, her remaining strength drained away. It was a pit, a cold grave lacking even the comforts of a proper casket. The mattress had been disgusting long before she salvaged it. She couldn’t lay him there, but the cracked floor was worse.
Perhaps he would have preferred to bleed to death in the alley.
But since he was insensible, he had no say. With quick, cautious hands, she eased him out of his coat and shirt. His breath caught once, when she slipped the sleeve off his bitten arm, but he did not rouse.
So much blood. In the dark hours of winter, when memories rose chill as hoarfrost out of nothing, she sometimes remembered long-ago sermons on the blandishments of the devil. They’d neglected to mention the piercing teeth.
She ripped the lower panel of her skirt and used the thin fabric to clean him. After, she drained the last of the jug of water she’d stolen from an unwatchful delivery man; the wounds were open and, she saw at last, not fatal.
The thick pad of muscle had protected him. He was not as tall as most men seemed to be these days, which was just as well considering how far she had carried him. But the calculated breadth of his shoulders told her he had considered the shortcoming and compensated.
She realized she’d let her hands linger on those shoulders and forced herself to move on.
With the last unbloodied corner of her shift, she brushed away a thick russet lock of his hair and swabbed his forehead. Her dirty heel had left a smear where she’d kicked him. She wished she’d thought that through first, but the devils—the ferales—had been there, and she hadn’t wanted him in the way.
At least she’d made sure to temper the kick so she hadn’t lashed his head off his shoulders, which happened sometimes with the ferales. If he complained of a headache, she’d have to tell him that.
She contemplated the man’s face. He had labored to make his body hard, but even the slight crookedness of his nose—a natural flaw, she decided; he had never been hit—couldn’t disguise his boyish handsomeness. Though tightened with pain, the lines of his mouth arched in a way that beckoned her to touch.
She slowed the stroke of the rag, almost giving in. He wouldn’t know. One quick brush of her dirty hand across his lower lip to discover if his lips were as soft and giving as she imagined.
She reached for him, though not with her finger. Instead, she leaned down so her mouth hovered above his. The scent of his bared skin—something both turbulent and steadfast, like the place where the wind over the lake lashed the steel seawalls—roused her senses, and she shivered as if caught in that wild, breathtaking storm.
All night she’d been irresistibly drawn to the alley—to him—and the compulsion ached within her still. So long, so long since she had touched or been touched. One kiss was all she needed; one sweet memory and maybe she would forget the screams, for this night at least. She tilted her head and touched her lips to his.
Just as he opened his eyes.
CHAPTER 2
He was being stalked.
In the pitch blackness, something was after him. Sid braced himself for attack, but the drift of a warm mouth over his stunned him to dumb immobility and submerged his blind fear in a wash of purely physical sensation.
Wits spinning from blood loss and confusion, he struggled to list what he knew. The girl—she was kissing him. He wasn’t dead, not if the fervent pounding of his heart was any indication, and his lovely rescuer had awakened him with a kiss.
He’d never had a chance to believe in fairy tales—the monsters in the dark had crowded them out—but for this moment he could make an exception.
Her touch was as light as that of a ghost and her mouth chastely closed. But the faintest quiver of her breath told him she held back so much more. And he wanted it, just for this moment where fairy tale and darkness came together.
He tilted his head and drew her lower lip between his, a gentle suction that parted her lips and released her gasp of pleasure. He took the chance to rim the inner curve of soft, moist flesh.
The soft sound she made this time was more … a growl of low double octaves.
Demonic.
He bolted upright, smacked his forehead into hers, and fell back before his brain had finished fully catching up with his consciousness.
“What am I—?” he stammered, not quite as loud as her “I just wanted to see—”
They both fell silent, and he stared hard into the nothingness.
How could such utter darkness be so alive? Every little puff of air and whisper of sound tingled over his skin.
He struggled to slow his racing pulse. “You just wanted to see what? I can’t see a thing.”
“’Tis dark.” The sibilance of shifting cloth told him she was moving away. “But I can see you.”
He reached out, and his fingers brushed some rough material before it twitched beyond his grasp. Exasperation—at himself mostly; how could he have forgotten what she was, even for a moment?—replaced the pain and disquiet. “Of course you can. You are talya, and the teshuva gives you all sorts of advantages.”
“Teshuva? You have not said this word before.”
“The demon,” he snapped, reminding himself why kissing her was stupid, bordering on suicidal. “The demon that possessed you.”
When her voice came again, she sounded far away. “So it was a devil.”
Remorse at his slapdash introduction and the worry that she might leave him here—wherever here was—cramped his belly. He winced, not from his own pain. “You didn’t know?”
“I—I knew.”
“But didn’t want to believe.”
“What am I?” Her whisper was sepulchral. In the black, violet flared and guttered.
His hackles prickled at the evidence of her demon’s restlessness. “You are still you, with the addition of a repentant teshuva demon seeking redemption via the destruction of the horde-tenebrae in this realm. Those would be the ferales, malice, and the salambe lurking in the alley.”