The Archive.
Caroline, what do you suppose would constitute the ultimate history, from a god’s-eye view?
Not someone’s interpretation of the past, however thoughtful and objective. Nor could it be the past itself, which is difficult to consult in any direct and simple fashion.
No, the ultimate practical history book would be history in a looking glass, the past re-created faithfully in some accessible way, to be opened like a book in all its original tongues and dialects; a faithful working model, but with all the empty spaces removed for the purpose of simplification, and accessible to Mind at Large in a fashion that wouldn’t alter or disturb the book itself.
The Archive was static, because history doesn’t change, but it was swept at long intervals by what the picket called a “Higgs field,” which he compared to a phonograph needle following the groove of a recording. The record doesn’t change, but a dynamic event — the music — is coaxed out of a fixed object.
In a sane world, of course, the music is identical each time the record is played. But what if you put a Mozart symphony on the phonograph and it turned into Die Zauberflöte halfway through?
Dazed as I was, I could see where this was headed.
The picket’s World War was the Mozart symphony. The conversion of Europe was Die Zauberflöte.
“You’re telling me we’re inside this Archive?”
He nodded calmly.
I shivered. “Does that mean — are you telling me that I’m a sort of history book — or a page, at least, or a paragraph?”
“You were meant to be,” he said.
This was an awful lot to absorb, of course, even in a receptive state. And, Caroline, when I think of you reading this… you must be certain I’ve gone mad.
And maybe you’re right. I would almost prefer to believe it myself. But I wonder whether this letter is really addressed to you… to you, I mean, to Caroline in Australia… or to that other Caroline, the Caroline whose image I carried into the wilderness, the Caroline who sustained me there.
Maybe she’s not altogether extinct, that Caroline. Maybe she’s reading over your shoulder.
Do you grasp the enormity of what this specter told me?
He suggested — in broad daylight and in the plainest language — that the world around me, the world you and I inhabit, is nothing more than a sustained illusion inside a machine at the end of time.
This went far beyond what I could easily accept, despite all my experience with Mssrs. Burroughs, Verne, and Wells.
“I can’t make it any more plain,” he said, “or ask you to do more than consider the possibility.”
It gets more complicated. When we were a “history book,” Caroline, every event, every action, was predetermined, a rote repetition of what had gone before — though of course there was no way we could have known that.
But psilife has injected “chaos” (his word) into the system — which is the equivalent of what the theologians call “free will”!
Which means, the picket said, that you and I and all the other sentient beings who had been “modeled” in the Archive have become independent, unpredictable moral entities — real lives, that is; new lives, which Sentience is sworn to protect!
The psilife invasion, in other words, has freed us from a machine-like existence… even though psilife means to hold us hostage and ultimately to exterminate us all.
(Tempting to think of these psilife entities as the Rebel Angels. They gave us status as moral creatures by bringing evil into the world — and must be fought to the death even though they freed us!)
We talked a while longer, as the last of the morning mist burned off and the day turned brighter. The picket grew more ghostly in the light of noon. He cast a shadow, but it wasn’t as dark as mine.
At last I asked him the most important question: why had he come here, and what did he want from me?
His answer was lengthy and disquieting.
He asked for my help.
I refused it.
Dr. Sullivan, when he argued with Preston Finch, would often quote Berkeley back at him. The words stuck with me. “Things and actions are what they are, and the consequences of them will be what they will be; why then should we wish to be deceived?”
Sometimes we do, though, Caroline. Sometimes we do wish to be deceived.
It might surprise you to know I’m going back to the Continent, probably to one of the Mediterranean settlements. Fayetteville or Oro Delta. The weather is warm there. The prospects are fresh.
But I mentioned that I have a favor to ask.
Your life in Australia is yours to pursue, Caroline. I know you carry a burden of unhappiness I was never able to lift from your shoulders. Maybe you found a way to lay that burden down for good and all. I hope so. I won’t question your decision and I won’t come after Lily uninvited.
But please — I beg this one favor of you — please don’t let Lily go on thinking I’m dead.
I’m sending this with a Mr. Barnes, who signed on with a Red Cross refugee transport bound for Sydney, on the understanding that he’ll forward it to any living relative of Lieutenant Colin Watson. I’ve instructed him to do nothing that would compromise the Lieutenant’s position vis-à-vis the military. Mr. Barnes seems trustworthy and discreet.
Also enclosed, my notes from the winter on the Continent. Think of them as letters I couldn’t send. Maybe when Lily’s older she’ll want to see them.
I know I’m not the husband you hoped for. I sincerely hope time and memory will be gentle to both of us.
I doubt we’ll meet again.
But please remember me to Lily. Maybe we’re all only phantoms in a machine. It’s an explanation Dr. Sullivan might have been interested to hear. But no matter what we are — we are. Lily is my daughter. I love her. That love is real, if nothing else. Please tell her so. Tell her I love her very much and always.
Always.
Always.
Interlude
The seed-sentience Guilford Law dropped into the Archive on a nucleus of complex matter no larger than a grain of sand.
A steady rain of such grains fell into the Archive continuously. They were seed-sentiences drawn from every world, every species whose history was jeopardized by the psilife incursion. Each grain was in effect a weapon, stealthed against recognition and cued to interact with the Archive’s hermetic substructure in ways that would divert the attention of the enemy.
Battles raged at every point within the Archive. Subsentient Turing packets roamed freely, seeking out the algorithmic signature of psilife and interrupting its reproduction. Psilife nodes, in turn, mutated or disguised their reproductive codes. Predator packets flourished for a time, then died back as the invaders targeted and stalled their attack sequences. The war became an ecology.
Guilford’s role lay elsewhere. His autonomic systems tapped the functional architecture of the Archive and delivered him to the replica of the archaic Earth. He could not manifest himself as a phenomenological being — at least, not functionally, and not for long — but he could communicate directly with the replica Guilford Law.
What happened here was important. Psilife had radically altered the ontosphere that was the heart of the Archive. The scars of battle were everywhere.
The continent of Europe had been revised in a single stroke, overridden with a mutant history. Psilife had attempted to create an evolutionary sequence which would permit their entry into the ontosphere through the vehicle of subsentient insectile creatures.