As we left the stage, Kitty said: "There is to be a supper. I have sent a message over to your parents to tell them that you will be staying for that, and that they are not to worry, for someone will escort you home."
I was in a haze of happiness. I had never dreamed that anything like this could happen to me. Tonight I had learned something about myself. I wanted to be an actress, to play on a real stage in a real theater.
Kitty was smiling at me. I think she knew exactly what I was feeUng. She was amused and I think rather pleased.
In my beautiful dress—which Maria had worn when she was in London—I felt just like one of these people. The dress had had to be altered a little, but not much, so that it fitted me perfectly. It gave me confidence. I felt I was an honored member of the company, especially when people told me how they had enjoyed my performance.
Maria said: "You were good. You should have seen your face when you lost the herrings! You made us all feel very sorry for you. We were so glad when Lord Whatever-his-name-was took you home. My word! You showed them all, did you not?" She laughed. "It was fun, anyway. People will be talking about it for weeks. My mother is very pleased. Everyone will be wanting to do plays in their houses."
Kitty was with me when we went into the dining room where, in addition to the main table, several small ones had been set too.
"We help ourselves, I believe, from the long table," said Kitty, "where the food is laid out. Fm hungry. I always am after a show. That's because I am too overwrought to eat beforehand. Lady Wilier ton was a good prompter, did you not think? And she needed to be! Your benefactor kept getting lost, did he not? I noticed you helped him more than once. You learned his part as well as your own."
"It was necessary," I replied, "in that long scene we did together in the first act."
"Oh yes, when the clumsy oaf knocked your basket out of your hand and told you his life story. You lived it, did you not? You believed every word of it. That is why you came over so well. You were really deep in it. Now, food."
Somebody was beside us. It was the man who had been in the front row and who had applauded so vociferously.
"I shall join you," he said.
Kitty laughed. "That is just like my lord," she said to me. "Never a 'May I?,' always *I shall.' "
"It is better that way, I do assure you," he replied. "So I repeat that I shall take the liberty of joining you two young ladies for supper." He turned to me. "I was entranced by the play."
Kitty gave him a supercilious look. She said to me: "He is going to tell us that we outclassed Mrs. Betterton, and Mrs. Anne Marshall would have been mad with envy if she had seen the play tonight, that Thomas Killigrew will be determined to put on our little masterpiece and he will, of course, realize that none could play it as we did tonight."
"You take the words out of my mouth, Lady Donnerton," he said, "and your wit is equal to your Thespian talents."
"This is the way they talk in the circles frequented by my lord," said Kitty to me. "In the words of another playwright, Tull of sound and fury, signifying nothing.' "
"I assure you, sweet Mistress," he replied, turning to me, "the lady maligns me." Then to Kitty: "May I have the pleasure of an introduction to our charming waif, now transformed by the happy matter of an overturn of her basket of herrings into a young lady who would grace the King's court?"
"This is Mistress Sarah Standish," said Kitty.
He bowed to me, his eyes twinkling and an expression of what I could not fail to know was admiration.
"And this," went on Kitty, "is Lord Rosslyn."
"I am enchanted," he said, looking at me.
As for myself, I was still in a state of exultation. This was how people behaved in court circles, I imagined. One would have to remember that they did not really mean what they said, but such flattery was very pleasant to hear.
"Let us take this small table," he said. "It will be pleasant to sup a trois. Pray be seated, ladies, and I shall see that we receive the necessary attention."
Kitty and I obeyed and he went off.
She was smiling at me. "I can see why you find this evening's entertainment amusing."
"I have never before known anything like it," I told her.
"You must not think an actress's life is all gaiety and attention from charming lords. It has its darker side."
"It was the play that excited me," I said. "This is just amusing and everything is so new to me."
"Those who praise you to your face often have a very different tale to tell when you are absent. But tonight you have had a glimpse of a kind of theater." She leaned on the table and looked at me very seriously. ''You will be the one to make up your mind what you will do. If you are born to be an actress and do not use your gifts, you could spend a lifetime frustrated and regretful."
A man came to the table. It was Lord Donnerton.
"There you are, my love," he said to Kitty. "I was looking for you." He sat down beside Kitty and smiled at me.
"No need to introduce the young lady," he said. "Your performance was wonderful, my dear."
So this was the man whom Kitty had married and, if I had read her aright, she was already regretting have done so.
He went on: "Rosslyn is getting something for you, he tells me. He'll get one of the men to bring it over."
He was right. Lord Rosslyn soon joined us and with him was one of the serving men, carrying a tray.
It was a merry evening, although I did not understand some of what was said. They came from a different world from the one I knew and I had to realize, I told myself, that after tonight I might never have another glimpse of it.
Lord Rosslyn paid a great deal of attention to me and I noticed that Kitty was a little uneasy about that. I wanted to tell her that, although I could not help being delighted by it, I did not take his flattery seriously.
But there was something more than that on her mind. Kitty was not a happy woman.
The supper was over and people were beginning to move out of the dining room.
Kitty said: "I think it is time you were taken home, Sarah. Although your parents agreed to your staying for supper, they would not want you to be too late home."
"I shall escort Mistress Sarah," said Lord Rosslyn, and, turning to me: "Are you ready?"
"It is a very short distance from the house," said Kitty.
"I dare say I shall be wishing it were longer," said Lord Rosslyn, smiling at me.
I said: "It is very gracious of Lord Rosslyn to offer, but it really is not necessary."
"It is necessary for my pleasure," he said. "Come, Mistress Sarah, I shall take you to your home."
"You see," said Kitty, "I am right, am I not? What did I tell you? Never 'May I?,' always *I shall.' Methinks my lord is a very forceful gentleman."
"As ever, Mistress Kitty, you have assessed the situation accurately."
"Get your cloak," said Kitty to me.
"I shall await you here," added Lord Rosslyn.
So, he would escort me home, I thought. Well, it was gracious of him. After all, he was a noble lord and I but the agent's daughter. I believed such distinctions were very important in the world of which I had just had a glimpse.
I said goodbye to Sir Henry and Lady Willerton, thanked them for a most enjoyable evening and told them that someone was going to escort me home.
They nodded, relieved, I was sure, to be free of the need to concern themselves with me. Lady Willerton told me how pleased she was that I had come, for I had contributed a great deal to the success of the play.